Chapter 8

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My eyes were puffy and red. I was beyond tired. So tired of the lack of sleep and just tired of everything. I had been crying like a dramatic teenager like the ones you see in the movies for the last two days. My phone had been going on like crazy but I had just turned it off and tossed it somewhere in the hotel room. Like I said, that was two days ago.

But now, I was done feeling sorry for myself. What happened, happened and Niall is a jerk. Not much I can do about that. I got up from the bed and walked over to the bathroom. I jumped in the shower and started to wash myself up. I then washed my hair with shampoo and conditioner before stepping out of the shower. I found some new clothes and then I put my wet hair up in a bun. I found my sunglasses and slide on a pair of white converse before walking out of the room.

When I walked out of the hotel and slid my sunglasses on. I was lucky that I didn't meet Calum in the lobby. Don't get me wrong, he's a really good friend but I don't want him to ask questions. It would just be better if he don't ask any because I don't want to talk about it. It's too early.

It's not like Niall and I broke up. we're just taking a break. But then again I said to him two years ago that if he ever did it again I would be done. Am I done? I don't know. Everything is so confusing. Every fucking thing.

Letting out a sigh, I walked over to my car and got in. I started the engine and then drove to a food shop. I wanted something other than hotel food. My mind flew back to the guys and the girls. Perrie, Zayn, Eleanor and Louis would be home by now. Danielle and Liam has probably told them everything that had happened the last few days. They probably knew it before anyways. It's really hard when everyone you know, knew it but you didn't. It makes me so embarrassed and it sets me in a light where it seems like I'm dumb.

I just parked my car outside a food shop and then got out. I walked trough the entrance, not taking my sunglasses off.

Niall's POV:

It's been two days. Two days where I haven't heard a thing from her. Is she fine? She's not fine, idiot I told myself. How did I fuck up so bad? Oh yeah, that's right. I am a fuck up.Danielle haven't heard a word from her. Neither had Liam. The guys and the girls had returned from their little holidays. They knew about all of this. They had known for a long time. But being the dick I am, I told them to not tell Lexie a thing about it. And they all promise they wouldn't.

I don't know where she is or what she's doing. Is she somewhere safe? I don't know. My mind is driving me insane. I deserve this though. What I did was wrong, so wrong and I know that. Liam walked into the room and I looked up at him from the couch. I had been sleeping on their guest room since Lexie left. Alison loved having me here but she haven't asked why I was staying here. Yet.

"Have you heard anything?" I asked with hope. Liam sighed and shook his head and I slumped back on the couch. "Her phone is still off." Liam mumbled as he disappeared into the kitchen. Alison came paddling into the living room with her stuffed bunny in her little hand. She walked up to me and climbed onto my lap.

"Ni?" She said.

"Yes, honey?" I answered while stroking her hair. She was so adorable. A good mix of Liam and Danielle.

"Where is LeLe?" She asked still focused on her stuffed bunny. Shit, the question came sooner than I expected. Thing for what to tell a 2 year old toddler I just came up with something.

"She's visiting a friend. She'll be back soon" I said trying to convince myself that it was the truth. Alison nodded her head and jumped off my lap and walked over to the floor and sat down, playing with her bunny. Would Lexie and I ever have kids? They would be cute though. I know that I want her to be the mother of my kids but at this point, I'm not 100% that Lexie want me to be the father of her kids.

I couldn't turn to drinking. That would only complicate things more than they already where. I couldn't do that. It would have a really bad influence on Alison and everyone around our family. I sighed and put my head in my hands.

Where the hell are you Lexie?

Lexie's POV:

I looked around the shelves for something to eat. There were a lot to chose from but I couldn't decide. That's a problem I have. I can never decide what I wanted to eat. My mind drifted off again and before I knew it I was back to thing about everything. Why couldn't I just shut it out for at least a few minutes? Just a few minutes where I could breathe and I wouldn't feel the pain aching in my chest.

I really wanted to go visit the bookshop but I knew that either Ashton or Liam was going to be here. I've already met Calum but he promised to keep his mouth shut so I really hope he keeps his words. Walking down a few shelves I found skittles and grabbed a bag. Then I bought coke and a magazine. I walked past a shelf but stopped when I looked at it. Tampons, pads and pregnancy tests laid on the shelves. And then something hit me;

My fucking period was fucking late.

(A/N: OOOHHH dramaa!! Haha;)

Sorry for updating so late. We've had this school project this week and I'm so tired. School is driving me insane. I just want to drop out of school. My future will be at McDonald's anyway... 5sos's EP comes out in Norway on Sunday and I am so excited!! And also Disconnected is one of my favourite songs ever. It so damn good.

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