Hysteria (studxstud)

4. Confused

It was after 2 and I couldn't fall asleep.  A lot was on my mind right now and I didn't know where to start. So I decided to watch porn, I got my earbuds out and plugged them into my computer.

I went to my favorite stud on stud site and started watching the most recent ones. I mean I thought it was weird but it was sexy as hell to have two doms in the bedroom.. shiit.

I was watching the pornstar give head and started thinking about how long since I've gotten head. I was watching but my mind was on Rj and Rox. I started imagining  RJ naked and under me, while the moaning in my ears was getting me hot and bothered. I grabbed my breasts and started massaging them and my hand slid down into my boxers feeling how wet I already was. Shiiiiiiit...

I started thinking about Rox giving me head and I starting circling my clit a bit harder.  It got worst when I thought about how it would feel giving Rj some good ass head, I stuck one finger inside needing to feel the release. I was using one hand to rub my clit and the other to finger myself but with all the thrashing and kicking I pulled out the earbuds and the loud ass porn shook every nerve in my body. I jumped up real quick to shut it down, within those 2 seconds I was no longer heated and was dryer than the Sahara. 

I woke up 30 mins early to do my new morning regime for the upcoming summer. Starting off with some Yoga breathing exercises and then a protection and healing prayer with my healing crystals around. Feeling uplifted and light, I went to bathe before my mom could wake my brothers. I hated wearing this uniform and I'm so glad that my five years of high school would be over. My dad is planning on filing for my brother first because he is older, but I really just wanna stay here with my mom. 

We all ate breakfast and was out the door early enough to beat the morning traffic. We stopped to pick Cris up as  she had asked the night before. My mom chatted her out all the way to school asking about her girlfriends and about where she is going after exams. By the time we got to school it was still pretty early and my mom left us with extra money for snacks. 

"So man, you gonna talk to Rox or RJ? Because I finna chuck that bitch so hard she  says hallelujah amen praise the lord," Cris says waving her hands.

"Dude first off, STOP mocking my mom," Cris bust out laughing "I'ma hit RJ up to see if she wanna hang after school at that cafe on Wallace St."

"AYYYYE, my baby making moves. Is that like a first date thing or what? I'm hurt now because you didn't take me on a first date," Cris faked hurt.

"Nigga Shut the fuck.. I stay treating yo ass like a hubby. I'm only gay for you." I hugged my bestie and we laughed while she kissed my jaw. 

"You stay cheating on me with this nigga," Roxanna walked up behind us.

Cris walked off, "look man, ima head over to the 8th grade block to see whats up. Smell ya later."

I greeted Rox and took her hand to lead her to the music room. We sat staring at each other before Rox decided to break the silence. 

"Ok, what did you hear?"

She knew me too well and i'm afraid of that.

"I think we should break up" I blurted out. 

Roxanna stared at me, eyes wide opened. She didn't respond, she just took her bag and left. She was hurt and i am too but she's got my heart and Mr. Marcomb's interest and she's the only one safe here.  A tear fell down my face but i wiped it off while singing stay scheming by Rick Ross. 

**

I made it through the entire morning making small talk with RJ trying to warm her up for the question i planned on asking her. I wasn't looking forward to seeing Rox at lunch, fortunately she wasn't at our usual spot and i invited RJ to lunch instead while Cris had a different girl once again. 

RJ seemed to be pretty cool since we didn't really talk much before. 

"You didn't message me the other day" RJ mentioned.

I looked over at her and smiled. I had to let her know that I was having a moment and wanted to be alone so I didn't see my phone much. I stared at RJ's face with the feeling that I was missing out on something my entire life. 

By the time i got enough courage to ask her out this evening, school had ended and mom left work early so she came to pick me up. I decided to go home and message her this evening setting the date for the upcoming Friday instead. As i got home the first thing i did was put my phone to charge since i was playing games the whole journey home, my city needs me bihh. 

I decided to call up RJ, but should i do that? I mean it is the 21st century for crying out loud. My thoughts were raging and my anxiety was eating me alive. 

Hey, its Jay. you can save my number as bae.. only because it rhymes.

I typed the first message and erased it because it felt weird. So i decided to go with a simple hey but even that felt weird. 

Stranger danger

Woah there friend, stalker much? I said to myself and decided that the next message would be final so I went all in with,

me: Hey, Its Jay. k?

I stared at the screen watching the seconds tick by waiting to see how long it would take for this fruity nigga to text me back. 

RJ: Its Rody, k? 

Is she serious? I mean I know who i'm texting of course. 

me: well daaaaw Rodella. 

RJ: sheez lighten up tho, aint no one tryna snatch yo goody bag tho son.

me: would much prefer if you call me bae, you aint gon be calling me son when i get all up in that kitty kitty meowww. 

Thank Gaia, mom walked in just in time to stop the monstrosity. Telling me to leave my phone alone to study and go to bed. I just didn't reply to her last text. When mom walked out i took my phone up to call Rodella up.

"Hey just say yes or no, would you like to drink coffee and eat pecan pie with me on Friday?"

"Y-E-S"

"Thats not saying yes but ok bye" I hung up the phone.