Through The Toughest Times

Never Again

Told you he would leave. You can't convince one person to stay. Just as Gerard thought that  he heard a light knock on the door followed by a"Let me back in motherfuhker." Although Gerard was mad at Frank for reason he didn't know yet he smiled and jumped up to get it.He skipped down the hallway from his bedroom and walked past the small living room/kitchen, and opened the door.  It just hit Gerard right then and there. " FUck." Gerard started loud but it hurt so he whispered. frank knew exactly what just punched Gerard in the face and stomach ."Couldn't have killed you to drink some of the water I left out." Frank giggle as he walked, Don't smirk he cant know you like his laugh, there's no homo bro...a little homo- in and  closed the door behind him. He leaned on the counter of the island in the kitchen.       

" I just woke up asshole." Gerard grunted, " besides I need an aspirin or 5." Frank stiffened.

"No. you don't." Frank straightened up and sternly spoke his words. 

"yeah okay, ha." Gerard felt confused.

" I care about you Gee" Frank smiled sadly.

"Frank? what do you mean?" Gerard still wore a smile that would fade quickly.

"Gee im not stupid. You cant keep doing this." Frank sighed

" I can do what i want." Gerards whole mood shifted. he was sassy and ready to throw fists.

    " not if you can't do it responsibly" Frank walked closer to the taller man. he stood as tall as he could. " do not blame me for caring about my best friends health, you have to understand that you scare me and mikes, we worry. I worry." Gerard shrugged away tears and walked past frank head to the cabinets and then the fridge. What are you doing, hes trying to comfort you .  Gerard stopped for a split second. that was softer than the one he hears daily. it was Franks voice. Gerard woke from his trance and opened the fridge to find anything he could use to self medicate his depression gone. "Frank." Gerard's voice was scary.  almost murderous." Frank where did you put them." Frank had tears streaming down his face as he stood tall. other than the tears he was emotionless. All frank wanted to do was hug him, it killed him to see him breaking down for alcohol and drugs.

  Gerard walked over the cabinet Mikey used to put his pills. he hunched over while walking breathing heavily. Gerard was panicking his eyes were wide, again murderous and hungry not in a lust way in a bad scary way. as he opened the cabinet to find them gone he turned to Frank and swiftly made his way to the shorter man and got in his face. " fuck you. Just leave like everyone else already. stop wasting my time. " Gerard starred into Franks eyes the whole time. " You..don't mean that."  Frank still had tears running down his face, but what really hit him was Gerard's breath. it reeked of 5 dollar vodka. " But Frankie I do," Gerard was becoming scary," you can't help me, fucking bitch. I don't want to be helped. leave me alone." Gerard started screaming his words he backed down a little. 

"im gonna try," Frank wiped his nose, " you don't want to be alone , Gee you cant lie to me." 

" You should have let me slit my wrist last night, you should have let me drown in my blood!" Gerard pushed Frank  into the island. Frank pushed Gerard onto his ass and his eyes were full of anger and deep, deep sadness. 

" Listen to me, if you interrupt I will shut you up " Franks voice was down right scary. Gerard was actually scared for safety but looked up at him with anger filled eyes. Why are you even mad he is just trying to help . "I knew you were suicidal the day I met you. The first time I made you laugh I saw light reappear in your eyes, i love the light it brings so I swore to never let it fade again. I got caught up in  work and I forgot about your light. Two days ago it was completely gone  again so I came over, and your brother noticed too, he texted me to come over. I came just I time. Gee you were getting better, I left you to drown. I'm suppose to be the lifeguard ." 

Frank fell to the ground in front of Gerard." i'm sorry Gee," His head fell," it takes everything in me  not to give you what you want . It kills me to see that horrid look in your eyes" Tears wouldn't stop flowing out of Franks eyes. Look what you did Gerard.You made him cry, you broke him, fucking dick. Gerard went up closer to Frank " What have I done, what have I started " Gerard began to cry, two broken men crying on the hardwood floor. " guys-" Mikey questioned but was quickly interrupted " Go back to bed Mikes." Gerard said as he pulled himself into a ball. He cried and thought to himself about what he said.

After a few minuets of crying with Frank randomly he felt a pair of arms wrap around him. " I didn't mean it." Gerard could here his soft cries.

"I know" Frank giggled, causing Gerard to smile the he was over taken by a giggle as well. " Don't do it.please don't, I would join you if you ever did. I cant handle loosing my rock." Gerard looked up at Frank. 

"I wont, Never again."   

_____________________________________________

   Guys this was so hard to write. oy my emotions. And like I hope you know that that never is a fucking lie cause we all know that how I get my good chapters.  unedited so please comment mistakes. vote please. next chapter is gonna be a little lighter, and as soon as possible. thanks for reading loves. 

xo Kitten 

1015 words