Through The Toughest Times

I'll Try Again Tomorrow

Gerard sat next to Frank"Gee , Mikey said you aren't doing anything today and I thought maybe we could hang" Frank giggled causing Gerard to laugh. I love his laugh." ya okay" Gerard suddenly found his fingers to be interesting. "You okay Gee?" Frank saw the light From his best friends eyes fade a little. 1 million thoughts ran through his head. "Uh...give me a minute?" Gerard felt sick again and ran to the bathroom and locked the door behind him. He made me laugh today...I haven't laughed in ages and that means something good happened,what am I saying frank doesnt enjoy my company he just here because he's bored and I'm what he decides  when no one else is around-okay I'll just be back by 8 tonight then, and do it after that. But I said if one thing- he was inturupted but a knock  "Gee... are you okay, let me in, please" Gerard started crying softly. Both side of his head were fighting and he couldn't handle it. "Gee it's okay I won't judge you, please let me in." Frank knocked slightly as he spoke. Gerard fell to the bathroom floor and looked at the trashcan. Do it. Do it now He couldn't stop the tears from falling. No don't do it. The voice in his head surprised Gerard. It wasn't his it was Frank's.     "Gerard Arthur Way open this fucking door before I kick it down" Frank meant every word, and Gerard knew it. Gerard stood up and opened the door with his head down as the short boy walked closer to him. Tears rolled down Gerards face and his eyes fixed on the floor. " Gee, why are you crying" Frank took Gerards hands. Then just pulled him into a hug frank hugged him tightly and gerard began to bawl as he weakly hugged him back. " I...I-uh planned to uhh." He choked on some tears and out his head next to Frank's neck. "Shh it's okay." Frank hugged him tighter. He knew exactly what Gerard was gonna say. A tear rolled down Frank's cheek. "You don't understand Frank, I told myself that if one good thing happened I wouldn't do it" he choked on tears again and went back to Frank's neck. Frank let another tear fall down his cheek but wiped it off with the hand that wasn't on Gerard back. "y-you made me laugh. Frankie I don't want to be here anymore. I don't wanna live anymore but you made me laugh. why did you make me laugh?" Frank pulled him to Gerard's bedroom and sat him down on the edge of the bed. Holding his hands. "Listen to me Gerard. Look at me." Frank lightly pulled Gerard's chin up, " Gee, I can't imagine life without you in it. We all have our problems. Listen to me. Nothing is worth taking your life over nothing is worth hurting yourself over." Another tear rolled down Frank's cheek, " you are not worthless and you don't deserve the cuts and bruises on your thighs and arms." Gerard started bawling harder than he ever has before. The tears blinded him.  "Can we get ice cream?" Frank giggled through his tears causing Gerard to laugh. His laugh is so infectious. "Hm, if you smile for me. Like really smile." Frank pushed Gerards shoulder. He was trying to be sweet. Gerard smiled sarcastically but then started laughing as soon as Frank muttered, "Rad." Gerard motioned Frank to sit next to him and he did. "Don't leave me" Gerard softly spoke as he put his head on Frank's shoulder. " never. But you should wash your face with some cold water so we can go." Gerard wiped his face with the back of his right hand. He smiled and headed to the bathroom. I'll try again tomorrow. For today... I'll just have to wait

I'm sorry this is kinda triggering, That's okay, it's not like this is based in a true story without a frank hahahahahshshahahdjfjrkgjr.  

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