Love is a Verb (Riley/Before You Exit)

I Miss You

Kaitlin

When realization hit me. I quickly excused myself and made my way to my motor. Oh did I mention that my cousin found this at the bowling alley last week. Remember the accident that happened to me months ago? Before the coma thing. No? Okay. Lol.

You might be shocked that I would drive the motor when I'm still a bit sore. I couldn't careless though. I made a big mistake. Dang it. I wonder if Thomas told her about this. I quickly start my motor and made my way back to Missaglia. I had to be careful though because it's icy cold. I made it after 40 mins. I was the stoplight driver.

I almost slipped once I got off but I gained balance just in time. I ran towards the door and immediately rang the doorbell. No answer. I rang it about 10 times and still no answer. Fudge, my teeth is chattering.

"So you finally showed up." I heard a voice from behind. I turned around and there she was giving me a poker face.

"Hey." Was all I could say because I'm freezing already.

"Hey?! That's it?"eth. Then she noticed my teeth, chattering from the cold air. "Fine. Come in. You're really stupid to go in here by your motor." She pulled me inside their house. "So, why are you here?"

"I'm sorry." I started. "I'm sorry if I didn't talked to you after all this months. It's just so much has happened these past few months and the funny thing is, half of those months is me being unconscious. Alive but unconsciously dead. I don't know why they didn't tell you or maybe they just forgot because of all those stress. I can't blame them though. This is all my fault. I chose to risk my life. Call me stupid but they became my family for a short time. And you know what's the best one ? They treated me with so much love and care just like what you did. The way you showed me that I am not alone. It was the time that I feel that I'm ready to face anything and that's why I risked my life just to save their dreams. I would always do it for you. ALWAYS. You are the first person that actually welcomed me and I would always be thankful for that. It's fine that if you're angry at me. I just needed to let this out. Gah, I sound like a guy wanting to court someone." I sniffled a little. She was just staring at me. "I should go but.. Thank you for listening, okay?" I smiled slightly and went out of her house. It's fine by me if she doesn't want to talk to yet. If she comes around. I'll still be here. I ran towards my motor and went back on the road.

I parked my motor an went inside the house and it was packed. Everyone was laughing and children were playing. I closed the door and was greeted by my auntie.

"Iha! How are you? Oh my. So gorgeous." I gave a sly smile and a short hug. They all started bombarding me with questions and I saw Paul laughing at me. I gave him a death glare and he just waved me off. Such an idiot but hey. I love that idiot. It went likes this for a few more hours and then they finally mind their own business. I joined my cousins and their friends.

"There's the star of the night." My cousin said and I threw the tissue paper that I'm holding right now.

"Shut up."

"Don't like the attention?" Paul said in a teasing manner.

"Nope. Not like that." I glared at him playfully.

"You're supposed to be used to that."

"I'm unconsciously dead for almost 4 months." I said and they all looked at me. "What?! It's true. I'm fine already."

After that, we all just laughed and talked about anything. I would miss this. I badly miss my family in the Philippines but I'm scared to go back there. They all think I'm a ... You know what I mean. I'm happy but you can't really expect me to forget everything that happened to me before. Almost half of my child years consist of faking and trying to be mature. It's not that easy. I just hope if I ever go back there... It's different.