Summer Lovin

1.6

Alex

Today was a day that I dread. I'm leaving today. I have tried putting together in my mind how to say goodbye for the past 3 days. It's gonna be so hard. All my bags were packed and my parents were ready to leave. They decided to give me some time to say goodbye to Justin. I heard a knock on the door knowing that was him. When I saw him standing there I wanted to cry, I'm going to miss this beautiful face. I dropped my bags and wrapped my arms around him tightly not wanting to let go. Once I did I stared at his eyes, "Wow this is-"

"Yeah." He said scratching his ear, "Harder than I thought."

"Justin you are so special to me. You made me feel how no one else has ever made me feel. You were there for me during my worst and best times. You always made everything okay and seem better. Justin Drew Bieber I love you and I hate that I have to say goodbye. I'm so glad my parents dragged me onto this cruise because I got to meet one of the best people in the world. I'm gonna miss you Justin."

I saw Justin's sad expression, "I'm gonna miss you too Alex.. thanks for sticking by me on this cruise. You know I couldn't have done it without you." He laughed, "I love you Alex and I hope everything goes well, hopefully we'll meet again."

"We'll definitely meet again. I don't know when but one day I'm gonna see you again and I'm going to hold you so tight that you won't even be able to let go."

Justin smiled, "Come here." He said placing his hands on my waist smashing his lips into mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck kissing back passionately. When we released I smiled one last time, "Bye Justin."

"Bye Alex."

•

That was probably the hardest thing ever. I was in the car driving back home sitting in the backseat staring out the window. It felt weird not being with Justin now. School started back in a week, wow. This is going to be hard.

"Hey so is there anywhere particular you want to go?" My mom asked from the passenger seat, "Haven't been here in a while."

"Um." I said not really knowing. I wanted to see Zoey but I knew we weren't friends anymore. Then I thought about what Justin had said about her not being able to hang up.

"Zoeys house." I blurt.

My mom turned around shocked, "What? Did you guys make up?"

"No, but I hope today we can talk again. I'm not ready to give up on our friendship just yet. I want to try talking to her one more time."

"Well, okay."

My parents dropped me off and told me to call when I was ready, but I could just walk it wasn't that far.

I went to her door nervously and knocked. A few short moments later she answered with a surprised face, "Alex!"

"Hey, sorry to just barge in like this but I was hoping we could talk."

"Um, yeah sure okay." She said opening the door. I walked inside then turned to face her, "I guess what I'm really here for is for our friendship. I know we haven't really been friends this summer but.. summers just about over."

"You're saying you want to be friends again?" Zoey asked confused.

"I'm saying I want things to go back to normal. I miss you Zoe! We've walked in together freshman, sophomore, and junior year together. If we don't walk into together senior year then I just don't know what I'd do."

Zoey let out a deep breath, "I'm still dating Sean, and I'm still friends with Ethan and Alexandria. If we're going to be friends then you're going to have to accept that."

"Are they together now." I asked quietly.

"If you mean Alexandria and Ethan then yeah, they're dating."

I took a moment to let it sink in. It's not that I liked him, It's that he's with her- and Zoeys okay with it. I should be too but I don't think Alexandria deserves anyone. What kind of a person makes someone hate their own name? Something they have to live with..

"If we were to be friends again how would I ever fit in. You're with Sean, she's with Ethan. There's not even any room for me."

Zoey stayed quiet holding her head down.

"You're not walking in with me senior year, you're walking in with them." I said looking at her with hurt.

"Look Alex please don't make me feel bad. This is all I've ever wanted-"

"This is all we've ever wanted." I snapped.

She met my eyes, "I tried to help you get where I am right now but you refused. You can't be mad at me I tried setting you up with Ethan!"

"Yeah so all this is somehow my fault?"

"You had a chance and you blew it so.. yeah Alex this kind of all falls on you." Zoey said crossing her arms.

"So you're really gonna do it? You're really gonna throw me under the bus while you go live it up with you jock boyfriend and princess bff?"

"I'm not throwing you under the bus okay! I'm going to have an amazing senior year that I won't forget wether I like it or not!"

"Yeah because I'm sure loosing your bestfriend is something you totally won't forget!"

"You know what Alex I'm done! Your selfishness has gone off the charts and I can't bare to hear it anymore!" Zoey yelled flaring her arms out, "Congratulations you've officially lost me- god you are so unbelievable!"

"Oh I'm unbelievable?"

"Yes Alex, you're unbelievable!"

"No! What's unbelievable is you not knowing that every action your taking is completely irrational and not cool AT ALL!"

"No! What's not cool AT ALL is the fact that you came here just to yell at me and blame me!- trying to make me feel bad what the hell Alex!"

"Zoey you should feel bad! You should feel horrible! What you're doing is not okay and I'm pretty sure any sane person would agree with me!"

"What exactly am I doing Alex? LIVING!"

"Stabbing me in the freaking back is what you're doing and if you don't realize it then I'm going to walk out that door and I am not coming back!"

"GO!" Zoey yelled, "Alex I honestly don't care! GET OUT!"

I looked at her I disbelief, "No! No Zoey what are you doing you can't just yell at me we have to work this out! Don't just push every argument we have away it's not worth it! It's not loosing a friendship over."

"Alex I actually have no idea who you are anymore." Zoey said looking at me with anger, "I said I was done. I truly sincerely am done with you Alex please just get out of my house and leave me alone I honestly want absolutely nothing to do with you."

The words coming out her mouth surprised me. It took me back, it was like she didn't even care.

"Fine." I said walking to the door, "You are officially a stranger to me." I announced before slamming the door.