sweet as sugar, cold as ice

Chapter 18

Alex's pov

*at zayns house*

I feel so much more comfortable with the west side even though I'm still caught between the two, the east side lied to me, a really bad one too, but the west side, I could never imagine any of them doing that to me, it even feels like my own dad and brother are against me. "Hey, Alex" Niall sat beside me "hey" I smiled, Harry was sitting across from us, growling at, at Niall? "Look I'm sorry about, you know..." He trailed off "me being shot?" I asked "uh yeah" "it's not your fault Niall" I smiled "yes it is!" Harry shouted standing up "no Harry it's not, he was trying to find me and help, it's not his fault I was being held at gun point" I defended Niall, Niall then stood up and sat next to Gillian, and Harry sat next to me "do you want to talk?" I asked "uh..." He trailed off "c'mon" I said reaching out a hand for him to take, we then walked down to the empty kitchen "look Alex... There's really nothing to talk about" Harry said whilst closing the door and I sat on the worktop "no, Harry there is" and he looked down "you probably said it because you thought I couldn't hear you" I smiled "did you mean it" I asked "I, I don't know" he looked at me "well Harry you must have said it for a reason" and he smirked "what?" I asked "you just need to know everything, don't you?" He asked whilst chuckling "well yeah. I'm quite a nosy person" I laughed "stop changing the subject!" I playfully hit his arm "did you mean it?, I need to know" I looked at the ground "I don't know. I told you" he said quietly, I was getting annoyed now, truth is I like Harry, a lot. "Well that clearly means you didn't then" I felt tears form but they didn't fall, I jumped off of the worktop "I didn't say that, Alex" "well you clearly didn't mean what you said if you can't say it to me now. You only said it because I was at deaths door" I scoffed, turning the door handle, ready to walk out.

I felt a hand wrap around my wrist and pulled me back in and the door slammed closed, He pushed me against the door ".and what if I was to say I did mean it" he smirked, his lips now centimetres away from mines "I, I..." I was lost for words I couldn't speak "thought so" he smirked "you want the truth?" He questioned and I nodded "truth is... Ever since I seen you that first day outside, I didn't stop thinking about you, then your friends and brother practically band me from seeing you, but that didn't stop me. Then when I hurt your wrists I felt terrible, it was as if it had hurt me just as much as it had hurt you, then when you where in that coma, you had me crying, lex. And I just kept thinking to myself, what is this girl doing to me?, you make me feel the need to protect you and care for you, and seeing you cry, killed me inside, truth is... I love you lex" I was completely stunned! This is Harry styles we were talking about here! I couldn't believe it, "I- I love you to, Harry" I did, I really did, my thoughts were lost by his lips crashing onto mines, my lips immediately began working with his, the kiss felt so real. So different. So warm and protective.

He pulled away "I love you Alex, i really do" "I love you too Harry" he pulled me into his chest and hugged me.