Curious to know you

Realism

The next morning I had woken up super early and left the sleeping beauty that lay before me. I had work to do and it could have been awkward if I had out stayed my welcome.

A few weeks have passed and its a week before the semi finals, Lauren and I have grown a lot closer as well, its been great we've hung out a few times when we have been able too. It was 1 in the afternoon and I was strolling through to the canteen to have some lunch with everybody else. I now sat on a table with Simon, Lauren and other various crew. Sitting down, Lauren greeted me and proceeded to kiss me on the cheek like always which left me very red faced.
"Hey Camz, how has your day been?" she cuddled up to me.
"Good thank you how about you cutie?"
"it's been hectic, are you busy tonight?"
I looked over at Simon briefly, he nodded his head to indicate that I was indeed busy tonight at the studio, I had taken on more singers who needed songs and with my current inspiration you almost had to stop me from writing.
"yeah I am busy sorry babe"
"oh, what are you doing?"
Oh gosh time to think quick.
"I'm just busy some of my poetry stuff and that".
Lauren sighed. "I wish you would just open up to me about all of that, you know?"
In actual fact I was meeting up with Rihanna for a dinner to discuss some songs.
"I know I'm sorry I'm just not ready".
That conversation ended. I carried on with my day not seeing Lauren at all as we were both so busy.

Arriving at the studios I went straight into writing with Rihanna, which was great although we had not written any hits in my eyes. We got on amazingly and connected really well and I was quite open with her, which shocked me. "so do you have a girlfriend or anyone special in your life?" she smirked at me.     "yeah there's this one girl but its complicated". Rihanna just sat there in deep thought until her jaw dropped and it was like everything clicked. "she doesn't know who you really are does she?"    " she has no idea and I'm so worried too tell her, I honestly don't know what to do".   She came over and hugged me "honestly, you will be fine just tell her when it feels right, that's all you can do". I was glad I could talk to her about this, it lifted a real big weight off of my shoulders. We soon both left and parted ways, I headed home for the night and drifted off too sleep.

The next morning, I woke up and got ready like I usually did, had my breakfast and got dressed before heading out my door. I got into the elevator and was just minding my own business in deep thought until the doors opened and I looked up. Piercing green eyes were boring into mine. I smugly smiled "fancy seeing you here". Lauren had the biggest grin on her face it was adorable. She opened her arms up to me before gracing me with a hug and kissing me on the cheek. "are you okay?" I just nodded too busy taken aback by her beauty, it never ceased too amaze me. "I missed you" I blurted it out before I could even tell my mouth to shut up, she looked taken back from the words that just left my lips, looking me over to see if what I said was the honest truth, hesitantly unsure of what to say., I was cursing myself on the inside, of course its too soon. The next thing surprised me, I felt a hot breath on my lips, closing my eyes and capturing the softest yet most spectacular lips I could have imagined. " I missed you too".  I think I just died and went to heaven. "would you like to come to work in my car?" she is a sweet heart. "if it's not too much trouble, otherwise I can just get a taxi?". She intertwined our hands before opening the door too her car and going around the other side to sit next to me in the back. We soon arrived at work and I told Lauren I needed to go and find Simon to speak to him, we kissed each other once more and said good bye as we were not sure when we would see each other again.

"hey Si, you okay?" I spoke as I entered his dressing room. "Hey Cami, I'm good, how was your session last night?". I smiled as we hugged. "it was great thanks, we get on really well, although I'm just so worried about telling Lauren and everything, I don't know how to sort all of this out". I sighed with sadness. He walked over to me and took my hand and looked me in the eye. "Hey look at me, I'm with you on this and we will find a way for it all to be better, it wont be such a burden, just trust me I promise". I have to admit everything was much better with Simon by my side I knew he wouldn't let me down. "thank you it means so much to me" I slightly smiled. "a bit of a change of subject but we are all going out tonight after this show I think everyone needs to let their hair down, you're coming whether you like it or not" this got me laughing, I never had a choice when it came to him.

The show had gone along smoothly, although everyone else had seemed rather tense and stressed. I had gone to the toilets to get changed into an outfit for tonight and then on to the bar to meet the other X factor crew. I went and stood at the bar and ordered a drink before turning around to take everything in, remembering to breathe and that I was okay. It was then that everyone had stopped and the room had almost fell silent, I quickly narrowed my eyes to try and see the source of this, to see Lauren stood there in the most drop dead gorgeous looking outfit, I searched for eyes, realising they were already looking into mine, from all the way across the room. Her eyes scoured every inch of my body, I felt like I had lay myself bare to her. We both then smiled at each other, carrying on she walked into the room and started conversing with people.  All the while I kept on watching her, she was so fascinating to me and was quickly becoming my source of happiness, I knew this was a dangerous game. Harry bounced over to me giving me a hug. "hey you how have you been?" I took my eyes off of her, immediately wanting to put them back. "hey harry, you know good, you excited to go out tonight?" he smirked at me. "of course, you're my wingman of course right?" I just giggled we both knew I sucked at all of that. "of course Harry I winked at him" as we carried on chatting and having a good time, I could see Lauren watching us out of the corner of my eyes. I ignored it, having had a few too drink I had a bit of a buzz going on.

We all made our way into the taxi's, I decided to go with Harry for once and arrived at the club, it was packed to say the least, but luckily we was in VIP. I ended up getting dragged onto the dance floor for a bit before making my way to the bar area. The lighting was low, but you could still see what was going on, I looked over at Lauren to see her stood talking to some mutual colleagues and I couldn't take not talking to her any more so I made my way over. However, I didn't want to look like one of those desperate crew members who wanted her attention as they all did not know we was kind of seeing each other, so I went to Simon who was talking in the same group. "Hey Cami, you having a great time?" "yes thank you, it's great" I swayed a bit, focusing my eyes on Lauren, catching her eyes at the same time, I blushed, she held them for a few minutes, it was like time had really stopped and we could only see each other, this always happened with us and I could never get use to the feeling. "You're staring" I felt nudge. "oh I see how it is, you came to me to get close so you could seem normal and chat to her" he looked at me questioningly, I turned and looked back at him, smiling like I had been caught. "very clever" I think I heard him mutter. "well it's not like I am getting anywhere is it, she's mobbed as always" I sighed in frustration.    An hour went by and I decided I had, had enough of trying so getting a bit drunk was my next option, I had quite a few in that hour, danced a bit and floated around the room a little. I stood at the bar, until I felt warm arms wrap around my waist, that familiar scent filling my nostrils. "I'm sorry I couldn't get to you sooner" I turned around, our noses were almost touching, this was quite a compromising position, everyone could see us. She leaned back a little to give us some more room. "it's okay, I get it honestly, I just get jealous they all get to talk to you and I have to just stand here and watch". She looked at me like every single word I spoke was what she fed off too live. "it won't always be like this". I nodded my head knowingly. I looked over her shoulder to see Harry gasping at us. "I think we have just been made, Harry is looking very shocked right now". We both giggled and she leaned and kissed my cheek, hoping to get some sort of reaction from him, if looks could kill, his would. We both carried on chatting for a while, glad that we could have some time to ourselves, everyone seemed to have left us alone, getting the memo. "Hey Camila" I heard someone shout my name, I looked over to see Rihanna walking over. Oh shit, if she is as famous as they say Lauren will be questioning how we are friends. Rihanna hugged me, then looked Lauren up and down. "aren't you going to introduce me?" I snapped out of my trance. " of course this is Lauren and Lauren this is Rihanna" they both did a kiss on both cheeks.  Lauren was just staring at me confused at the situation. "how have you been?" she asked. "great actually thanks, who are you here with tonight?" It didn't take Rihanna long to realise the girl I had mentioned before was stood next too us both, analysing our body language and where we fit into each others world's. "just some close friends, needed to let our hair down, anyways I'll let you get back too it, it was nice seeing you". I smiled and hugged her. "it was nice seeing you too". "You both have fun" she winked, which I am sure Lauren caught on too, as I turned crimson red. Lauren turned too me, her face almost left me heart broken, this hadn't been very good or the way I wanted things too go, it was so bad I was pretty much sober now. "I'm not being rude or anything but how do you know Rihanna?"