a/n A: i cried like 4 times today.B: Divide is ssssoooo goood! C: I think i'm going to write about my love life because all my friend think its funny and cute and a little sad but that makes good story's. D: I had an idea for part 2 when i originally wrote it. but i totally forgot what it was.
Shawn's pov
2 weeks before
Andrew arranged me and Camila (a/n no hate) to be in a PR stunt relationship. I don't know how to tell y/n. I know she hates when people do that. I feel like she will hate me after this.
(a/n ahhgg i hate pr stunts)
Andrew said it was better for me and Y/N to just break up or at least not see each other for a while.
My best option is to ignore her. I can't break up with her. I love her too much.
*The next day*
I can't stop thinking about y/n. She keeps texting and all i want to do is answer. But i can't.
Her smile, the way she hugs me, when we cuddle, the first time we say i love you forever and always. Uuugghh i just miss her.
Shawn there is this party where i think you and Camila should go official. Andrew said while entering my room.
No i'm not feeling it today. i said while looking at y/n messages.
Come on Shawn stop crying over y/n. he said while entering my hotel room.
It could be nice to get a little distracted form y/n.
*later that night*(because i'm lazy)
Alcohol enters my system i feel my muscles relax my mind gets lost somewhere. All i want to do is keep drinking forget the pain i was feeling these last days. I feel people taking pictures of me. But it's all blurry.
That's what keeps happening every night. For weeks.
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*2 weeks later*
My head hurts like hell. These past weeks have been a blur. And my phone keeps ringing making my head hurt more.
Y/n 😘🤓: your name Shawn❤️✌🏻️😘: Shawn
Y/n 😘🤓: Hey babe
Y/n 😘🤓: Shawn
Y/n 😘🤓: Shawn
Y/n 😘🤓:Mendes
Y/n 😘🤓:Mendes
Y/n 😘🤓:babe
Y/n 😘🤓:babe
Y/n 😘🤓:Peter
Y/n 😘🤓:Peter
Y/n 😘🤓: Raul
Y/n 😘🤓:Raul
Y/n 😘🤓:Shawn Peter Raul Mendes
AAHHGG Y/N IS SO ANNOYING
Shawn ❤️✌🏻️😘: babe chill out
Y/n 😘🤓: chill out we haven't talked in like 2 weeks and all you can tell me is to chill out.
Shawn ❤️✌🏻️😘: I was busy
Y/n 😘🤓: well your Instagram pictures don't say the same
*shawn is getting a sober*
I don' remember posting nothing.
Shawn ❤️✌🏻️😘: y/n I just went to a few party's noting to be mad about
Y/n 😘🤓: I'm not mad I just feel like you don't care about are relationship anymore
When i read the last message it was like something just just hit me i was compliantly sober.
I felt like the worst person ever. Who would do this to someone who you love more than anything.
I think i should just let her go. And I know She'll find someone who gives her the time I didn't give to her. I think i just need time to, to find my own. But I know someone will give her all she wants that can give her all she need and I hope she sees. I never meant to hurt her, no.
a/n this probably sucks sorry. I have tried to write this for 3 days. Sorry i just got a lot on my mind. I have exams this 2 next week but knowing me i know i will not study much. I will try writing a lot more now because i have a lot on story's in my mind. Hopefully they don't suck.
PLEASE like/vote and comment. I TRIED TO PUBLISH THIS LIKE 3 TIME HOPEFULLY IT WORKS THIS TIME
