Do You Miss Me? (Gerard Way x Reader)

We Want Action And Decision That We Can't Fake

I'm lying down.
A hand is wrapped tightly around mine, and I hear slow even breaths.
Footsteps come closer, "Mr Way? Mr Way."
"Huh?" I hear Gerard respond to what I can assume is a nurse.
"Visiting time is over, I'm afraid you'll have to leave." a hint of sadness is in their voice.
"Please, please let me stay with her. I can't leave her." He squeezes my hand tighter, and I feel his nails dig into my palm.
I wish I could tell him to stop.
"Okay, I'll allow you to stay overnight, but just this once."
"Oh my god, thank you so much." I feel his hand leave mine and think he gets up to hug the nurse.
I hear a door close and who I assume is Gerard grabs my hand.
"I'm not sure if you can hear me," I try desperately to open my eyes, but they won't budge, "they say you can, but I just want you to know, I love you, so much." I hear him choke back a sob, and my hear aches with pain. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you, but I promise to be with you through this. I'll stay with you, and I won't leave your side, and when you wake up, I'll be sitting right next to you, and I'll give you the biggest hug." He lightly chuckles and I feel him kiss my forehead.
Oh, how I wish what he said was true.
I wish this dream was real.
"I think I'm going to bring you flowers tomorrow, if you're okay with that." I practically hear him smiling. "I won't bring you roses, I know you hate them. 'They're too unoriginal and overused' you'd always say." He pauses, "I mean you always say. I'm sorry." I feel him lay down next to me, and he wraps his arms around my waist. "Oh god I miss you." He kisses my cheek.
"If you hear me, I hope you remember this when you wake up. I need you to know how sorry I am."

"Y/N?" I look over and see Frank, his hands occupied with a clipboard. "You're going home today, I brought some clothes over from home." He hands me some jeans and a oversized hoodie.
"Thank you." I take them to the bathroom and strip to my underwear.
I look in the mirror and realize I look like shit.
(me but everyday^)
I lean down over the sink and splash my face with water. When I look back up at the mirror, Gerard is standing behind my reflection.
I look behind me and he's not there.

When I look back at the mirror, he's gone.
I splash my face with cold water once again and change.
Walking out of the bathroom, I'm greeted with Frank.
"Shall we?" He smiles as we link arms and walk out of the hospital.

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"I'll crash on the couch for a few days, if that's okay with you." Frank looks down at his shoes.
"You know I'll be okay, right?" I say, rubbing my wrist.
"It's not just that, I just don't want to be alone. All that's left is Ray and you. I-" a single tear falls down his face.
"I'ts okay Frankie." I hug him and give him a friendly kiss on the cheek. "Now, since it's been god knows how long I've bathed, I'm going to go take a shower." I smile and leave a chuckling Frank in my living room.
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As I step into the shower, I sigh at how nice the warm water feels on my back.
I take the shampoo off the shelf and start to massage it through my greasy hair.
It's honestly kind of disgusting.
Memories of showering with Gerard come to mind, and I can't help but miss him.
I close my eyes and tilt my head back, letting the water wash out the soap suds from my hair.
As I open them, Gerard is standing in front of me.
He smiles, and starts to massage my scalp, making sure all the shampoo is out.
It all feels so real.
"You aren't real." I say it out loud, just to remind myself.
Gerard continues to smile, and leans closer to my ear.
The hairs on the back of my neck stand up, and a cold shiver runs through my entire body.

"Neither are you."

And with that, he's gone.