Summer Lovin

4.8

Alex

The next day I felt super groggy and not at all like myself. Justin never called back and he didn't answer my texts. I know he probably needs space right now, and I respect that but I really wish I could just talk to him about how I'm feeling. Ethan didn't come by my house today which hurt a lot because even when we fought, he always came. Since my dad still had my car, I had to walk and I didn't like it. I ended up getting to school a few minutes after the first bell since I started walking so late. I awkwardly walked into class and made eye contact with Ethan. He looked down at his notebook.

"Do you have a late pass?" My teacher asked.

"No. I just woke up late." I answered. He just nodded, "Okay, take your seat."

I went to the back taking my seat behind Ethan. I was tired and my legs hurt, I don't walk often, especially not far distances, and I wasn't wearing very comfortable shoes- my feet ached terribly.

"Hey." I heard. I looked beside me and saw Max give me a corner smile. I slightly smiled back, feeling a little happier that Max wasn't pissed at me. Emma on the other hand didn't even look at me. I sighed beginning to pay attention to the teacher.

After class I stopped Ethan and Emma, "Look. I know you guys are probably pissed at me right now but I'm sorry. I blew up and I took it out on you guys, it sucked and you guys didn't deserve it."

They both stayed silent.

"Are you guys seriously not going to talk to me? I'm already embarrassed enough, and I'm here right now apologizing because I know I was wrong."

They still said nothing. I stared at them in disbelief, "Did you not hear me? I said I was wrong."

Emma spoke up, "Yeah we heard. But Alex I'm so tired of your drama, Alexandria this Alexandria that, I love Justin I love Ethan-"

"Wait what." I said quickly stopping her, "How is that even relevant right now?"

"We get it. You freaked out with Alexandria and Ethan because you like him, and maybe you wanted him to ask you."

"Emma stop." Max said, "You don't know that and you don't have the right to say it unless she verbally announced that."

I looked over to Max standing by my side and I felt grateful.

"I'm just saying. It wouldn't be such a crazy idea right? Justin and her broke up, she went to Ethan. Then when Justin came back she broke up with Ethan, and now that Justin's gone again, guess who's turn it is? Ethan's."

"What the hell Emma!" I yelled, "You know better than anyone how hard that was for me."

She just shook her head, "Alex I'm just tired. You really crossed the line yesterday. I get that your confused on your feelings but how about you leave me and the rest of us, out of it." She said then turning away from me walking out.

Ethan stood awkwardly about to exit too, "Wait." I said grabbing his wrist, "Don't storm away, please."

He sighed giving me a sorry look, "Alex you drew a wrench inbetween me and Alexandria, she's humiliated, she won't even come to school."

"And that's my fault?"

"You. Outed her to everyone."

"Everyone already knew I was just reminding them!" I defended.

"You know more than anyone how important prom is. I asked Alexandria because I like her, okay? I'm sorry that she did such horrible things to you, I really am but just because she screwed you over doesn't mean you can screw me too. I'm sorry Alex.. I know your life is complicated right now but seriously, leave me out of it."

Then just like that he was gone too. I felt stuck. Max let out a sigh standing in front of me, "You still got me. I don't know if that makes things any better but.. I'm still here."

I gave him a pained smile, "Yeah until I drive you away."

He just looked at me with a small smile, "I'll never leave you."

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At lunch I knew I wouldn't have anyone to sit with. Yeah, Max would probably sit with me but I don't want to drive him away from Emma and Ethan because of me. I went to the library instead and finished some assignments. The rest of the day was bland, I was in a dump and I didn't know what to do. I once again, walked home alone, my feet still aching from the morning. Once I got home I took my shoes and socks off plopping onto the couch. I sat for a few minutes just resting before calling Justin. It rung a few times, but was then sent to voicemail. Great, Ethan won't talk to me, Emma won't talk to me, Justin won't talk to me.. it's only a matter of time before I don't have anyone left.

The rest of the day was boring. I was angry, sad, embarrassed. I just didn't understand why this had to happen now, all at once. Why'd I have to loose some of the most important things in my life- now.

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