sweet as sugar, cold as ice

Chapter 38

Alex's pov

"Alex" I ignored the voice thinking I was dreaming "Alex" he said louder this time "Alex!" He shouted "what!" I sat up in the bed.

Harry stood next to me fully dressed holding a tray with cereal, no milk of course, and orange juice.

I stood up groaning "do you not want this?" He asked, impatiently "don't even talk to me!" I spat, still irritated that Harry, and nobody else told me that Louis was my brother.

Everything suddenly came back.

How I was drunk, shouted at everyone. And punched Louis.

I suppose it wasn't Louis' fault, even though he should have told me.

I was sick of Harry and everyone keeping things from me though.

That's why I have decided to move out of Harry's house for a while. Being together all of the time, is killing us both. I know it'll hurt but it's what's best for both of us for a while.

I began to take my earphones out of my ears as I got closer and closer to the Tomlinsons' door. Here it goes.

Knock, knock, knock.

"Hey, Louis" I muttered as he opened the door

"Can we talk?" I asked timidly, he nodded slowly scratching the back of his neck. I walked slowly down the hall and into the livingroom.

"Sit down, this could take a while." Louis muttered.

"I'm sorry for last night. I was so angry, and drunk, and...." I was cut off "Alex, it's fine. Honestly, I understand."

"You do?" "Yes. You have every right to be angry." He said sympathetically.

"So why didn't you tell me?" I asked "dad said not to... I'm not sure why though."

"I did always want to. I just couldn't. That's why I did the whole Alfie thing. I was protecting you."

"Protecting me from what?" I asked, he sighed "Harry." "Why would you want to protect me from Harry?" I asked

"Because he's... He's one of them. I knew you were my sister, but you didn't. You should be on our side. Maybe if I did tell you I was your brother you would have listened a bit more." I didn't say anything because I didn't know what to say.

It makes sense now. He was only protecting me, from what he thought was bad. But because I didn't know he was my brother, it just made him look... Evil.

"Louis?" "Yeah." He looked up "I want to be your sister. Like properly. If you'll be my brother?" I smiled "of course I will be."

He stood up and sat down next to me, wrapping his warm arms around me. I snuggled into him.

"Dad will be in soon. Do you want to speak to him?" He asked "uhh... Yeah." I smiled, he nodded in understandingly.

And as if on cue, he walked in "Alex?" I tilted my head up and gave him a small smile.

"I'll leave you to it then." Louis smiled and disappeared out of the door.

"So, Alex. How have you been?" He asked "um... Good" I smiled

"Look I'm sorry, nobody told you sooner." He began "I always wanted to be a father to you. When your mother and your family used to come down to visit some family, I used to see you. And wish I had tried harder to see you. But your mother... She wouldn't let me anywhere near you. And I am so sorry. I really am."

"It's okay. All that matters is that I know now." I smiled.

"Alex, listen I want to be a real dad to you. I really do, so what do you say?" He asked hopefully "I'd like that too." I smiled.

We sat talking for hours and hours.

He said I could stay the night, so I did.

He's my dad. My real dad.

I want the man I once called my 'father' out of my life for good. And I have plenty of reasons for this decision.

It will hurt Aston, but after all he is still my brother and I will see him. He'll just need to deal with it.

It looks like I have two brothers now. On the opposite gang from the one I love. Harry.