Do You Miss Me? (Gerard Way x Reader)

Every Heart I Left Behind That You Couldn't Break

I open my eyes and look at the ceiling above me.
How did I get here?
What happened?
I go to sit up but an intense pain strikes my head, causing me to stay down and bring my hand up to my head.
It's then that I hear quiet sobs coming from the room.
I look over and see Gerard, his eyes closed and his head resting on his hands.
"G-Gerard?" I sit up again, much slower this time, cradling my head.
He looks over at me, "How did you know?" he says, anger lacing his strong tone.
"Know what?" I begin to tremble, Gerard sounds angry.
Did I do something?
Gerard never gets angry at me.
"What you said yesterday, it happened, how did you know. WHAT DID YOU DO?" He slams his head on the desk, a muffled sob escapes his lips.
"I-I don't know what you're talking about. I can't remember anything. All I remember is darkness." I go to stand up, but feel my knees collapse and I fall.
Fall.
Falling.

The dream I forgot comes back to me, and I look down at the floor, and see a puddle of blood around Gerard's chair.
I blink and it's gone.
Gerard looks down at me, not even trying to help me up.
"Gerard? What did I do? Did I say something?" I gulp, what if I did do something? Was it that bad?

Is Gerard going to leave me?

"You said 'Mikey is gone,' and then, you past out. I carried you home and put you in bed, only to have a phone call about three hours later, telling me my baby brother is dead." He places his hand on his mouth. "Oh god, Y/N, Mikey is dead." He doesn't try to hide is crying anymore, he just lets the tears fall freely.
I come over to him and wrap my arms around him, placing my head on his shoulder and choking back tears.
How did I know?
"I'm sorry for yelling at you earlier." He mumbles, taking my hand in his and playing with my fingers.
I kiss his cheek, wiping away the tears.
"I, I need to be alone. I'm going on a walk, I'll be back soon, and I'll text you." He says, getting up and leaving me alone in our dark bedroom.
Soon after, I hear the front door shut.

"It's been a while." It stands by the door, smiling that sinister smile they have. 
"Leave me alone." I mumble, pushing past It.
I go downstairs, lying down on the couch, I'm quickly taken by sleep.


~~~~~~

I wake up hours later, my phone having multiple messages from Frank.

Frank:
Hey, Y/N is Gerard with you? He isn't replying to anything.

Sent: three hours ago

Frank:
Y/N, ARE YOU THERE?

Sent: three hours ago

Frank:
It's been a few hours, Gerard still hasn't replied.
Neither have you....
I hope you're okay.

Sent: five minutes ago

I quickly text back.

Y/N:
Hey Frank, sorry, I was napping.
Gerard said he was going for a walk, and said he'd text me.
I'll go see if he's here or if he sent me anything.

Message Read

Frank:
Okay, thank you.

I run around the house, looking for any signs of Gerard.
I find none.
I quickly check to see if he left any texts or called me.
Nothing.

Y/N:
Frank, he's not home and he hasn't texted or called me.

Message Read

Frank:
Fuck.

"It's because of you. He thinks it's your fault. It's all your fault. He doesn't love you. Why do you think he left? Why do you think he's ignoring you?" It  watches me, and for the first time in a while....
I give in.
"You're right. Why are you always right." I head towards the bathroom.
"There she is." It chuckles behind me.

;t;

I pull the razor out of its hiding spot.
I haven't used it in so long.
I glide it across my arm, making light cuts on my wrist.
"Deeper."They say.
"Deep enough to bleed out." It continues.
I glide the razor where my veins are most prominent, and blood starts to gush from the wounds.
The door flies open as I make a final cut.
A really, really deep cut.
"Y/N!" Gerard picks me up off the floor, laying my head in his lap.
I look down and notice I'm sitting in a pool of my own blood.
He grabs my wrist and I wince.
"Why, why would you-" he doesn't finish, he just fishes out his phone and calls an ambulance.
It appears over his shoulder.
"You're bleeding out. Finally after all these years, you'll be gone."

;t;

Gerard presses a gauze pad into my wrist, making me scream out in pain.
What have I done.
What the fuck have I done.
"I-I I'm," I try to push the words out, and I reach my hand up to stroke Gerard's face, leaving a tiny blood stain on his cheek, "I'm sorry."
"Shh, it's going to be okay. It's all going to be okay." Gerard hugs me, and moves us back and fourth.
I close my eyes and feel the heavy weight of sleep threatening to take me down.
"Y/N, Y/N no! Stay awake." Gerard slaps my cheek, and I open my eyes briefly.
"I love you, I'm sorry." I say and close my eyes again.

In the distance, I hear faint shouts.
"NO! Y/N. WAKE UP."

"Y/N please." a quiet sob comes from the speaker.

"Wake up."

A/N:
Heyyyy

:)))

I'm so sorry oml.
But Wait.

IF YOU HATE ME NOW, WAIT UNTIL THE NEXT FEW CHAPTERS.
MWUAHAHAHAHHA.
Might double update, don't know if anyone wants that thooo.
ALSO.
pls dont be a ghost reader, lemme know what you think of this story.

(also this chapter lowkey sucked wHoOps.)

ALSO.
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