Gaster AU x Reader ONESHOTS

Swap x Depressed! Self harming! Reader

You were wearing a sleeveless shirt and jeans as you took in a breath. You had a razor in your hand while your arms were covered with scars and other injuries. You did sneak a couple rolls of bandages, so cleaning up wasn't a big problem.

For the most part...

The bandages got more red every day. You started to push the razor into your skin and slice off pieces of skin until it started to bleed badly. Tears formed at the edge of your eyes as you did this. You were nothing. Useless. Worthy of nothing, not even death.

You heard distant foot steps before placing your razor away and wrapping your arms. By the time a knock came, you were done. "(Y/n)! Are you awake?" Swap asked happily. "Yeah. Just woke up." You half lied. "Great! I have breakfast ready!" Swap said, not catching the lie, before leaving.

You sighed and slid off your bed before slipping a (f/c) jacket on. You walked out with a tired look on your face. You entered the kitchen to only see Swap. "Where are the others?" You asked, not seeing the red blood on your finger tips, with confusion.

"Oh!~ They already ate!" Swap answered as he made French Toast. You nodded and sat at the table before tapping your finger tips against the table cloth. Swap turned with a large plate of French Toast when he saw blood spots on the table cloth.

"Um... (y..y/n)?"

"Yeah?"

You glanced down and flinched. 'F*ck. I forgot to wash the blood off.' You thought as Swap placed the plate down. "A..are you bleeding..?" Swap asked nervously. "I..I'm fine. Nothing serious." You replied as you avoided Swap's gaze. Swap perked before he huffed.

You were lying... badly.

"(Y/n)." You turned to see Swap looking serious, which was rare, as he sat down on a chair next to you. "You know how I dislike Fell's cursing, right?" Swap asked before you nodded.

"I dislike lying as well."

You jumped before giving Swap your full attention. "You don't want me to dislike you... right?" You looked away before Swap scooted his chair closer. "Hey. Don't take it like that. Just tell me what's wrong!" You were still silent. "I guess I'll have to get WingDing-" "Wait! Don't!" You blinked away small tears before taking in a breath.

"You... You cannot tell the others."

Swap frowned slightly. He hated promises. "You have to promise not to tell the others..." You said as you gripped your jacket sleeve. "Ok!~ I promise!" Swap said. 'Unless if it's serious. Sorry...' Swap continued in the back of his skull.

You softly sighed sadly.

You took off your jacket, showing Swap the red soaked bandages, before slowly unwrapping part of the bandage. "What..?" Swap gasped out. "Nobody would hurt me... So I did it. Something like me shouldn't exist..." You said before wrapping the bandage up and looking at Swap.

Swap had a sad smile before he thought of something. He read it in a book Zoey showed him. "You know," you looked at Swap as he smiled innocently, "nothing is perfect! That's why you're nothing!" You blushed bright red as Swap looked confused. 'I'm going to kill that fox...' You thought as you looked away.

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah. Can I have some of that French Toast?"