shawn mendes imagines

LAST KISS

A/n hey guys. I said i was going to write Saturday i think and i ended up watching youtube videos,  i got really sick Monday and these 3 days have been crazy. 

*FLASH BACK*

i still remember the look in this face at 1:58

Y/n i just cant do this anymore. I can't bear leave you every few moths and seeing you destroyed when i leave. Shawn said trying to hold he's tears.

Shaw...i tried saying something  while crying but i got interrupted by him 

I'm sorry y/n you can't say or do anything that will make me change my mind. he said a little loud and this time he was in tears  

Just know that i love you with all my heart . he whispered while kissing me softly for the last time just before leaving 

Wait, please. i whispered but it was too late 

*END OF FLASH BACK*

  I cried myself to sleep for weeks 

  I was siting in the floor I was looking through Shawn's things while wearing this sweatshirt.     

He told me he loved me. So why did he go? i said crying to myself 

I saw a picture of Shawn and me the day i went to visit him in tour. That was the longest time i have ever been apart  from him since we met. And the hole plane ride i was just staring at the rain and imagining being in his arms 

*FLASH BACK*  

I do recall now the smell of the rain. Fresh on the pavement. I ran off the plane. That July 9th. 

I could't wait to see him. I got to my gate and i saw him. I ran to him, he embraced me with a big hug. I still can feel his arms.

*END OF FLASH BACK*  

And now there only memories. That's all it is . 

I never thought we'd have a last kiss. Never imagined we'd end like this. I really thought that we were  stronger than that. 

I was still going through things that Shawn kept. I found a party invitation for Illuminate launch party . 

*FLASH BACKS*  

  Shawn started to dance.   

I do remember the swing of he's step. 

The life of the party, he showing off again, and I roll my eyes and then he pulls me in.

I'm not much for dancing. But for him I did.

 One of the many things i love of him. Also that was was the night that he met my dad. I loved him even more that day. I loved him everyday more and more. Just those little things he did. 

Because I love his handshake, meeting my father

I love how he walks with his hands in he's pockets

How he kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something

There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions.

*END OF FLASH BACKS*    

*later that day*

I was in Instagram when a picture of Shawn popes up. 

So I'll watch he's life in pictures like I used to watch him sleep. And I feel him forget me like I used to feel you breathe. And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you he is.

 Hope it's nice where he are. And I hope the sun shines. And it's a beautiful day. And something reminds him, he wish he had stayed

You can plan for a change in weather and time.But I never planned on him changing he's mind. 

Just like our last kiss. Forever the name on my lips

Just like our last...

A/n yep this is based in Taylor Swift Last kiss. I love this song. Even if you don't like Taylor you got to admit her lyrics are brilliant. I love Taylor and i hope you can respect that because she has helped me A LOT. Yes there's sketchy things about her  but her music is so beautiful. 

Bye little munchkins. I love you. Hope you liked it. Vote and comment if you did.