Love is a Verb (Riley/Before You Exit)

Connor

Connor

My chapter ! Yay. Hi all.

I stared at my brother...

He seems so distracted.. I have never seen him so confused and distracted. She distracts him. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing but all I know right now is that he needs to focus cause we're having a concert soon.

I kept remembering the things I told Toby yesterday though. Boy, I was proud of what I said. Haha. On a serious note though, I do believe in what I said and I'm pretty confident in that too.. I don't know why but I just have this strong feeling about their relationship. I mean, their relationship went through a lot even before they were actually considered as boyfriend and girlfriend.

Okay, so .. You might be wondering why I don't have any girlfriend yet.. The last girlfriend that I had was Megan.. I swear.. It's not that I'm still in love or I can't move on. No, not like that.

I don't really know how to answer it. I don't want to grow old but I guess Riley is right, this whole celebrity thing took out my personal life. I chose this anyway even Toby doesn't have any girlfriend yet but the boy is young unlike me. I'm not Peter Pan and I keep growing old every minute, every hour. As much as I love Peter Pan, I am not him and I know that he is just a fictional character.

To be honest, I don't want to have a girlfriend that's in the biz. I guess I can but at the moment I don't want to... I want a girl that's simple and lives a totally normal life because I know her stories are in private and her life is a secret that me, when I see her, hopefully would want to know her and be one of those persons that'll share her story too. A bit selfish?

I know.

But we gotta be selfish once in a while, right?

And I do believe in patience. I believe that being patient will be worth. But maybe, I am hoping that it will come soon. Not when I have white hair.. I don't want it like that. I just don't really know where would I find her.

I decided to talk a walk around the place.. I am so not familiar around here but I think I'll manage and besides it's almost midnight. No one would bombard me here.. And now, I venture off to find if any Starbucks is still open.

So while I'm walking around.. I'll fill you all in with what happened to us three years ago....

Basically, after the One Direction tour we all started to get even more known and we immediately got to make our own headlining tour "The Dangerous Tour". We got to release singles and after that little start of tour.. We went to make another tour where not only in America but also in the other continents in the world. If it weren't for One Direction's tour , we wouldn't get this big in such a short period of time. So we would always say that we owe it all to the guys and of course, our fans. We wouldn't be here without their never ending support. We got to do covers and stuff. We made sure to go back to where we all started: doing covers and posting it on youtube. Then we also won as a breakout artist for the kids choice awards last year which is the first award we have ever experienced! I was so overwhelmed when we received it. One word: Happiness.

And now, we're having a merge tour with our good ol best friend Braiden. We have planned this for a year and a half cause we wanted the fans to decide what we should do for the next tour. We thought about it but we wanted to hear it from them too. We care deeply about what the fans want cause we want them to enjoy every second that they would be staying with the other crowd.

I found a nearby Starbucks and it's open. YES! I quickly went in and ordered the usual drink that I would always get back in Florida. I sat on a chair in there as I wait for my name to be called and I went on twitter and posted: