Outlaws

TWENTY NINE

"Okay" I replied back.

We got our orders and ate quietly without talking. I didn't know what to say so I stayed quiet. Eventually Changkyun looked at me and I cocked an eyebrow up.

"What's wrong?" I asked him.

"Last night you weren't at the dorm. Where were you if you didn't sleep in your room?" He asked me.

"I was at Jodan's. I had to let myself cool down" I said.

"Why not come to our room?" He asked me a bit irritated.

"I'm sorry for going to someones room that I trust! Why would I go there if Baekhyun was probably there and knew everything anyway?" I said raising my voice a bit.

"Maybe because I would have been there to actually keep you company! Why him anyways!" He said raising his voice a bit too. People in the cafe started turning their heads towards us.

"Why would you care anyways? He's my friend and I trust him. I'm just some annoying bitch you hang out with to pass time because your best friend is dating my best friend! You don't like me. You have pity for me!" I spat at him and he looked at me shocked.

"Rin..." He said but I cut him.

"Don't call my name. It's not like you care" I say quietly tearing up a little bit.

I put the money on the table to pay my meal and head out the door with everyone looking at me. At this point, I don't even care and I just leave to go near the stands where the basketball court is. I arrive there and see some people so I decide to go in the little forest like path that surrounds the basketball court so that no one finds me. I get there and sit on some rock and start to cry quietly. I really hate this. Why do I have to hide from everyone? It's not like they will notice me anyways. I really can't deal with all this. Everything is my fault. I ruined everyones lives...

*flashback to when Chaerin is little*

"Mommy. You aren't doing any better you know" I told my mom all worried.

"Silly child! That's nonsense! Your mom is as strong as a superhero but she hides her true strength inside" She says winking at me.

"Why not use it now? I think it would help you not look like this" I said to her while holding her hand.

"Some powers don't surface back when they are the most needed Chaerin. Your mommy is using some of her powers right now. It's all linked with you. Just know mommy is very strong and one day when you'll get older you will understand what I mean" she kisses my forehead and I hug her.

"I love you mommy! Even if your super powers don't come back and even if I won't understand them" I said to her and she smiled back at me.

*End of flashback*

"If only I understood what you meant about having super powers when you were with me" I said in tears.

I heard some russling in the bushes and I get up to see Changkyun comming my way after spotting me. I turn around and avoid his gaze because I can't look at him right now. His steps are getting closer and closer until they stop. I calm down and feel him turn me around holding me into a hug.

"What are you doing?! Let go of me!" I yell at him trying to get out of his grip but he holds onto me a bit tighter.

"Just stop. It's not true what you assumed a while ago. I don't hang out with you just because Hyo Rin is dating Baekhyun. I hang out with you willingly because I like you. Just stop please" He says finally letting go of me and I look at him tearing up again.

"You are such an idiot" I say hitting his chest crying.

"Why's that?" He asks me holding onto my wrists so I stop hitting him.

"Cause you keep making it harder" I say.

"Making what harder?" he said confused.

"For me to not like you more than just a friend" I mumble very lowly hopefully unaudible.

~Changkyun's pov~

I hear her mumble words I never thought Rin would ever mumble in her life. She likes me more than a friend! Am I supposed to tell her I feel the same or just awkwardly pretend like I never heard her say anything? I decided to do what had passed in my head from the start. I held her chin up to look at me and smiled at her slowly closing the gap between eachothers lips. I felt her freeze but eventually loosen up and kiss me back.

~Chaerin's pov~

One thing led to another, without really thinking I was back at Changkyun's dorm room not realizing the situation. Getting back to my senses, I stopped Changkyun in his tracks.

"What's wrong?" He asks me nervously.

"I uhh.... Don't you think this escalated way to quickly?" I say and get up in a sitting position.

"I mean, well, we both seemed like we really longed for eachother, but yeah I know what you mean" He says looking at me.

"I'm sorry. Everything is just way to fast. Plus I don't think being in a relationship right now is best" I say as I get up and just look at him and sigh.

"Why's that?" He asks me confused.

"Masked Halos have a pretty big mission comming up in two days, I'd rather concentrate on preparing for that first and then talk about this later. No exceptions" I truthfully tell him.

"I mean, if that's what you need to focus on first, well then work on that. We can talk about this situation after the mission" He says kissing my cheek.

"I should head back. It's getting late and I need to apologize to Hyo Rin" I tell him.