Dark Paradise//J.M.

Journals (Pt.2)

Chapter 22: Journals (pt.2)

Vanessa's POV

I spent the rest of the day constantly thinking about the journals and so many questions were running through my head. The more I thought, the more worried I became when the arrival of my father got closer. For some reason, I didn't want him to come here. I didn't want to see the return of the monster my father would become around these people. I didn't want my siblings and mother to be more involved than they already are. It's not like I had a choice. My life had been stripped away before I even knew it. I never would've thought that the night I finally got to be a teenager would also become the day my future, hopes, and dreams would be taken from me. And it all takes me back to that stupid dare. If I just would've stayed home that night and didn't beg my mom to let me out, I would've been safe. I wouldn't have been kidnapped by a psychopath and then rescued by his rival gang members. I was so naive. To think that all the dangers my mom tried to protect me from were just to scare me. I should've listened to her. I still am naive to think that the most wanted criminal in the entire world would fall in love with me. I was also stupid enough to fall in love with him. There's nothing I can do about it now...

I rolled over in the king sized bed toward the nightstand, looking over at the clock that showed 12:56 A.M. in red. It was silent all throughout the house, the only noise coming from Jason's light snores. I needed to read more. I needed to find out more about my father and Jason's obsession with being just like him. I couldn't help but think about the multiple shelves of journals that constantly spoke about my father and things that went on before in this gang.

I tried getting out of bed, Jason's arms were lazily draped around my waist. They fell softly as I stepped foot onto the carpet without a sound. I lightly walked over to the door, hoping it wouldn't make a sound and luckily it didn't. I shut it as softly as I could and quickly made my way over to the stairs. I saw that a light was on and hoped no one was down there. But I guess my luck ran out, Jacob was sitting there on one of the bar stools, writing studiously in a notebook. When he heard me walking down the stairs, his head snapped up quickly in my direction.

"Hey Vanessa, what are you doing up?" He asked catching me off guard because Jacob is never this nice.

"Just wanted a drink of water," I lied.

I began walking, turning to the left of the staircase and heading in that direction.

"Vanessa... You do know that the kitchen is the other way right?" He asked, suspiciously.

"Oh yeah right," I laughed, "I'm still figuring my way around here."

He just nodded, giving me an odd look.

I turned around and headed towards the kitchen. I searched every cabinet in it, looking for a cup. I never knew a kitchen could be so huge. After a while, I came across a door that I assumed was the pantry. Little did I know that it led to that hallway from earlier. I looked around the kitchen to make sure Jacob wasn't watching me. After I made sure the coast was clear, I tried my best to remember where the giant door was and made my way towards there.

It took me a while to figure it out. I found different rooms but I couldn't seem to get into two of them due to the locks on them. That made me more curious and made me want to find out what was inside. When I got to the room, I searched for the journal I hid.

I continued reading...

June 4, 2008

I met the most beautiful woman today. I've never seen anything like her. Her name was Victoria. I loved it. And the beautiful red lipstick stained upon her lips put me in a trance every time she spoke. I just had to get to know her. She needs to be mine. Just the thought of her as someone else's drove me crazy. I deserved her. She was fearless. Bold and wild. Reminds me of Harley Quinn. Crazy but beautiful. She reminded me of myself. We'd be perfect for each other. Her beautiful blue eyes stared at me throughout the entire time we were in each others presence. I just never got the chance to speak to her. But I will, eventually. I could tell the rest of the gang had the same thoughts I did that won't be spoken of. She will be mine though. Just wait for it...

-J.

Victoria? He's never spoken of a Victoria. It kind of hurt me the way he spoke of her. Like she was the love of his life.

I shook the feeling and turned the page.

June 8, 2008

She's part of the gang. I was never told this and it seems neither was the gang. She's part of the West side now. She's on the inside. She's the woman Jacob speaks so fondly about. She's the reason we'll be able to completely take over West territory. She's the reason i'll be in full control. I got to speak to her today and my God, I never believed in love at first sight until recently. She will be mine, she has to be. Now, it's like I can't live without her. She spoke to Alex and the rest of the gang. They all looked at her with their jaws dropped to the ground. Idiots. Drooling over her like a piece of meat. A woman like her isn't attracted to that. That is why I show no interest... yet.

-J.

I'm guessing this entire journal is about Victoria. He talks about her so beautifully. I wonder where she is now...

Narrator's POV

Little did Vanessa know that the love of her life murdered the love of his. She didn't know that she could possibly end up just like Victoria.

She walked out of the library the same way she walked in. Back into the kitchen and out into the hallway where she had seen Jacob but he was no where in sight. She walked up the stairs and obviously back to the bedroom where the notorious psychopath Jason McCann was fast asleep...

Poor poor little Vanessa, so oblivious to the world around her. She didn't know the deep, dark secrets of Jason McCann. But there was something different when she came around that the whole gang feared, was Jason actually falling in love? It couldn't be! Jason doesn't show love. Never has and no one thinks he ever will. There's just something, something off though. Everyone knew that the "love" Jason had for Victoria was more of an obsession, not love. But he isn't obsessed with Vanessa. At least... not yet.

Authors Note
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