SO COLD | DYLAN O'BRIEN [1] ✔️

Chapter 20: A kiss?

"So guys! Can't express how much i'm happy to have you here around this table! So let's get started!"

I opened my script and started reading carefully every single word that was written on the paper.

We were all together, all the actors of the future film, to read our scripts.
Despite the fact that I was forcing myself not to look at the boy with the hazel eyes, who happens to be sitting right in front of me, my eyes couldn't detach from him, as usual.
I didn't know yet what was special about him.

I spent the last week in his company and I never felt so happy in my entire existence. He took me wherever I wanted. He made me visit all the corners of the streets of Los Angeles, and I can tell you that I've never been so filled with happiness.

This feeling of joy that Dylan conveyed to me was unexpectedly good. He always charmed me with his gentlemanly manners. His delicate way of speaking to me pleased me more than anything. And his smile! Oh his smile was the cutest thing I've ever seen in my life! It was so contagious! So perfect! And I've always believed that perfection didn't exist, I should have met Dylan before then!

I couldn't help but glance at Britt to see if she was reading her script or not. She was sitting next to Dylan and it gave me goosebumps.

Seeing her so close to Dylan didn't please me that much. It's not like i hate Britt, it's just that i get jealous of her every time she speaks to Dylan.

I watched all Dylan's interviews when he used to date that Blonde girl. And i remember very well how he used to say that he loved her more than anything else. How he used to say that she was the love of his life.

It sent me chills down my spine. I don't want them to get together. And i feel so narcissist just by thinking of that but that's the truth.

And then there's this woman's voice i heard from the other line when i called Dylan a few weeks ago. Was it Britt? Or another girl?

Dylan loved Britt. Maybe he still loves her. Because feelings can't vanish immediately after breaking up with someone. If it's true love, then the emotions you feel for another person won't disappear. They will remain. Forever.

Britt lifted her head and looked at me. She shot me a weak smile then went back to reading her pages.

I didn't smile back. I just kept staring at Dylan.

I think the problem is that i'm stuck here waiting for him to do something. And the thing is that, i mocked Holland when she told me that you could fall in love with someone from the first meeting. I thought it was impossible. But maybe i wasn't in love with Dylan. Maybe it was just an attachment. A crush.

I didn't want to make it obvious. Although Dylan considered me a good friend, it just wasn't enough for me. I wanted him to consider me more than that. I know that's bullshit but what can i say?

The other thing is that i'm not sure that Dylan only sees me as a friend. He's always so nice, and funny with me. And most of all, he's always flirting with me.

Which of course annoyed me because it clearly sent me the wrong message. Every time he looks at me, i feel weak and unable to move. I remain paralyzed and let him look at me even longer. And we stare at each other like we're about to kiss.