Floating Words, Floating Rhymes

HOW CAN I

I just wanna found myself sitting next to you while you're in a deep concentration on what you're doing. I just wanna found myself smiling as I watch you play the romantic music with all your heart singing with those rhythm. But how can I just do it all by myself? When all I could do is just lock myself on my dark library of feelings and sit right to those bookshelves.

When all I could ever do is to provide myself a shield. Shield to protect my heart from your seducing presence. I wish I could've just look directly into your tantalizing eyes for more than just eight seconds.  How can I do that? How can I spell those three forbidden words infront of you without hardly catching my frozen breath. Coz I am stuck here. I'm dying with these crazy atmosphere.

I just wanna found myself hugging you and keeping you to my warm embrace. As I dance with you under the moonlight, run with you in the meadow leaving those markable trace. Trace that is worth reminiscin' when all of our memories easily fade. And my heart's gonna skip a beat while I'm on your arms. Smiling from ear to ear while deeply falling for your charms.

But how can I do that silly things to you? How can I pronounce those magic words and starts to blow. I wonder if you're wondering why I'm acting like that when you're so near. When I'm with you I can't help but to bare. Bare with the truth that my heart will gonna explode. You're taking this easily but for me it's definitely uneasy. And just so you know, you're one of the cause why I am here staying late up night being lonely.

How can I stand up again and watch over you while singing those fancy yet broken melody. How can I ever dance with you again under the moonlight and at the setting dawn. Now all of your memories that I stored for a very long time has been shown but just easily blown.

Blown by the winds like dusts scattered through the air. Just like these warm liquids dashing through my eyes and became a single drop of tear. Now I can't even look you in the eye. I can't even look back and bid a simple goodbye. It's hard to step forward but I'll give it a try.

Because you're not even mine to begin with. I drank up the poison of sorrows and bleed. Bleed with blues and couldn't get up for what I am expecting to be. Now you're gone to my fading memory. I'm gonna say farewell and simple goodbye. But I believe in the magic of words first love never dies. Saying to my dear little heart please don't cry because of your first love. Just set him free like a flying white dove.

Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for the moments that caused my heart beat to stopped. Thank you for everything and thank you for those silly butterflies on my stomach. Thank you for being one of my thousand inspirations. I think it is now the ending of you being my 24/7 in a day and 11:11 wish in the evening.

But please before you say goodbye, give me one in a million reason. How can I move on in this world full of "just keep loving you and keep going on."?

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