A Friendship Or More

My Everything

It had been two more months now. Still talking the pills, I was starting to eat a bit more, and I was showing some now too. I looked like I swallow a small balloon. Still not where the doctor wanted me to be in weight gain, but getting there. She said to exspect a small baby.
Norman was constantly putting his hand on my stomach. He wanted to feel the baby kick. I told him truthfully I didn't know if it was kicking yet. He laughed and told me, I would know.
He still was kind of off. It was just weird, he always seemed districted, when we were alone. We talked, but nothing like it use to be. He was always dwelled on me knowing what I had gotten in to. I told him I was one hundred percent happy with him. He didn't seemed believe it though. When he'd come home though, he was sure to show me that he still loved me too. I loved it, but at the same time I wish I had known what was wrong.
This afternoon we were at home snuggled on the couch. Norman had to leave shooting, for his movie early, becuase his costars husband got really jealous, and hit Norman. I of couse wasn't going to let that go, so I kicked him in the nuts. Need less to say, we were all sent home. Well Norman was sent to the hospital, he agreed not to press charges if the man didn't press changes on me. He agreed and we left, for the hospital. Even though Norman insisted it was no big, and it wasn't he had black eyes all the time. He was always hurting himself with his crossbow.
So here we sat on the couch watching a movie. We couldn't go out on the bike becuase  I'm pregnant or we would have been doing that. I loved an hated it all at once. I layed against Norman, his arms wrapped around me, hands on my stomach. The move was just finishing up, so when he went looking threw the DVR.
"What's that recording?" He asked. I looked to see it was a new 'Say Yes to the Dress' I watched them when I had nothing better to do, wich was a lot.
"Ohh, it's nothing. Just something I  watch sometimes. It's a new one," I said. I didn't want him to get the wrong impression, that I was trying to plan a wedding or something.
"If you wanna watch it we can," He said turning it. I panicked.
"No, really, we don't...." I cut off seeing a wedding dress, and Norman looked at me.
"What's this show about?" He asked with an eyebrow raised, and a slight smile. I sighed.
"It's about people looking for their wedding dess. I just like the dresses," I shrugged. He chuckled.
"Ohh?" He asked. I nodded.
"Yeah, there really pretty," I said, lowly. I felt stupid. Of course he thought I was planning a wedding. I should have never decied to record the stupid show. Usually though he wasn't home. He smiled leaning in to kiss me.
"So have you planned your dream wedding?" He asked with a chuckle. I shrugged. He pulled my face up to look at him. I sighed, trying to avoid his eyes.
"Yes, but in my defense, every girl has a dream wedding planned," I said. He smiled, more.
"And?" He asked. I looked at him.
"What?" I asked. He chuckled again.
"What's yours look like?" He asked. I blushed.
"I have my dress picked out, it would be a corset, with a mermaid bottom," I said, pulled up pictures on 'Google' for him. He smiled. "My colors would be lavender and baby blue. Still haven't decided on white or black for, yo.... My groom," I almost slipped up. I cleared my throat.  "I would do Japanese lillies. Not sure if it's a beach wedding or maybe outside. Like I said though, just a dream," I giggled shyly. Norman smiled.
"Important question," he said. I nodded.
"Yeah?" I asked hesitant. He chuckled.
"Who's waiting for you at the alter?" He asked with a big smile. I felt my face flush scarlet.
"I'm hoping you," I said lowly hiding my face in his chest. It was deffenatly something I wanted. Now that we were together. He kissed my head.
"Are you sure?" He asked. I looked up confused.
"What? Positive!" I said, looking at him like he had lost his mind. He smiled more.
"So if I perposed to you right now, you'd say yes?" He asked, smiling. I smiled.
"Try it and see what happends," I giggled. He raised his eyesbrows at me, with a big smile.
"No, I don't have a ring," he said kissing my cheek. I looked at him like he had lost his mind. I held out my had with my promise ring on it. He raised an eyebrow.
"I already have one," I smiled  he smiled more shaking his head.
"No, had to be an engagement ring," he said.  I rolled my eyes, of couse he'd say that. He wasn't really going to marry me.
"Ok. Whatever you say," I said shaking my head. I knew it wasn't going to happen, so I played along. He looked at me funny.
"Your no going to argue?" He asked. I looked at him and giggled.
"One, it's a fantasy wedding. Two I can argue with you all day, you'd still go out and do what you want," I told him. He looked at me funny for a second. Then nodded.
"Yeah, I'm good at that," he paused for a moment. "Stephanie Reedus, mmhm. I like the sound of that," he smiled. I looked at him. I truthfully loved the sound of it. I just never saw it happening.  I smiled, nodding my head.
"So what would you like for lunch?" I asked looking at the time. Norman smiled.
"Let's go out," he said. I smiled.
"Alright, I'm going to change though," I said trying to get up. Norman held me in place though. I giggled looking at him. He smiled.
"There's a fee," he said lowly. I giggled as I leaned up to kiss him. It was slow and sweet, as Norman held on to my hips, and used his thumbs rub circles on them. We parted and I looked at him.
"Should we stayed in?" I asked, with a smile. He smiled back, raising his eyebrows.
"Mmhm, up to you, baby girl," he said. I smiled, bigger. Why leave the house, when I could stay in and be with my man. I pulled away and stood up, lifting my shirt over my head.
"I'll be waiting," I giggled as I threw it at him. Norman growled, as I took off running down the hall. I made it to the bedroom, completely naked now, crawing in to the bed, laying down waiting. A minute later, Norman came in with my clothes in hand and a smile.
"Lose these?" He asked, with a chuckle. I shook my head.
"No," I said. He chuckled again. Tossing them to the floor and started to take his own clothes off. I watched with a smile, as he pushed his jeans off his hips, and crawled in beside me.
"God, you're so beautiful," Norman said as he pulled me in to his arms for a kiss. I smiled, as he wasted no time, running his hands around my body. I did the same, feeling his strong arms and chest.
"You're sexy," I said after we parted, and between kisses on his face. His cheeks, his forhead and his nose. Then down his jaw lone to kiss neck. Norman hissed, as I grazed my teeth accrost his 'X' tattoo, I smiled.
"Like that?" I asked innocently. He growled,   gently pinching at my nipple, I made lowly.
"Like that?" He repeated. I smiled against his skin as I continued to kiss his body. I teased his body with hot opend mouth kisses. Licking, sucking and bitting at his flesh, untill I found his rock hard length. I took him in my hands and started to stroke him slowly. He gorwled at me again. I giggled as I slowly dipped my head down and licked at the tip. An other hiss, came from Norman as I took my time loving himh with my tongue, licking just the tip and around it.
"Girl!" He growled threw clenched teeth. I smiled as I looked up at him, and with out warning plunged down on him, he hissed as I worked my mouth on him, keeping constant eye contact, and playing with his balls. Suddenly he pulled me off of him, and I smiled, kissing his lips.
"Like that?" I giggled, after our kiss. Norman smiled and shook his head. As he kissed me and layed me down. He took his time, kissing me slowly, and being careful not to put any of his body weight on me. I missed making love like that though, but there was no time to think about that now. Norman moved for my lips to my cheek and my ear, nipping at it.
"Wanna here you scream," he said lowly. I smiled.
"Mmhm," I hummed, as he bit at my ear and sucked at my earlobe, playfully. Then moving his way down to my neck. I moaned lowly, as he went right for my sweet spot. Not even bothering to play around. He smiled, against my skin as he sucked and bit at it. Then he moved down to my chest, taking his time now to get to one of my awaiting brests. I moaned again lowly as his hand snaked up my body to find one of my breasts, as his mouth claimed the other. I moaned lowly at his loving me. Then he switched, taken in the opposite one in his mouth and loving it slowly. I arched my back loving how he made me feel. Norman then came back up to my lips, kissing me hard, still playing with my brest with his hand.
"Fuckin' love the noises you make," he panted lowly. I giggled, panting myself.
"Only for you," I whispered. That seemed to light something in Norman, becuase he was down between my legs and passionately kissing at lower stomach and thighs. He was careful to leave my center alone. He growled like an animal as he attched me with kisses.
"Oh, god Norman," I panted, loving his treatment. He smiled up at me, coming back to my lips. He kissed me hard as he teased me with his length. I cried out again. It felt like my senses were on highy.
"I wanna hear you," Norman said athorative. I nodded, as he lowly, moved. I hated how slow he was, but he wanted to be careful. I understood it, but I loved when he was in a mood and was a little rough with me. I kept pass with him, as he kisses. Our hands still feeling evey inch of each other. Finnaly I felt my finish coming.
"Norman," I panted, he kissed me quickly, increasing his speed only a little.
"Scream for me baby girl," his voice husky. It turned me on more.
"Oh, fuck," I panted. "Oh. Yes, Yes, YES! FUCK YES!" I cried out for him, as I rode out my finish. Norman grunted as he gave a couple more good thrusts and burried himself balls deep in to me. He rolled off of me, and we caught our breath. I crawled over to him.
"I love you," I said, kissing at his chest. He smiled down at me playing with my hair.
"I love you," he said. I wiggled my way up to be beside him as he held my hand. We were quite. I hated these long silences. Norman was a talker. No matter what he said, he was always talking. So when he was quite it worried me.
"What do you want from lunch?" I asked trying to fill the silance. He looked over at me like he just remembered I was there. He leaned in and kissed me lips.
"Mmhm, where ever you wanna go," he said lowly, after a slow kiss. I smiled, and was about to answer him when his phone went off. I watched him, pick it up and read it. Then sigh, and reply, and set it back down.  He leaned in and kissed day lips.
"Rain check on lunch, baby girl. I got called in," he said. I sighed, kissing  him back, and nodded.
"Alright," I agreed. Norman smiled weakly, getting up and headed for the bathroom. I watched and waited the shower came on. I thought it was strange he didn't ask if I wanted to join. I looked at the phone. I never had any reasons to believe that he would cheat. I don't even know why I thought it, maybe it was hormones, but regardless curiosity got the better of me and I opend his phone.
"Hey, it's Melissa, I'm ready when every you can get away :)' was the message from a number not saved in his phone. I read over his response.
"Sounds great! I'll be there in a bit :)' Norman answered. I looked at the screen. It was hard to make heads or tales of this. I quickly set the phone back down and rolling over, covering myself up. What if he was cheating? Why? Why didn't he just tell me he was unhappy? I wanted to cry, but I knew if I did that Norman would suspect something. So I just laid there and waited. The water turned off, Norman came back out and got dressed. A nice shirt and back jeans. I didn't miss a beat. He went to turn around and I closed my eyes. I couldn't talk to him. I couldn't say anything for fear of my  emotions would get in the way. I felt his presence hover over me. He leaved in and kissed my head.
"Bye baby, I love you," he whispered. I didn't move. He stood there another second then I heard him walk away. I waited for the door to close and then for his jeep to roar to life.  When I could no longer hear his jeep. I broke. I cried untill my head hurt and I wanted to throw up. I couldn't believe he would cheat on me and then tell me it was work. I sat up hearing my phone. I looked to see it was Mingus I sighed trying to make myself sound normal.
"Hey," I said lowly. There was a slight pause.
"Steph?" Mingus asked. I wipe my eyes and nodded.
"Yeah," I said sounding awful. Another pause.
"Are you ok?" He aksed. 'Shit' I thought.  I should have never answered the phone.
"Yeah," I said clearing f my throat. Trying to make myself sound better.
"Are you sure?" He asked. I sighed again.
"Yeah, was sleep," I lied. Another pause.
"Ohh. Sorry I didn't mean to wake ya," Mingus said. I smiled, such a sweet kid.
"It's fine, what's up?" I asked, trying to distract him.
"Ohh. Well I'd like to make sure it's ok if I still come down. I know dad's probably not going to be planning a vacation or anything, but I'd still like to come down" he sounded excited. I smiled to myself.
"Of course. Why did you even ask," I giggled. 
"I don't know?" He kinda laughed. "But the other thing, was my mom wanted to know I'd you were going to do pictures of you pregnant. I guess it's this big thing. She had them done when she was pregnant and wanted to know if you were gonna," He asked excitedly. I took a deep breath. I hadn't thought about it,  and with Norman possibly cheating it was a lot to think about.
"Not sure," I said lowly.
"Well mom wanted to know if you didn't mind, if she could do them. That is if you decide to. She loves taking pictures and she really wants to get to know you better," he explained. I nodded.
"I'll think about it," I said. It was the best answer I could give him right now.
"Alright, we'll don't tell my dad. Mom said it would make a nice surprise for him, and then after we could do something if wanted," Mingus continued. I bit at my lip trying not to cry again.
"Alright. I'll think about it, I really didn't know it was a thing," I said truthfully. There was a long pause.
"Cool," he said. I sighed, figuring if anyone would know or could find out anything it was Mingus.
"Hey, do you know a Melissa?" I aksed. There was another pause.
"No, why?" He asked. I shook my head.
"Nothing, never mind. It's nothing," I said, brushing it off. Mingus was quite.
"Alright... Well let me know. I'll let you get back to your nap," He said cheerfully.  I nodded again, not sure, becuase he couldn't see me. It was strange to me though, that he didn't ask any questions, usual he was full of them.
"Ok, hun. Talk to you later," I said as we hung up. I sighed again laying back down. I couldn't think right now it hurt too much. I needed sleep. I laid back down and close my eyes, trying to get the nasty images of Norman cheating out of my head.
I woke up later, it was dark in our room and I grabbed my phone.  It was well after eleven. I sighed, he had left about four-thirty five o'clock. Tears stung my eyes, as I decedent to get up. My stomach rummbed, the baby was hungry even though I wasn't. I turned on the light and got dressed. The I headed out to the kitchen. EITD was quick to find me and meow edlessly at my feet untill I got him some food
I sighed, as I look around for something to eat. Nothing  sound good, so I decied to  get a meal replacement shake. My doctor had recommend that I try to drink one when I wasn't really hungry, to help me gain some weight. I sighed as I sipped at it. I wanted to text Norman and see how much longer he would be, but I figured it would do me no good. If he had wanted me to know he would have texted me.
I went in the living room and turned on the TV. Lookig threw the DVR, I saw that stupid show, mocking me. I delete it, there was no reason to watch it. Norman and I were deffenatly never getting married. I needed to face it. I flipped threw channels as I finished my shake. I couldn't find anything worth watching, so I gave up. I threw my empty container away and headed for bed. I brushed my teeth and crawled in to bed. I looked at my phone. No word from Norman still, I started to cry as I set the phone down. Why hadn't he texted yet? I burred my head in to the pillow and cried myself to seep.
I woke up later, to the bathroom light. I bit my lip, knowing Norman was home, and he did bother to wake me up. I heard the shower come on and looked over to the night stand to see Norman's phone, in the small light given off by the cracks in the door. I quickly grabbed it and went to the message. The message from Melissa was gone. I stifled back tears, as I pulled the phone back. I went back to my side of the bed and, tried to go back to sleep. I heard the shower shut off, then Norman brushed his teeth. I burried my head deeper in the pillow. Finnaly, I head him shut the light off and get in to bed as he kissed my head.
"Stephy," he cooed. I ignored him. "Baby girl," he cooed again, I was so mad at him right now it wasn't a good idea to talk to him. "Baby, don't be mad. I know it's  late and I didn't call," he said, kissing  at my cheek. I looked up at him, finnaly. There was no way to hid my eyes, red and puffy. Norman looked at me, just looking.
"Baby, were you crying?" He asked. I looked away. He pulled me close. "Come here," he said lowly in my ear. Kissing at my head. "I'm sorry, I didn't realize the time, and I didn't want to wake you up," he said holding me. I sighed. I couldn't ask him who Melissa was he'd know I was looking threw his phone.
"I just missed you," I choked out, burring my face in his chest. He held me tight.
"I'm so sorry, baby" he said. I looked up at him. I knew he was cheating there was nothing I could do. I smiled weakly and nodded, as I leaned in to kiss him. He kissed me slow and sweet, but I knew I couldn't make love with him. I pulled away.
"Just hold me?" I asked lowly, burring my face back in to his chest. He kissed the top of my head and pulled me close.
"Did you eat anything?" He asked. I nodded. "What?" He asked. I sighed.
"Skake," I said lowly. I wasn't quite sure what to think about this. I mean, if he was cheating then what was I to do? Tell him in went threw his phone. Tell him I didn't trust him. I couldn't do any of that. I needed to have faith. I needed to just know that he came home to me. That needed to be enough.
"Come on baby girl," he said. I looked up at him and nodded. We got up and went out to the kitchen.
"Did you eat?" I asked. He looked at me a moment.
"Yeah, but I'm still hungry," he said with a smile. I nodded and gave him a weak smile.
"You want me to cook you something?" I asked. He shook his head.
"Naw, think we still got pizza," he said looking threw the refrigerator. I sighed lowly. He looked up, pizza box in hand. "You alright?" He asked. I looked at him for a second, but it felt like an entirety.
"Yeah," I lied. "Just tired," I lied again. He nodded.
"Yeah, me too. Let's eat and go to bed," he said, setting the box on the counter. I nodded slowly. Could he tell I was lying? Of course he could, he knew me, but I knew him. He had been acting funny too. We ate our pizza. I picked at mine. I wasn't hungry, sad, destroyed, maybe, but not hungry. I did my best to eat it though. After a while I gave up. We went to bed and I pulled him close. At least I could have him at night, I thought.
A couple weeks passed, and Norman wasn't leave his phone laying around, like he use to. I just told myself that I had to be ok with this. He was after all a celebrity. Of couse he was going to have girls on the side. Maybe he though I would leave and take the baby, and never let him see it. Or maybe he though I would try to get money out of him. I wouldn't do any of those things. I was happy just have been with him. We could work something out. Hell if he told me he cheated and he was sorry, I'd look passed it. I could move on, it was Norman. I loved him.
Today I sat at the house though, waiting,  and I'm not sure for what. I didn't want to be here though, unfortunately I had used all my extra savings up and had no gass money to go anywhere. I didn't want to ask Norman for money. I didn't want him to think I needed his money. I counted my change again, I  only had three dollars. That wouldn't get me anywhere. I sighed as my phone went off.
'Lunch? :)' Norman texted. I sighed, looking at the phone. I couldn't tell him I was out of gass, I didn't answer. After a bit he was calling. I didn't know what to do as I picked it up, and tried to sound normal.
"Hey," I said lowly.
"Hey, I'm sorry baby were you sleeping? I didn't mean to wake ya. I wanted ya to come to lunch with me, but if your sleeping, I won't bother you," Norman went on in a rush. I sighed lowly, I wanted to be with him, but I knew me asking for money would only reinforce the idea that I needed his money.
"Yeah, sorry. Just tired," I said lowly. He sighed.
"I'll come see ya," he said excitedly. I smiled. He still wanted to be with me even if he was cheating on me.
"You sure you have time?" I asked. He paused.
"Yeah, got plenty of time for you," he said sweetly. I smiled. He knew how to kill me and bring me back, all at the same time. "Be there in a bit! Love you!" He said happily. I smiled.
"I love you too," I said. We hung up, and I went to look for something to make. It wasn't long before I heard the roar of his moter cycle, in to the drive way, and I was like a child ruling out to see him. He ran to me just as fast and pulled me in to a kiss and hug. I smiled up at him when we parted.
"God, I missed you," I smiled at him. He chuckled.
"Mmmh, been thinking about you all day long," he said kissing me again. I giggled like a child. We headed inside. "Smells good. Whatcha making?" He asked, still holding me.
"Toco's, kinda had a craving for them. I laughted. He chuckled.
"That's my baby," he said, placing a hand on my stomach. "He giving you much problem today?" Norman asked walking to the sink and washing his hands. I went to make his plate.
"You don't know it's a him," I said, waiting for him to finish drying his hands. He smiled.
"Reverse psychology,"  he smiled, kissing me. I shook my head with a smile.
"I don't think that works on baby's," I said with a giggle, getting my own plate. He waited and we went to sit down.
"Probably not, but if I keep thinking it's a boy, I won't be disappointed when it's a boy," he smiled. I looked at him funny.
"And if it's a girl?" I asked. Norman chuckled.
"Ok either way, I won't be disappointed," he said. I giggled.
"The next ultrasound is scheduled for the twenty-fourth," I said looking at him. He nodded and smiled.
"I took the whole day off, so we can go," he smiled. I smiled too.
"Cool," I said taking a bite of my taco. "Mmhm," I hummed. Norman chuckled at me.
"Good?" He asked. I smiled, and nodded.
"Great! We should eat these more often," I siad. Norman laughed.
"Ohh yeah, that's my baby," he said, still laughing. I narrowed my eyes at him.
"Of course it's yours. Who's else would it be?" I kinda snapped, I wasn't sure what came over me. I was just really annoyed with the way he kept conferming, the baby was his. Norman leaned in and kissed my cheek.
"I'm sorry, I just the baby takes after me," he said calmy. I sighed.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know why I snapped at you," I said, lowly,  looking down at my plate. I heard Norman chuckle.
"Hormones," he said, kissing g my head again. "Don't worry baby girl. I know you would never cheat on me," he said. I looked at him a long moment. I wouldn't, but he would. It as like there was an elephant in the room, but I was the only one who knew it was there. I smiled forcing my brain to think.
"I'm so glad you've been threw this," I kinda giggled. Norman looked at me.
"Why?" He asked, still smiling. I smiled.
"Because you know what to expect. In an emotional wreck half the time, and you just go with it," I giggled. He really was amazing. He smiled.
"Even if I hadn't. I  know you're not yourself,  I mean the baby is making your body change. Some physical, others just emotional," he said. I smiled leaning over and kissing him on the cheek. Then I couldn't help but dwell on the 'physical' part, maybe that's why he was seeing someone else.
"Do you still find me a tractive?" I asked lowly. Norman pulled me closer to him.
"Of course! Baby girl, you are still as beautiful to me today as when I first layed eyes on you," he said, kissing my head. I smiled up at him weakly.
"I'm glad," I said, but that didn't clear aything up. Norman went to set his plate down and noticed the change on the table.
"What's up with the change?" He asked. I tried to think of an answer.
"Just counting it," I shrugged. He eyed me.
"Do you need money for something?" He asked. I shook my head.
"No, just umm, board," I said. I could tell by the look on his face, he didn't believe me. "Well, I was kinda thinking we could start a piggy bank for the baby," I lied. Norman smiled.
"That's a great idea," he said standing up. I watched him as he dug in his pocket. "There," he said, emptying his pocket of his loose change. I smiled.
"Awesome, now we just need a piggy bank," I smiled. Norman nodded.
"Yeah, we really do need to go shopping," he said taking my hand. I fallowed. We walked to one of the spare bedrooms. "I know it won't be untill next year, but I was thinking we could do this room for the baby. I know your going to want to get home too, and start on the room there," Norman said, smiling sadly at me. I pulled him close.
"Yeah, before I'm ready to pop," I forced a giggle. He rubbed my back.
"Mmmh, is it selfish of me to want to keep you, and not let you go back to NYC?" Norman asked. I smiled and looked up at him.
"Yes, but, I think your supose to feel that way," I giggled. Norman smiled. "Because I don't want to leave you either," I told him still holding him.  He smiled, and his phone started to go off. I sighed, and let go of him but he pulled me back.
"Where ya going?" He asked. I shrugged, I didn't know how to answer that. He shook his head giving me a quick kiss to mine, and answered the phone.
"Hey," he said happily. I burried my face in his chest. Truthfully I'd rather be sleeping, something about being in his arms did that to me. I yawned, as I rested my head against him.
Norman noticed and pulled me along to the bedroom. I smiled up at him as we made it to the bed. I climbed in and he sat down beside me. I really wasn't listening to what he was saying. I was too tired, as I cuddled up against him and quickly fell asleep.  I was woken with a kiss to my lips. I opend my eyes and yawned.
"leaving?" I asked, lowly. Norman smiled and shook his head.
"Baby girl, I've already left and come back," he chuckled. I looked at him very confused.
"How? When? What?" I asked. He chuckled, again.
"You fell asleep, I kissed you and told you I'd be back. You said you loved me, and I left," he chuckled. I shook my head, and yawned again.
"I don't remember any of that," I said sitting up and streching. Norman smiled.
"I see that," he laughed. "Ohh brought back gass for your car. Why didn't you tell me it was out of gass?" He asked, lowly. I bit my lip looking down, and shrugged.
"I don'tknow," I said lowly. He sighed.
"Baby, I know you don't like taking my money, but Steph, we are having a baby. If you need to go to the hospital or anything. What would you do?" He asked, sadly. I siged.
"I know, I just.. I'm not use to relying on someone," I said lowly. Norman nodded.
"I know. I hate that you feel that you can't ask me for stuff," he sighed. I bit my lip, all I wanted to do was show him I was slef sufficient, but insted it was hurting him. I couldn't understand. He was cheating, but still keeping up the act of the whole couple thing.
"I just," I bit my lip. What was I supose to say. 'Showing you if we broke up, I don't need your money...' No, I couldn't say that. He'd wonder why I was thinking like that. "I'm sorry, it will take some getting use to," I said lowly.  Norman pulled me close.
"I'm not mad," he said kissing my head. "I jut want you to know, we are in this together. My money is your money," he said.  I looked at him, he was so confusing.
"Alright," I agreed. I didn't know what elese to say. 'While we're together?' No, again that would raise suspension. He smiled and kissed me. I couldn't help myslef I loved this man. He put my heart threw some stuff, but I loved him. We parted and he kissed me again quickly.
"You ok? You seem spacy," he said. I looked at him a minute. Me? He was the one seeing some Melissa chick... But I'm the one who was spacy? I forced a smile.
"Fine, just hungry," I said. He smiled bigger.
"Me too!" He agreed as he got off the bed. I smiled and fallowed him. We went to the kitchen, he fed EITD as I looked thew the cupboards.
"What sounds good?" I asked. He shrugged, and then smiled and came over to me and kissed me hard. I smiled in to our kiss.
"Alright, what else sounds good?" I giggled. Norman smiled more.
"Not watching you have to stand on your feet and cook. Come on, get dressed let's go out," he said pulling me back to the bedroom. I giggled at him, as we went.
"I haven't even showered today,"I giggled. He smiled, with a raised eyebow.
"Really?" He asked his voice excited. I giggled and shook my head. "Mmhm," he hummed as he rubbed at his chin. I leaned in and kissed him, slowly then pulled way.
"At this rate we will never get somewhere to eat," I giggled. Norman smiled more evily.
"Yes,  we will," he insisted as we went to the bathroom. I shook my head at him, as he kissed my lips then down my neck, helping me with my clothes. I couldn't help but love him. He was amazing. I helped him with his clothes and we kissed while the shower heated up.
"God your so fuckin beautiful," he moaned lowly. I giggled. He tested the water with his hand and smiled. I stepped in and them heard his phone go off. I watched from inside the shower, as he smiled at the phone and replied. Then looked up and came to me.
"Good news?" I asked, curious. He shrugged.
"Work," he said pulling me close to him and kissing me again. I kissed him back, but by the look on his face I could tell it wasn't 'work' he was smiling at.
I had never felt so conflicted while making love. I loved Norman, that was a no brainer. He loved me, I was sure,  but how did the other girl fit in? Was she able to do something I couldn't? I mean sometimes he liked it rough. I couldn't do that because I was pregnant, so is that what she did for him? I knew I shouldn't let this happen. I knew I should ask him about her. Confront him, tell him I was sorry, I didn't trust him, but in all reality, I was right not to. Maybe give him a choice, tell him I didn't want his money we could work something out.
As we made it back to the bedroom kissing, I knew I could do none of that. Norman pulled away and smiled at me. I smiled back. I love him, and I could only hope he loved me enough to stop this. He was still my weakness, my everything.
"Alright, I don't want to, but I'll leave ya alone," he chuckled. I smiled as I went to get clothes.
"Where are we going?" I asked. He looked at the time.
"Wanna go to Atlanta?" He aske. I looked at him.
"Up to you," I said. He smiled more.
"I don't shoot untill tomorrow night," he said coming behind me. "We can go have dinner, maybe get a room," he said kissing at my neck and running his hands around my body. I moaned and giggled at him.
"What's up with you? Your extra lovey tonight," I giggled, turning to kiss him. He smiled.
"I love you," he said, plainly. I smiled.
"I love you too," I shook my head and kissed him. "But what am I wearing?" I asked. He smiled more.
"Something easy to take off," he said in to my neck. I moaned lowly, as he kissed at me tenderly.
"We can always, just stay in," I gigled. He pulled away.
"No come on, I wanna show you off," he said, pulling out a cute little dress for me to wear. I wasn't in maturity clothes, because I was so small still, but it was a cute little white flowy dress that you could deffenatly see my baby bump in. I smiled at him, it confused me how he was so happy to show me off to everyone, and then he had someone on the side. I nodded as I took the dess.
"Alright," I agreed kissing him quickly. He kissed me back and then went to get his own clothes.
I put the dess on and went to the bathroom, to do my hair and makeup.  I noticed his phone was still on the counter. I looked in the mirror to see where he was. He was coming tward me, to get it, I assumed. I turned to look at him, and moved infront of it.
"I'm going to make sure, Fatso, has everything he needs," he said kissing me quickly I nodded, and left. I smiled as I watched him leave and turned to get the phone. As I suspected it was Melissa.
'Everything is all set, same time same place. :)' it said. My heart sunk.  I read his response.
'Awesome! Can't wait! I have been dying to hear that!! :) :)' he answered. I put the phone down. I looked at my self in the mirror. He was my everything and I was nothing to him. I wanted to cry, as I looked at myself in the mirror, I was. It killed me that he was leading me on, why? Because I was wondering? Suddenly he was behind me.
"Baby, what's wrong?" Norman asked as he pulled me in to his arms. I turned and burried my head in to his chest. I wanted to yell at him, I wanted to tell him he was no good. Insted I held him close, taking in the way he felt in my arms and the way he smelt. He pulled away enough to look at me.  
"Baby talk to me," he said, lifting my head up, and wiping away my tears.  I just looked at him.
"I love you," I choked out, like an idiot. He was cheating and I was begging for him to love me.
"Oh, baby girl, I love you too. It's ok," he said, as he pulled me back in to a hug and held me. I cried a bit longer, he let me. When I felt better I looked up.
"Sorry," I sniffled, losing all my anger looking at him. "Emotional, I guess," I lied. Norman smiled and kissed me.
"It's ok, baby, I understand," he said as he wiped my cheek. He smiled as he hugged me again. "I'm here for you," he said. I smiled and hugged tighter.
"I love you," I whispered, hoping he would hear my silent pleas, for him to stop seeing that girl.
"I love you too, believe me, you mean the world to me," Norman said. I looked up at him very confused.
"You are my everything," I said lowly. He smiled, kissing my nose and then my lips.
"I fuckin love you," he chuckled. I smiled. "Come on baby. You finish getting ready, I'll pack our bags," Norman said with a smile. I pulled him close to me.
"Alright," I agreed, he hugged me back, then kissing me. "That's my beautiful girl, dry them tearts," he smiled, and gently wiped my tears. I smiled, and we kissed one more time. Then Norman left, and I started my hair and makeup.
About ten minutes later we were heading out the door to the Jeep. I was still kinda lost in thought, looking at Norman. He was the most amazing man in the world. Of couse other women wanted him, and of couse he would want more then one woman. I sighed, Norman looked over at me concern.
"What's going on in that pretty little head of yours?" He asked lowly with a small chuckled. I looked at him and smiled.
"Nothing, just thinking about the baby," I lied. Norman smiled.
"Yeah, I have been too. It's definitely going to change a lot of things," he said. I nodded. I knew that, and I had truthfully been thinking about it too.
"Yeah," I agreed lowly. He chuckled, again.
"Believe me, it will be great," he smlied. I did too.
"Yeah, I'm nervous, but I can't wait either," I giggled. Norman smiled at me as he held my hand tighter.
The rest of the car ride was mostly talking with short periods of silence. I tried to keep my mind off the other woman. Norman seemed to be doing just fine. Actually he seemed happier then he had in a while. We got to Atlanta, and Norman found a hotel for the night. It always amazed me, the rooms he got. They were like small apartments, just for us, just for the night.
After we were settled, Norman called a limo. When it got there Norman let me in first the got in behind me. I smiled as we sat close, he pulled me closer, so my head rested on his chest. He rested his hands on my stomach.  I loved this, I could deal with him with her, as long as he came home to me. I guessed, I loved him. I would do anything for him.
"I love you," Norman whispered in my ear, and kissed my head. I tured to smiled at him.
"I love you too," I said as we shared a slow sweet kiss. We made it to the restaurant and seated. I always loved the new places I got to see when I  was with Norman. The restaurants were no exception always so beautiful, and elegant.
"How are you feeling?" He asked. I looked at him.
"Fine," I said confused. He nodded.
"Your so quiet latley. Is everything ok?" He asked. I looked at him, truthfully? No. How could it be when he was seeing someone else? I forced myself to smile.
"Yeah, sorry. Everything is fine," I smiled. He still looked at me.
"Steph, if something is bothering you, please tell me," he said lowly. It was more of a plea. I looked at him confused.
"I swear," I said. He sighed.
"I know we don't get to see each other as much as we use to. I know it's hard to be with me. I just don't want to lose you," he said. I smiled.
"Norman, I'm not going anywhere. I guess I'm just thinking about the baby so much I forget to talk," I smiled. He smiled.
"Baby girl, if there's anything you need to talk about, I'm here. Anything you need for  the baby, just let me know. It's going to all work out. Don't stress, that's the last thing you need to do," Norman smiled. I smiled, he was an amazing man. He really was. I nodded.
"I just hate not having my own money. I know you will take care of us, but it's just an adjustment for me," I filled him in on one thing that was bothering me. He nodded.
"Yeah, I try to leave you cash, and I know you don't like asking for money," he nodded as though he had decided something. I shrugged.
"It's fine, I just feel weird asking you for things. I'm not with you for material things. I love you," I said, Norman smiled.
"I know, and that's why I have no problems giving you what ever you want. I love you too, and it's our money. Our baby, our life. I want to share it all with you," he said with a big smile. I smiled too. It was crazy how he could confess his love for me and wanting to share his whole world with me, and yet still be seeing someone on the side.
The rest of dinner went well, we talked about eveything. It really sounded like he was afraid I would leave. It made me sad to think he thougt that way. I never wanted to leave. I just wanted to be his one and only girl. We made it back to the hotel and Norman pulled me close. His kisses were needy. He had a way of telling me he needed me with out saying a word. I smiled as we, made out way to the bedroom. Our clothes being thrown on our way, I would show him I loved him and I wouldn't leave as long as he'd have me.