Summer Lovin

3.5

Alex

Seems to me like I have a decision to make. Justin or Ethan. I can't bare hurting Ethan, he's been so good to me. But if Justin dates Sienna I think I might actually go crazy. When I accidentally pulled them together I only wanted sienna not to hate me, not for her to be lovin all up on my suga. I threw my head back in frustration. No decision can be made right now, I don't even know if Justin feels the same way, according to his mouth he doesn't but.. you ever know. I didn't even know I still liked him. How do I find out if there's still something left for me and Justin? I need to get him alone which seems impossible since Sienna is like attached to him. I've been trying for the past 2 days but they're always together. I felt hopeless, if I can just spend one full day with him I can try and figure out how he really feels so I can know if I want to be with him or not.

I decided to text him,

Hey Suga what are you doing?

Love, you're literally a few steps away which is really rare just come over!

Why don't you come over here this time?

Well I'm with Sienna right now, can she come too?

Lol no just you

Wow haha okay well can it wait? I don't wanna just ditch her

Wait how long

I don't know.. few hours probably

I just wanted to spend some time with you I mean I did come here to spend everyday with you

Yeah I know but you were the one that brought sienna and I together. Look I'll be over tonight, and you're not leaving until a week and a half, plus Christmas Eve is tomorrow it's gonna be great. Talk to you later Alex

I put my phone down angrily. I wish Sienna could just go back to hating me and Justin, things were much simpler then. I sighed, nights are better anyway.

•

The day went by really slow, I wished it'd go faster but once Justin texted me he was on his way it we better. I got a little nervous which was weird because he's Justin and I can do anything around him. I heard a knock on the door and went to retrieve it seeing Justin standing front and center, "Hey!"

"Hey." He said with a smile walking in.

"How was your day with Sienna?" I asked closing the door behind me.

"Really good, we've got plans for tomorrow."

"But tomorrow's Christmas Eve, shouldn't we spend it together?" I asked skeptically.

"Well yeah we are it's just I thought we could all come together around like midnight and then stay up for Christmas." He said taking a seat on my bed.

"Midnight? That's like literally the whole day for me to wait to see you."

"Which is why I'm here now." He said with a smile.

I was confused as to why Justin saw absolutely no problem with this, "I flew here so I could spend Christmas with you. I thought that was pretty clear."

"Yeah it's the clearest thing ever and I think you're missing the part where we will be together on Christmas." Justin said looking at me weirdly.

"Yeah for like an hour or two before you and Sienna go off who knows where doing who knows what."

"I'm sorry is something wrong, did I miss something?"

"Yeah you missed the part where I saved up hundreds of dollars over the time span of 4 months and got on a plane to see you but over the days I've been here I can't seem to just get you alone."

"Get me alone for what?!" Justin said frustratingly raising his voice.

"I don't know because I missed you!" I yelled.

Justin stopped for a minute letting out a deep breath.

"Look if you're not gonna spend time with me then I might as well just cash in my ticket and leave, maybe spend it with the people who actually want to hang out with me."

"I got caught up okay. This new relationship with Sienna has completely taken my attention. I'm sorry! It's just I've never been in a relationship where we actually have a connection-"

"Okay ow."

"No. Not like that it's different. I don't know how to explain it it's just.."

"Getting a little flustered there I see." I said crossing my arms.

"I don't even know what I'm saying." He laughed forming a small blush, "I just wanna say thank you. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't even be with her right now."

"Wow I wish everyone would stop saying that." I said quietly sitting on the opposite side of the bed, slowly feeling my heart break into many tiny pieces.

"It's true." Justin said scooting closer to me, "You're my good luck charm."

"Yeah no." I said letting out a pained laugh.

He smiled, "Hannah Montana for old times?"

"No.. I actually think you should go spend time with Sienna."

"We just had a full argument as to why I shouldn't be spending my time with her."

"I didn't know you felt that way about her. I changed my mind, you should go."

"Still on for tomorrow?" He said standing up making his way to the door.

"Yep, 11:59 sharp."

"Cool." He said walking out, "Oh by the way, you rock."

I watched the door close and found myself letting a tear fall, yeah there's nothing left here for me.

•

I cashed in my ticket for the next morning. I packed my bags, signed out of my hotel room and left a small note on the door. I went to the airport and was soon seated on the plane, Atlanta here I come.