shawn mendes imagines

I'm not the girl for you

A/N Hello guys i have exams these 2 weeks and a lot of homework (that i should be doing right now lol) so im probably going to upload less that i already do sorry. I know i said i would upload yesterday but i had A HUGE PANIC ATTACK. SORRY

DIDN'T READ OVER SORRY. I WILL DO IT TOMORROW OR SOMEDAY HAHA  

Y/n pov

Shawn's new song there's nothing holdingn me back is coming out in a few minutes (lets pretend). I was so exited! He made me wait until it came out to listen to it. He told me this song is different. He also said it was one of he's personal favorites. Ahhgg i can't wait

Y/N!! can you belive it my song is coming out in 1 minutes! Shawn told me with a bright smile

I know Shawn! Am so exited. I can't wait to listen to it! i sad

I hope you like as much as i did. he said to me.

I bet i will love it.

Its out!! i screamed

Im downloading it now!!i sad

*the song starts playing*

*in the first 4 second *

its ssoooo goood !! i screams at Shawn

You have only heard 5 second listen to the whole song before contemplating me. Shawn said blushing a little

But i can't help it! I ALREADY LOVE IT!

*End of the song*

AGGHH I LOVE IT IS SOOOO GOOOD!! I screed hugging Shawn

Aww am glad. I'm going to bed love i have a long day tomorrow doing press. Shawn told me with a happy but sleepy face

Okay baby i will go up later. I'm just going to listen to your song 61354353435 times. I'm just too exited to sleep. I said feeling like i ate a whole bag of candy and a gallon of caffeine. But i can't help it i get so exited when he releases new music!

You are so cute. Don't stay up too late. Okay? he said while giving me a kiss

Okay. Good night love. i said giving him a small smile

Good night darling. He said while going up

I replayed the song over and over. I knew all the lyrics before i went to bed.

*NEXT DAY *

when i woke up Shawn was already gone.

Next to my phone there was a letter from Shawn.

dear y/n

sorry i was not there next to you this morning. I had an interview early morning today in the city so i needed to leave earlier than normal.

Don't wait for me for lunch or diner . I will come a little late. But i will spend all day with you tomorrow i promise.

Love you with all my heart.

love Shawn.

I guess its only me today.

i went down stairs and connected my phone to the speaker and started to listen to TNHMB again and again.

I started to make breakfast for myself.

*Later that day*

I was cleaning my room while listening to TNHMB

Shawn:I will be home at 10 hopefully

delivered 8:17

i immediately answered

Y/N: okay be careful, love you.

read at 8:17

Shawn: i will. i love you too

Delivered at 8:17

i have little less than 2 hours before Shawn comes to shower.

*in the show*

(am i the only one who analogizes there life and has the best ideas in the shower?)

I was listening to TNHB again. Then i actually analogize the lyrics. Then i realize the girl that Shawn is talking about in the song is nothing like me.

The girl in songs out going, confident she seams like the type of girl that you would get in trouble but you wouldn't care because you wold have an amazing adventure each time your with her that makes it worth it.

Me in the other side likes keeping it low key. I like cuddling and staying at home watching harry potter movies. I don't like getting in trouble if i don't have to. I like keeping it drama free. Am not good under pressure. I don't like taking things too far. i don't like not knowing whats going to happen.

*after shower*

I can't stop thinking that Shawn maybe wants a girl like he describes in the song. I bet he does. I bet he can't break up with me because hes to nice. Why would he want a boring ass girl like me. Hes young he wants adventure and adrenaline. He wants someone who can give him that. Not someone who holds him back because shes scared of the future and the outcome.

Surprise!! Shawn screamed

You scared the crap of me. i said while laughing and then he joined me

Soo what are you doing? he asked while sitting next to you

Nothing. i answered.

Nothing like always i thought to myself. Just making me feel worse about myself. I felt my eyes get watery.

Hey, y/n look at me. Whats wrong? she said while lifting my chin up.

I started to cry. Hes so sweet. But hes not happy with me.

Shawn im not the girl for you. i sad. I stared at him. Seeing his eyes water

y/n What are you talking about about? he asked in a scared tone

a/n Haha sorry i just can't think of an ending and i don't feel like i would write a good ending right now. Still devastated. Bye munchkins.