The Unexpected

Time..

        If I end it now will it all be ok? When they find me.. I'll be gone. I know that's not what they want. Is it all worth it though? It's better than being here, right? I'm just suffering standing here looking for a sign. A sign that I know I won't find. There's nothing I can do. I'm in so much pain and anguish. Is it worth it? If I'm gone... they won't have to work about my saftey. They won't need to worry about me in general.
         Everything is silent. I can only hear my breathes. They start to get heavier by the moment.
         I take off my bracelet, I take off my necklace, I take off my ring... Its time... I put them all in my pocket. I look around the room looking. Looking for anything that can end this. More light shines in through the window. There's a rope by the door.
         I check the door to see if it's unlocked. It wasn't. There's no way out. I can't stay anymore. I can't do this. This is my breaking point..
        I walk over to pick up the rope. There was black paint on it. I looked over to see there was a can of spray paint. I walk over to the other wall. And think of something they would remember me by. I write A.P., D.L., J.C., G.T., and HC. I miss then all. I miss how we made fun of each other and laughed about it all. I love how we could just walk up to any of us and just give each other a hug. I miss us. The last thing I write "Till I see you on the other side of the dream bridge remember me, don't forget me, tell my stories for me."
        The paint dries quickly. I pick the rope back up and walk over to the construction bars. I climbed up to the top reaching as high as I could. I saw a hook on the sealing. It was rusty but it looks like it would hold.. I raped the rope around it.
       Making it for myself is difficult. I don't like the thought of death if I'm the reason why.. but I get out. I hope everyone understands why I'm doing this. But I know they won't.
       I look down to see how high I am. It doesn't really matter how high I am. I won't touch the ground.
       The rope is ready.. I'm ready.. It's done. I take my bracelet and drop it off the edge. I take my necklace and drop it over the edge. I take my ring and look at it. Is it truly over? I reach my hand out-

Ding! Ding! Ding! Ding!

       The fuck? I didn't even think but it was my phone. My phone was ringing. Did it have to ring now?
       I look down at my screen and see it bright as ever. It was April! April was calling me! Now?!
      I start to feel tears swell up in my eyes. They start to run down my face.

April: Pick up! Pick up! Dammit! Pick up!

Me: April.. I'm here?

April: Holy shit fuck. You answered. Oh my gosh! You andwered!!

Me: Yes..

       I hear her start to cry as I here yelling in the background. She was at home. I hear April yell "Shut the fuck up she answered!!" Really loud.

April: I don't know were to begin. I miss you!

Me: I miss you too!

        I feel so week. My crying gets more noticeable.

(I'm on speaker now)

I love you Mac!

Me: Dora? Oh my gosh...

       My cries get harder. I miss her so much. I miss everything.

Dora: Yes, Oh my gosh... I miss you so much! Fuck I miss you!!

       She starts try cry hard. She's my bestfriend. I was her first friend when she moved here. She makes me food and makes me feel better when I'm down. Gosh I miss them!
         I hear Glenn and Jacob in the background talking.