Love is a Verb (Riley/Before You Exit)

(Yes) Infinity and Beyond

Kaitlin

Do you know how peculiar I feel right now? Well, probably not because you aren't here but I'll tell you all anyway because I need to think something besides this feeling that I have now.

Well, it's very, very weird and awkward. Why? Well, for the past two days, Riley has been trying to make a move on me and trying to kiss me. In which I don't mind really but every time that he does something or someone will end up interrupting us thus making everything awkward. At first, it was okay with me, it amuses me but now, I don't know. Every single time. It's like they have rehearsed it but I know they didn't cause I know they won't do that but it's starting to annoy me a bit. It might seem weird for one girl to act all whiney over something as simple as a kiss. I know, I used to think of it as that but here I am. It's unexplainable really. When you've kissed someone then you'll know what I'm talking about.

Yes, I'm getting annoyed because I can't kiss Riley and hear me out before you lot judge me. Don't. It's been days, okay? If your were in my position, then you'd feel the same. Today, I've flown out of Florida to meet Percy. Yes, same Percy not Percy Jackson though: I wish, but he's the same guy that I fired because he's making it difficult to work on the same place. He works for Simon and Simon doesn't want us to mix our problems with our work so even though he doesn't work for me anymore, I can still work with him for he is an employee of his and that we don't need to be immature. Riley didn't like the idea of me being with Percy again and it resulted to us having a misunderstanding. I don't want to consider it as a fight but everyone in the airport knew it was a fight. A fight that I disliked but it still happened. I tried to stop it but he's just as stubborn as a cactus. He's prickly stubborn so therefore it resulted to that.

I can't just let him win over this. This is work and I can't just whine over it. I hate fighting with him but he is just being difficult right now and decided to start the fight minutes before I left. So yes, we haven't made up yet and it's eating me alive already but I'm standing against my ground. No matter how much I want to say sorry to him. Partly, I know it's my fault but I didn't know about this anyway. It just popped out and they've just released a music video with girls around him. I was there and I definitely saw the girls flirting and fawning over him but I understood that. The director of the video wanted that kind of concept with lots of people in the background but some of the girls kept batting their eyelashes on him and flipping their hair for him to see and it made me want to shave their heads off but of course, it was work for him. Odd, I'm fighting to him over it. We're not even together. Why am I even thinking like I'm an overly jealous girlfriend when I have no right to act like that at all. Why is falling for someone so difficult and exhausting? Lesson to learn: falling is the same for everybody but difficult when a lot of struggles is in the way, waiting to pounce on you anytime. It is not easy to fall for someone that everyone gushes over everyday and you can't really do anything about it because it's part of this whole thing and you just have to live with it. I just have to live with it.

Ah, screw this for now. I'm going to ignore this. I'm going to fix this later. I need to focus on work first. Work is important and I don't want to get fired.

"So, all you have to do is help each other with these shots since it will be a long day ahead of us." Christopher explained to me and Percy. Truthfully, I have no idea why he needed two photographers for this segment but he personally asked Simon that he wants me and would pay anything to clear up my schedule and I'm out of my focus right now. I forgot what he said at first and he sent a menacing glare at me and I just rolled my eyes mentally at him. If he wasn't paying me, I'm out of here. I'm out of my game right now. I need a new distraction. Awesome? Yeah, not so much. "We can have lunch first since we started late and our main model isn't here yet." He continues and ushers every model to go out of the studio, leaving me and Percy. Awkward. This is the first time that I could actually feel the awkward air surrounding me and him. It's very clear and uncomfortable.