Curious to know you

New me

The next day would be our last here, it had flown by and with everything that had happened I wasn't sure how things would be with Lauren when we got back. The live shows were looming on us and we were both going to be very busy.

We finished filming in the early afternoon and decided to spend the rest of the day together with the girls at the beach. We were having general chit chat about the other girls love life's, until it turned on to us. "You know your the first girl Lo here has introduced us too" Normani told me. "Really, you make it sound like she's had loads?" I questioned. "No just one girl who helped her figure her sexuality out, what about you have you really not even kissed anyone?" Dinah replied still shocked at my lack of love life. I looked at Lauren and she nodded at me as if it was okay to say how I felt. "Yeah I've never been interested before, but I've always known I was gay, so that was simple".
The girls smiled as if they loved listening to my story.
"We're your parents okay about it when you came out?" Ally asked unknowingly. It wasn't her fault she didn't know my situation. I gulped before reply, then feeling Lauren's hand rubbing me soothingly, telling me I could trust them.
"I don't actually have parents, Simon basically bought me up and he's absolutely fine with it".
"Hold up girl, Simon brought you up? That's crazy we need all the details, how has he hidden this from everyone?". I just chuckled at Dinah.
"Nobody knew because I didn't live with him, he was busy a lot so he hired some one he trusted for that until I was 18 and moved out by myself".
Having Lauren here relaxes me so much more than I could have thought.

The subject was dropped and we all made our way back to the villa after playing games on the beach and running around, I have to admit they were a lot of fun. Our flight was in the evening and we had packed all of our stuff before departing. I was going to miss this place, especially with the memories it held. Now we were flying into the unknown.

The flight was very quick with us going back our separate ways. I arrived back at my apartment which I hadn't been in for a while but it was found the way I left it. I took a bath and relaxed for the night.

The next day I was back at work as the live shows were beginning at things were getting pretty hectic. I was running around trying to sort the sound out and even helped in some other areas. It was now lunch time, I decided to go and sit in the canteen. Walking in it was like being at school the popular table which had all the judges at and few people who wanted to be up there backsides like a lapdog and then various other groups. I didn't feel like being in the company of others so I went and sat down at a table alone eating my food. I heard laughter from the big table and looked up, my eyes scanning everyone, until I locked eyes with the green eyed beauty. She gave me a small smile, we hadn't spoken as of yet and I was feeling quite anxious to see where things went. I looked away and tried to carry on with my lunch even though I could feel her eyes boring in my face.

I stood up throwing my things in the bin making my way out of the canteen. "Camila over here". Phew that was a voice I recognized, it was Simon. I strolled over to him and acknowledged him without speaking, he pulled me over to the corner, I could still feel Lauren watching us. "So how was your few days away?". I just shrugged "it was alright". I mumbled. "Come on tell me what happened with Lauren".
"I don't know what your talking about". I was fidgeting now, not liking this pressure I felt.
"You can't hide anything from me, she hasn't stopped watching you since you walked in".
I grumbled. "Ugh, not much happened honestly and I'm really not in the mood right now to talk about this".
I walked off, stressed out by the situation I was in. Did she want more? Was it just a holiday fling type of thing. It's just awkward because we work together. I decided to leave and go straight to the studio. Arriving there I was apprehensive due to the fact I was meeting an artist I had written songs for, I actually knew them as they were very famous and had tried to pay several times to meet me, I've been having an inner battle with myself to start being more open, a new me you could say.

Sitting in this chair, I waited patiently until I heard the door click open, there stood a brown haired wide eyed pop star, we locked eyes, looking each other up and down. I'm probably not what she expected. "Your the ghost writer ". She managed to stutter out.
I sighed. "No I'm Camila". She smiled at my sarcasm. "I'm Rihanna, I'm so glad you agreed to this, I didn't think it was true, you are not quite what I expected".
"I would say I know, but you are the first person other than my producer to meet me". It only went up from there, we had a great writing session together and because friendly very quickly. That evening soon ended and I went home feeling relieved, it couldn't have gone any better, I was starting to relax and be open to people who could know me now, there was no need to keep it a secret anymore, I felt liberated.