I think I'm afraid that people are going to treat me....
Differently
When I tell them how psychotic I am.
I fear my best friend breaking into tears
When I tell her I hurt myself
Because I just feel so damn guilty
And so messed up
I fear people laughing at me
When I present my project to the class
It's a good project
But it lacks a good presenter.
I fear that guy that I love with all my heart,
Will leave me
Because I'm just too scared to show how I really feel.
But stop.
Breathe.
What does this mean?
That all I see is fear, I live in a cloud that blinds me and chains me back telling me I can't do anything right?
Correct. Sadly.
I fear my own fear.
I'm afraid that people are going to look at me
With sympathetic eyes
Just because I'm anxious and depressed doesn't mean
I'm not normal...
Does it?
These questions surround me
They stack up and then come crashing down
Right on top of me
I'm afraid one day
I don't be able to do this anymore
Because I'm most afraid
The people I love
Will leave me.
Will they?
The world may never know.
Fear is corrupted
It paralyzed you
You used to be so confident
So strong
So....carefree.
Now look at you.
Afraid of your own damn shadow.
Weak.
Useless.
Pathetic.
You're getting so bad that you want something just to calm you down
But what?
You'd ask for help
But you know you won't get it
So you just keep going
Trying to keep yourself strong
Day by day
You make your way
Out of the fray
And into sweet May
It's now spring
School is almost out
You're excited to be gone.
But wait.
What about your friends that you won't be able to see?
What about the friends that are a grade behind you?
You'll miss them so much.
Better start collecting phone numbers.
Gone
With the wind it seems
Summer was an easy breeze
School is back with all of its teams
And you my dear, are the queen
How though?
Here is the answer.
You keep fighting your battle
You've almost won
But wait my darling
It has just begun.
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My Poetry Book
PoetryIn this book is a collection of poems that I may have personally written, or they may be from a published author. If they are from a published author or from the internet, all credit goes to them. I hope you enjoy these!
