Loving Lockwood

4

I just finished putting my suitcases in Jess's rig, so we are on our way to the next event which is in Arizona. This was a really successful weekend for Jess. He got first and I'm super proud of him. JB got second and I'm proud of him too!

"You're awfully quiet, Ms. Mauney." Jess said, breaking me out of my thoughts.
"Yeah, I've been thinking a lot lately." I said and looked over at him.
"Kenz, what's up?" He asked.
"2 years ago today, my best friend committed suicide." I said.
"I'm so sorry darling." Jess apologized.
"It's okay. I just wish I was back home right now. I always visit her grave when I'm missing her badly." I say and look out the window.
"Is there anything I can do to help you?" Jess asked.
"There's nothing you can do." I said as a tear rolled down my cheek.
After that, we dropped the subject.

Arriving in Arizona

"Jess." I say softly.
"Yes, Kenzie?" He questions.
"What are we?" I ask and look at him.
"I don't know darling. I don't want to rush things with you." Jess said.
"Okay." I said as we pulled into the rodeo grounds.
"You should take a nap in the camper while I go register." Jess says before getting out.

I go into the camper and lay on the couch. I can't fall asleep, so I go to find Jess. I find him, in his truck with another girl and he's feeling her up. I sneakingly take a picture before going back to the camper. I wait for an hour before he comes back in.

"Howdy darlin." He greets and touches my forearm but I pull it away.
"Don't." I say firmly.
"What's wrong, Kenz?" Jess asks.

I pull up the picture on my phone and show it to him.

"Kenz, I was breaking up with her. I was dating her before I met you but I like you more." He said.
"It sure as hell didn't look like you were breaking up with her." I said with tears in my eyes.
"Kenzie, I'm sorry." Jess apologizes.
"Just stay away from me." I yelled.

I quickly grabbed all of my stuff from his camper and truck before heading to JB's camper. I walk in and him and his girlfriend are doing "it" on the couch, so I walk back out.

Can this day get any worse?

I sit on the tailgate of JB's truck and sob. I was really starting to like Jess, but he's not the guy I thought he was. I don't need a guy anyways.