Married To The Clown

Chapter Twenty Nine 'Broken'

Athena's POV
"Athena honey?" Mom called out stroking my hand lovingly.
"Yes mom?" I replied in monotone as I looked straight ahead, counting every indentation upon the wooden wall.
"What did the doctor say? I'm worried about you sweetheart, you're acting strange" she croaked sadly.
I could hear the concern in her voice but she didn't need to worry I was fine.
I was fine.
Was I fine?
"Oh it was nothing mom I'm fine. I guess everything that happened finally got to me, you know how it is hormones, yeah just hormones......" I lied sending her a fake smile.
"Athena ple......"
"Can I go home now?" I cut her off, softly pulling my hand away from hers.
"No honey the doctor wants to keep you in for a few days until he feels you are ready to go home" Mom cooed making me scoff.
"I'm fine" I gritted out throwing myself down on the bed and laying on my side, facing away from her.
Only then did I let the tears start once more.

I wasn't fine at all!
I was in pieces like shattered glass across the floor.
Nothing would ever make me whole again, it was impossible!
Everything I truly cared about was gone forever. I still had my family but I wasn't even sure if they were enough to keep me going. I was broken and no amount of tender, love and care could fix that.
What had I done to deserve this?
Was I so much of a bad person?
This was all Jokers fault!
That evil bastard caused all this misery and sadness.
I never wanted to see him again, not even if the sky was falling down!

"Athena baby don't cry!" My mom called out as she climbed onto the bed and wrapped her arms around me.
"Why is my life so horrible mom!" I exclaimed, choking on my tears.
"It will get better I promise darling" she whispered kissing my head, humming gently.
Closing my eyes I let out a shaky breath and focused on the tune.
After a while my whole body became heavy and her humming seemed so far away. I could hear everything for a few more moments before it all seemed to disappear.

"Athena"
"Come on wake up"
Groaning slightly I slowly opened my eyes, waking from my deep sleep.
"That's it honey" mom smiled.
"Why did you wake me?" I asked groggily, rubbing my stinging orbs.
"The police are here and wanting to speak to you. They need a statement so they can help catch the monsters who did this to you" she explained, her face twisting in anger.
"But I didn't call the police" I frowned in confusion.
"I did sweetheart" mom answered making my anger begin to bubble towards the surface.
"Why?! I didn't ask you to! I don't want to talk to them, please tell them to leave" I sighed shaking my head in disbelief.
"Athena you need to do this!" Mom urged grabbing my hand.
"I don't need to do anything! I want to be left alone!" I exclaimed pulling my arm away.
"Athena!" She grumbled.
"No mom get rid of them right now! I'm not going to speak, they're just wasting their time" I snapped bitterly.
"Ok honey I'll get rid of them" she sighed giving in to my request.

I knew she didn't understand why I wouldn't make a statement and in all honesty I didn't understand why I wouldn't either. Maybe I was just done with it all.
Right now I wanted to forget everything so maybe I could sleep at night for once. I didn't want to relive this nightmare over and over, I wanted to move on.
Could I move on?
It felt like I had nothing left.
I was completely destroyed.
Maybe the only way I would ever move on would be in another life.
I didn't belong here, not anymore!

"Mom, would you be able to get me some food while you're gone?" I asked as she stood up to go get rid of the police.
"Of course honey! What would you like?" She grinned.
"Anything would be great mom, I'm starving" I laughed slightly.
"Ok I'll be back soon" she smiled bending over to kiss my head.

"Hey mom!" I called out as she made her way to the door.
"Yes baby?"
"I'm sorry for everything! Please don't forget that I love you, I'll see you soon" I smiled blinking back the tears.
"I love you too honey, I'll be back in a few moments" she smiled back before walking out.