Love is a Verb (Riley/Before You Exit)

Regrets

Kaitlin

By the time the tears were gone. I was exhausted. I probably look like a horrid stranger. I ran my hands through my hair and went back to the bus.. Only to see every single one of the lads staring at me. Connor ran to me.

"Where have you been?!" I didn't answer. "Do you realize that you've been MIA for the past 6 hours?!" I stayed in there that long?

"Sorry." My voice cracked.

"Where did you go?"

"Somewhere." I rubbed my eyes. I'm feeling quite dizzy.

"Fine." He muttered. "C'mon. Let's go eat."

"I don't want to." I walked past him before my vision went black.

Connor

I caught her in time.

"Kaitlin?!" I removed the hair on her face. She had been crying. This is not good. "Toby!"

"What happened?" Toby exclaimed.

"She fainted. I don't know why. Just carry her back to her bunk. Maybe she just lacks of sleep." Toby nodded as gently took Kaitlin in his arms. I stood up.

"Where you off too?"

"Where's Riley?" I asked him.

"He went for a walk." I nod and started walking away. I need to talk to that guy. He needs to explain.

Riley

Hey guys.

You probably hate me right now.

I hate me too.

I'm stupid.

I lack of sense.

I made her cry.

I told her I'm not sure when

I am sure.

I am in love with her.

But.....

She deserves better. I don't deserve her. I mean.. Just look at her. She understood me. She wasn't angry. Nothing. All she feels is pain. Nonetheless, she understood me. She waited for an explanation. That made me even more sure that I'm not good enough for her.

I love her. Believe me. She's everything that anyone would want. She is just magnificent while I'm a stupid man.

That girl she saw? That was really a fan and I can't bear to lie to her. I don't really know what happened that time. But I had to.. I had to.

I kept walking until I came across the beach. I sat down on the sand and just let my tears out. I am an idiot.

"Running away won't do you good." I lift my head up. Connor sat beside me. "I'm confused. You're crying yet you're the one that hurt her."

"I know that."

"Then why are you crying?"

"Because I'm stupid."

"Why?" I knew that it's for a different answer.

"I don't deserve her. Look at her! She's so different that it pains me to think that I can hurt her. I already did. I know but she's an almost perfect girl. And me? I would just hurt her. I love her. I really do. When she broke it off.. It tore me apart but what tore me up the most is that she's not angry at me even if I caused her pain. Instead, she understood me."

"She loves you. That's why. You're both lucky. Why would you ever think that you don't deserve her? What if you do? What part of "everybody deserves somebody" do you not get? Bro, she fainted today. She was crying so hard. She went MIA for 6 hours. I believe she didn't even noticed that because her appearance says it all. She was crying all that time. She was feeling worthless. She tried her best to understand you. She really did. You've made a huge mistake and I know that you know it. If you really love her. Prove it again. Just let her be first. She needs to release all that pain. She maybe a good actress to others but she can never fool me. She'll still talk to you. That's a fact. I know her. She won't hold anything against you." I tried to let everything that Connor told me sink in.