Authors Note: I SUGGEST YOU BITCHES PLAY THE MUSIC AND READ THIS SLOWLY TO REALLY GET THE FEELS
I'm sitting with my legs crossed, and he's in front of me with his legs off the side of the bed. It's not helping that my playlist is still playing slow and sensual songs. Damn you Sam Smith. He lifts his hand to rest it on my thigh. I clench my jaw at his touch and my heart feels like it's coming out of my chest. It's not like this is the first time he's touched me, but at the same time it is. He licks his lips and moves in closer. "Are you nervous?" He smirks at me. I just shake my head. He moves his hand to my shoulder and rubs it down my arm, while changing his position to hovering over me. His lips are now touching my neck but that's it. Is this bitch really trying to tease me right now? I close my eyes and swallow. "If you don't want me to then tell me" he whispers against my neck. To my surprise I said nothing. Instead i let out a small whine, and he took this as an invitation. He pushes me back with his weight, and I spread my legs to either side of him. At this moment we are just looking at each other. I don't think I've ever actually looked at him before. Yes, I knew he was good looking but damn I'm actually turned on. "What are we doing?" I say while shutting my eyes again, trying to pull myself together. He leans down letting his lips barely brush mine "you can still stop me" he says onto my lips. Once again I remain silent. I feel his hand grab my leg, lifting it to wrap it around his back. He slides his hand up my t-shirt gripping my back and pulling me into him, and then he does it. I am now kissing my best friend and not wanting to stop. I tangle my fingers in his hair and tug. His tongue is now making an entrance and I don't even try to fight for dominance, I just give in. He bites my neck and I feel his hot breath. My back arches and I remember "Grayson" I let out and push him away. "Grayson!" I say looking Ethan in the eye.
What have we done.
"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have done that" Ethan says for what seems like the third time. I still haven't said anything. "Please say something. I know I should've stopped the first time you said something. I'm sorry" I can see his mind racing.
"That's the thing Ethan, I didn't want you to stop" I finally confess. "You didn't?" He asks looking at me with loving eyes. "No I didn't! But that doesn't change what happened with Grayson! I wanted that too! I still want it! I want both! Why do I want both!" I yell while lying down in defeat covering my face with my hands. I was thinking out loud at this point, but I didn't care that he was hearing. He brings his body next to mine and pulls me into his chest, I feel a tear run down my cheek and the last thing I hear before I fall asleep is him whisper "we'll figure it out."
