Love is a Verb (Riley/Before You Exit)

Paper Sheets

Kaitlin

"Kaitlin. Please open the door." Chandee says. I've been in my room for two days and I got every key in the house so that they can't open it any time soon. "You need to eat something. You'll faint if you don't." I snort silently. I don't care.

"Leave me alone, Chandee. I want to be alone." Was all I said. My voice is now croaky.

"I've left you alone for two days! Two days is enough, Kaitlin! I'm getting worried and you need to sort this out with Riley. You've both been moping around for two days. You can't be like this. Stop being in denial. I know you want to talk to him." I didn't respond to her. I heard her sigh and her feet going down the stairs.

He was the same? Of course. I know he is. I've seen the way he looked at me. I'm not dumb but I'm not that strong either to face him after my outburst.

I sat up on my bed. Chandee's right. I can't mope here forever. I decided to call one guy that I know I can talk to..

"Hello?" The voice said after 2 rings.

"So what's up with you?" I asked Thomas as we walked.

"Nothing really. Still doing the thing that I love doing. You? You look tired." He asks me. Concern lacing with his voice.

I shrugged. "I had worse. Maybe I am tired."

"The only way that you can release that tired feeling is.." He stopped for a second and smiled at me. "You know what? I know you know it. I don't have to say it again cause I feel everyone has been saying this to you so I'd rather not. You're just in this state of trying to push away the good things in life that can possibly make you happy." He said thoughtfully.

"I know. I just can't repel the negative things. It's still surreal to me." I told him.

"What's surreal to you?" Thomas asks me as I took a breath.

"That I'm still unfathomably in love with someone after 3 years of not seeing each other and recently knowing that his reason before was a lie." I told him as I feel the cold breeze. Odd, cold breeze. I like it though.

"He did say he got scared." Thomas replies.

"Yeah well.. That doesn't change the fact that he made an irrational decision for the both of us. It wasn't just him and you know that. He made the choice of lying for the sake of keeping me away." I huffed. "It's not fair that he just did that."

Thomas nodded. "It is unfair but can't you talk this out or anything? Be friends of something because it's better than nothing you know. Start over. Have a fresh start with him. There's nothing wrong with that." He told me and I kept silent. "You can't bring the past back but why would you right?" He finished his speech and I hugged him.

"Thank you." Thomas laughed and hugged me too. "Thanks for everything you know."

"No problem. I did missed seeing you around." I released from the hug and grinned at him.

"I know! We have a lot of catching up to do so start!" I squealed at him and he laughed very loud but he started his story and I couldn't be more happy.

I had a talk with my sister last night and she annoys me. Kidding. She just told me things that she thinks is right and she's holding my studio up. She found a temporary replacement for me and a replacement for Percy. She got a girl and that's good enough for me. I already knew that I won't be around that studio anyway. I'm a traveling photographer and Simon always have someone for me all over the world.

I'm now walking to make amends and finally make a truce. I guess it really is time to talk it out and make the best of what fresh start can make for the both of us. I take in deep breaths. I might suddenly burst and run away again. I'm getting better at that thing and it's pretentiously nice at first but it's not.