[read description before reading!!] bound to you ; bill cipher x reader

I hate you

Bill had a blue ring, blue chains and blue fire, while Will had a yellow ring, yellow chains and yellow fire. They were the complete opposite of each other and yet both of them owned something that showed that they were somehow connected, somehow related.

The chains and fire clashed against each other, each time they somehow got in contact an explosion sound tore Bill and Will apart from each other before they launched at each other again and again.
It was scary to watch.

Another explosion tore them apart and sent both falling to the ground, Bill a mere meters away from where you were hiding.

"Bill..." you whispered, your whole body trembling as you backed further away from the scene.
But the feelings you felt for him stopped you from completely running away.

Standing up Will coughed and launched at Bill again who was still on the ground. He pinned his arms above his head, trapping his brother underneath him.

"No weakness..." the blue demon mumbled, staring into his brother's eye before chuckling sadly. A cold shiver rolled down your spine as Will looked up and his eye seemed to meet yours.

"I'm so sorry."

Bill was visibly taken aback by his brother's sudden weird behavior.

"I really apologize for doing this" Will said louder than before, a knife appearing in his hand. In a split second he was away from Bill and right in front of you, grabbing your arm and pulling you away from the bushes. Your blood turned cold, heart pounding hard against your ribcage while you tried to get away from the demon. Bill's eye widened impossibly wide and he quickly stood up, an angered expression on his face.

"Don't you fucking dare!" he yelled, his gold colour vanishing and replaced by a red one.

"L-let me go!" you cried out, hot tears making their way down your cheeks like waterfalls.

"What? You want her dead, don't you? So that you can be your own master again and be free. Isn't that what you want?" Will asked, a blank expression on his face.

"Listen up here, pal, I really don't need you interfering in these kinds of things!"

"But it's true, isn't it?"

You wanted to break down and cry. Hearing all that caused your heart to ache so badly, you just wanted to run away and get as far away as possible.
When Will suddenly held the knife way too close to your neck, you started to whimper.

"P-please..."

"Will!"

"Don't worry brother, I'll help you."

"STOP!"

Suddenly, your vision went white. For a few seconds you weren't able to see or hear anything.

When you opened your eyes again, everything was blurry at first. But as soon as your eyes recovered from the sudden flash of light, you witnessed the scariest thing you might have ever seen.

Will was right next to you, a horified and pained expression on his face as blood dripped from his mouth and multiple chains were pierced through his entire body. Bill was right in front of him, said chains connected to his back. The eyepatch had long left his eye and both of his eyes were completely black, his facial expression blank.

Bill watched how his brother coughed out blood, tears soon streaming down his face as he cried out in pain. The blonde didn't seem to care at all, instead he plugged the blue chains depper and depper inside his brother's body as if he was intending to kill him in the most painful way possible.

You grabbed Bill's arm, shaking him violently as a poor attempt to awake him from his insane trance.

"B-bill, enough n-now!"

The bluenette looked at you, a pained smile appearing on his pale lips.

"(Y/n), i-it's useless.." he mumbled, his one visible eye closing as he leaned his head back slightly.

"I...I guess I t-took it too far. I didn't think h-he would care about you this much, I n-never saw him this angered." Will chuckled, a blue aura surrounding him before a portal opened behind him.

"I-I'm sorry. But I think this will help." he mumbled before he vanished, the chains falling limp to the ground. You instantly stepped away from Bill, waiting for some kind of reaction from him. It took some time before his gold colour came back, his eyes changing back while one of them closed again. When Bill completely recovered he still didn't say anything. He simply picked his eyepatch up from the ground and put it back on before turning away from you.

"Why are you here?" he questioned, gloved hands finding their way into the pockets of his pants. You almost wanted to snap back at him, the fact that he acted like he didn't care at all all of the sudden hurted you.

"It was a coincidence." you replied, gaze fixed to the ground. For a second, you blamed your stupid feelings for actually hoping that he'd give you some kind of apology.
But still, Will was right.
Why did he save you?

Tears started rolling down your cheeks again, earning yourself a confused look from the demon. You shakily tried to wipe them away, but it was useless.

"Why are you like this?" you asked, voice trembling as emotions overcame you.

"You want to kill me, but you want to protect me. Can't you just make up your mind?" Your voice broke, but you eventually managed to stop the tears from flowing. With glassy eyes you looked at Bill, waiting for him to say something.

"I-I don't know." he finally said, avoiding eye contact.

"I don't know is not a good answer!" you snapped at him, making him flinch lightly as your tone raised.

"Give me an explanation, Cipher! Now!" Anger started to overcome you, the triangle sign on your hand started glowing while the chain between your hand and Bill's neck formed again. Without intending to, you forced the answer out of him.

"I hate you, okay! I hate the way this stupid human body makes me feel things I never felt before everytime I'm with you! Whether it's good or bad, I hate it! You are controlling me and confusing me and I hate it!"

Your eyes were wide.
The demon in front of you started clawing at the chain in an angered way, his colour always changing between blue and red, although his eye remained gold.

You were speechless. Your throat closed up and you couldn't say a word.

"NOW GET THIS THING OFF OF ME!" he demanded, making you flinch.

"I-I don't-"

"GET IT AWAY!"

He stumbled over to you, his hands grabbing yours with the symbol on it, staring at it before he fell to his knees, pulling you down with him. You sat right in front of him than, his hands still grabbing yours as you watched how his lips trembled, and it almost looked like he was having a mental break down.

"B-bill-"

"I've been alone this whole time. Ever since I got these powers people feared me, hated me, wanted to get rid of me and I just love seeing them tremble and cry while I take everything away from them. Their mind, memories, town, world, universe, life. I don't mind killing people to get what I want, (Y/n), I really don't. And yet I just can't kill you to achieve freedom again, I want to keep you, I want you to be mine and mine only."

His head fell on top of your shoulder, his hands not letting go.

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