sweet as sugar, cold as ice

Chapter 39

Harry's pov

I took another swig of my cheap beer, feeling sorry for myself.

She's gone. She left me.

All because I didn't tell her the truth, about herself. It's not the same without her.

"Alright mate." Zayn burst through my front door, he always just walks in. It doesn't usually bother me though.

He jumped on the couch next to me. I ignored his presence, staring blankly at the wall, sipping my beer.

"Harry, are you crying?" He asked squinting his eye

"She's gone." I let out a shaky breath. "What do you mean she's gone?" "She left me. She's gone, she's really gone." I sobbed throwing my hands over my face.

"I don't understand, though. You were both fine last time I saw you.... What happened?" He asked, with a confused expression over his face.

"I lied, Zayn. I knew a secret about her, that she didn't even know. Nearly everyone knew, except her. I should have told her... Because maybe if I had, she might still be here." I sat forward.

I was so angry with myself. I've lost the only girl I love, because of my own stupidity.

"I think I might know what secret that is mate, there's rumours flying around about it." He said, offering me a cigarette, which I gratefully took. "And, what are these rumours about?" I asked "that she's not really a Merrygold, she's actually a Tomlinson?" He explained "bingo."

"That's pretty fucked up though." He muttered I immediately whipped my head round, grabbing zayns throat.

"Do you think it's her fucking fault" I spat "Harry, your drunk. Calm down."

"Calm down? My girlfriends just left me! If you think this is fucking angry, then you haven't seen anything yet" I shouted, throwing my bottle of beer at the wall, causing it to smash into a million pieces everywhere.

Alex's pov

I groaned rubbing my eyes as I sat up. Just realising where I was.

"Ahh! At last your up!" Louis cheered, plopping himself on the couch next to me.

"I have a proposal for you" he grinned "and what may that be?" I asked "dad wants you to move in! How about it?"

Well, Harry and I had broken up, and I certainly wasn't going back to Astons. So this was probably my best bet.

"Of course I will!" I smiled excitedly "well, let me show you your new room" he held out a hand to help me up.

"And this is your room" he said as his face lit up. It was a normal sized room, with a double bed, a desk with a large mirror, and mirrored wardrobes. "My rooms just across from yours and dads is just along the hall." He smiled "you can decorate it anyway you want." "Thankyou Louis, and your dad too." I smiled gratefully "your dad too now, Alex Tomlinson" he grinned, leaving me alone in my new room. Ever since I had found out Louis was my brother, I had seen a different side of him, before any of this.

He was the leader of a gang, that I disliked. And friends with my other brother Aston. But everything's so different now.

I have a new dad, two brothers. And no Harry.

Harry.

As much as I tried to block him out of my mind, he would always find a way to worm back in. I was so angry with him.

But I did miss him.

But this is for the best, isn't it?

"Alex!" Molly burst into the room, shaking me from my thoughts. "Hey Molly!" I smiled "I'm so happy you know now! Things will be so much better!" She squealed "me too." I smiled

Harry's pov

Zayn left, ages ago.

Leaving me alone to drown in my own tears.

Knock... Knock... Knock.

"Go away!" I shouted, but whoever it was entered anyway, I really should lock that door.

"I heard about you and Alex, so sorry!" She said mockingly "be quiet, Krystal."

"Your better off without her anyway, cous. Both of her brothers or on the east side. And nothing's been right since you got with her."

"What do you mean?" I asked. "Well, there's hardly been any fighting. Now it's time for you too get your reputation back, it sort of dissolved. But it will come back, it's in your blood, you can't help it. And I know for a fact that you like it."

I just ignored her, I normally do, because normally Krystal talks shit. Even though she's my cousin, quite frankly she's a bitch.

But maybe this time she was right, maybe I do have a reputation, maybe I can't help being the way I am, and maybe, just maybe... I like it.