Love is a Verb (Riley/Before You Exit)

Soldier

Kaitlin

I took a u-turn into everything. After pondering about every single thing that I could think of. I have decided although I got my ticket and I'm just waiting for that. I also heard that this tour that they're having is just a little Europe tour and it will only last another week. Braiden will continue to Asia whereas Before You Exit will go back home to have their glorious off from tours. They had their own tour before this little tour with Braiden so they're taking a break.

How do I know all of this?

Kristen went here this morning for an explanation. Apparently when Riley came back, he threw a fit on everybody. When they got back to there place. He threw every single clothing that he brought and he broke his phone. He was so angry that I can imagine it and I felt even more embarrassed at my doings. I explained everything to Kristen and I'm glad she understood but she told me that Chandee was right and that I need to act it up and just be with him. They both said I can't let my negativity pull me away from what I really feel. As much as I don't want to admit it. They're right.

After Kristen went out.. I talked to the boys mainly Connor, Thomas, Braiden and Toby. I had to tell them or they'll misinterpret everything too. They're disappointed with me but they said that they'll support me and after a while they forgave me telling me that they had no right to be furious with me. I can't believe how understanding they are to me. I just made their brother angry. I'll never understand their kindness but I'm grateful to it anyway.

But of course, I had to let him breathe this out first. I don't know his number so it's better like that. He needs the space and I'm going to give it to him until he goes to Florida again.

I walked out of the room.

Oh and I had a talk with Simon too. He said that it's fine if I go somewhere. I heard a throat clearing from the living room. I turned and saw Percy. Wait? Who told him he could stay here? He looked at me and smiled.

"Hey good morning." He walked to me and hugged me. I quickly pushed him away.

"Why are you here?" I asked him. I don't know if I'm annoyed or not.

He chuckled. "Because I wanted to see you and you asked me to stay here." He said. Dude, I wasn't drunk yesterday. All I did was cry in my room last night.

"I wasn't drunk yesterday.You know. So I know what I said yesterday. I know what I did and I specifically told you to leave." I said, pissed off.

"What is it with you that every time I try flirting with you. You end up punching me right in the gut." He muttered, annoyed with the situation.

"Cause you don't get it!" I screeched. "I'm sorry but you don't get it! You don't get that I don't like you and probably never will. I've told you this even before we were co-workers yet you didn't listen to me." I looked at him. It was true. Better say the truth than never.

"Why? What's wrong with me? Am I mental to you? I love you Kaitlin." He said and I gape at him.

"Please. Don't be then." I told him. "Don't." It's weird hearing those words from him. It seems so unnatural.

"WHY? Tell me the reason." He said and I shook my head. I can't. What's my reason anyway? "KAITLIN, TELL ME THE THE REASON THAT YOU CANNOT LOVE ME BACK!" He screamed at me.

"BECAUSE I'M IN LOVE WITH RILEY." I screamed back and now feeling shocked. I looked at Percy.

"You mean, that guy from that band? Please, Kaitlin, you don't even know him. He's heartless. He can't fall in love. I heard that guy is an anti-repellant for girls. Three years of pushing them all away. He's a moron." He said and I pushed him. Anger bubbling up inside me.