This is based after the Season 12 SPN Finale
I'm sorry in advance I wrote this like the next day after the finale and UHHH
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Dean needed to clear his head even though he knew that even if he bulldozed every thought - the image of Cas's ocean eyes flashing into a blinding white would never budge. It replayed in repetitive madness. Dean thought everything was going to be okay when Cas came out of the fiery strip, but then all he could see was Cas's body falling down and revealing Lucifer's smug little smile.
It tore him apart, everything has gone so wrong. Eileen, Crowley, Mary, Cas -Gone.
Dean found himself in Illinois, he drove down that ancient dirt road, and when the barn came around from behind the trees he couldn't do it, he couldn't wait. He slammed on the breaks, flew the door open and slammed it behind him as he ran through the field of neglected grass to the greying barn that stood on its last legs.
Dean ran as fast as he could and soon his eyes were of no use to him as they blurred over with tears. He tripped on an unknown object within the tall grass and fell to his knees. He blinked the tears out of his eyes and let them roll down his cheeks and let himself scream in pain as he examined the old warding symbols on the dirtied windows. It's been almost a decade since he's step foot near this barn. As old memories flooded back in it only weighed down his heart and it felt like someone was stepping on his lungs. He could barely breath as he dragged himself to the front doors and swung them open just as Cas did on that windy night back in 08.
"God- er, Chuck! If you can hear me you bring him back you son of a bitch, you hear me?! You bring my angel back to me!" Dean sat there all night and near drank himself to death before another car pulled up behind the parked Impala. The sun was down and Sam got out of his stolen car and ran across the field and open the doors to find Dean lying in a fit of crying and screaming and cussing.
"Dean!" Sam called out to him and kneeled down in front of his grief stricken older brother.
"Sammy" Dean slurred as he wasn't that shocked to see his worried younger brother to come and get him. The only thing Dean was wondering about was how Sam knew he'd be here.
"I tracked your cell, Dean are you alright??" Sam asked as he took the beer bottle out of Dean's hand and stared into Dean's tear stained face. Dean was quiet and stared back.
"He's gone, Sammy" He whispered, his voice breaking into million of pieces of grief and and anger.
"I know, Dean, I know" Sam held his brothers face with his hands and watched his eyes crinkle once more and let him sob. Sam knew Dean needed to get it all out, he had it bottled up for days.
"He's really gone, h-his eyes. They're n-not blue anymore" Dean stammered and slurred his speech as his sadness faded into anger. Sam rubbed his hands on his knees as Dean's face hardened in anger.
"You son of a bitch you bring my angel home!" Dean screamed at the roof of the barn. Sam flinched at the sudden outburst and got Dean into his feet.
"Let's get you home" Sam said and grunted as he helped a wasted Dean Winchester out of the barn and into the back seat of the impala.
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Y'all hate me rn buuuuuut guess whaaaaaattt INVISIBLE!CAS PART 2 WILL BE HERR ON WEDNESDAY OR EARLIER!! #finally
~Effie
