Ethan and I didn't really talk much in gym, and I'm honestly relieved because I still don't know what I want to say to him. We are walking to English, and Ethan swings his arm around my neck pulling me in closer to him "you look really hot today, by the way" he says keeping his eyes in front of him. He's said things like this before, but since we've had sex I take them differently. "Thanks E" I reply, trying to hide my blush.
We are now in English, and we are working on our projects. Ethan has scooted his desk next to mine and we are silently working on our parts of the project. Well, I'm not really working because I'm trying to find the words to tell him how I feel. He knows me too well, and can tell that I'm internally spazzing. He nudges me with his arm and gives me a concerned look "are you okay?" He asks. I let out a deep breath and just let it all out "actually I've been thinking-" I pause to hesitate, and looks at me with his chocolate brown eyes signaling me to continue. "I think we should stop whatever this is before it gets too messy, I mean it's already messy. I really like Grayson, and I don't want to hurt him. I just think it's best so we don't complicate our friendship anymore, I love you so much and I couldn't imagine loosing you over this-" I'm babbling so he cuts me off "if that's what you want" he agrees and shrugs his shoulders. Well that was easy. A little too easy.
I turn to look at him, and I'm trying read what he's thinking but I can't. I see a smirk start to play on his lips. Why is he smiling? I was so worried about hurting his feelings and he's smiling? "Why are you smiling?" I ask and shove him playfully. "I just know you aren't calling Grayson daddy" I basically choke at his words and start to cough. I mean he wasn't wrong.
