My hearts become too cold to break .::ELY::.

New Beginning's and Final Chapters

Hold on to the thing that makes you happiest. Advice I've given a hundred times and never took it myself, until now. Eugene my best friend, my one source of happiness. I've come to terms with the fact that will never be anything more than friends, it's saddening but it's better to have him in my life than to not have him you know?  Because I am happier now, Eugene and I moved into together since I have this giant empty house, and he knows he's kind of the only thing keeping me going at this point.
     It's been months almost a year since that last mental breakdown, and it had only gotten worse from there before it got better, I tried to kill myself I went to a mental institution, got better meds, and Eugene was there through it all, but his feelings and attitude towards never changed, he was always there like he promised, he didn't leave, he stayed with me while I pieced myself back together. He's literally the best thing in my life right now and I'm so thankful that he is.

"Hey Beau, can I come in?" Eugene asks from my doorway I nod and walks in and sits in my bed,"so, you know you're my best friend right? And I love you more than anything right?" I nod and he continues," so it only made sense to tell you first. I started talking to someone, and they want to meet you because I told them about you"
"Okay, so? I have to meet all of your girlfriends now?" I ask he just smiles.
"You mean Boyfriend right?" He laughs.
"Oh shit it's a dude?" I ask, " is he cute?"
"He reminds me a lot of you, but yes he's cute," he rolls his eyes.
"Sick when do I get to meet him?" I ask
Eugene looks thoroughly relieved," tonight?"
"Sounds great! I'll make dinner!" I smile a genuine smile, excited that Eugene is finally letting me into an aspect of his life that I never knew about. He laughs and stands up as I do to follow me down the stairs to the kitchen.
"Is he allergic to anything?" I ask he shakes his head,"good! Are you ready for some bombass Midwest cuisine?"
"I've been waiting years for it" he laughs.

And it's nights like this that me glad I kept going, got help, and whatnot. Because no matter the situation you're in, it gets worse and then it gets better. Life is worth living, you're strong enough for this, just cling onto that one healthy thing that makes you happy.❤️