We're sitting on the couch watching The Office. We loved this show. His arm was behind my head gripping the top of the couch and I was leaning into him resting my head on his chest. I thought things would be weird after what happened between Grayson and me, but they weren't. We are still the same two people that we've always been.
I sit up to reach for my cup of water, I can feel Ethan starring at me. I let my eyes reach his and he doesn't look away. I give him a "what do you want" look and his face softens.
He pulls my hair away from my neck and outlines the hickey Grayson left me with his finger. I let him trace it a few times, and then he lets out a sigh. I cover it with my hand and give him a look showing him I was confused.
"I don't know it's just weird" he shrugs his shoulders but doesn't look away. Ethan has never looked at me this way. I can feel my body tense up, when he lowers my hand from my neck to glance at the mark again.
Well I take back what I said about us not being weird.
Ethan and I were never weird, we never had awkward moments. I have a huge lump in my throat already. "Ethan what happened last night.... I don't.. I-" I couldn't find the words but he cut me off before I could even finish "it's just weird Morgan. It's weird to see that on your neck. It's weird to know that MY brother gave you that. It's weird to think about you being with him in that way. It's weird that it wasn't with me" he stops, realizing what he just said and throws his head back squeezing his eyes shut. What. The. Actual. Fuck.
"What did you just say?" I stutter, still unsure of what I just heard. He doesn't say anything. I push him to get him to look at me and when he does I'm giving him a blank stare and can feel the tears forming in my eyes. I don't even know why I'm about to cry, that is just my initial reaction I guess. He wipes a small tear away from my cheek that I didn't even feel fall. He's looking at me and I can tell he's just as confused as I am. "You're scaring me Ethan. What is wrong?" I finally say. He opens his mouth to speak, and then Grayson comes walking in the door.
"Hey bro I'm hom- oh you're still here" he smiles while putting his keys down. My body perks up and I pull myself together. I look over to Ethan to see him just starring at the floor. Grayson makes his way over to the couch and sits between Ethan and I. He puts an arm around me, and looks down to see I'm in his underwear. He licks his lips and leans into me "damn you're killing me" he whispers. I just nudge him playfully. At any other moment this would shake me to my core. I would be ready to jump on top of him and let him have his way with me. But right now.. I feel nothing.
"I have to go" Ethan says while jumping up and grabbing his car keys. He slams the door behind him and I hear him drive off. Holy. Fucking. Shit.
