I Think That You May Be The One (Book 1)

Everyone Has A Secret

*Gianna's Pov

We were sitting on the couch relaxing when James looked over and yelled, "yo Levine you bring us here to help now where's the food?" I laughed. "You know what James I don't have food, this was unplanned." He said holding me tighter. "Well order something" he yelled and we laughed. Oh James, I thought. I looked over at Ali sitting on the other couch staring at James on my couch. They were too cute, I pulled out my phone for the first time since we went swimming and saw about 10 notifications from Instagram. I opened it nervously and sorted through the messages, "hey I got one!" I shouted happily. They gathered around as I hit play again.  "Shit Gianna, you're a total badass!" Mickey said laughing. I laughed, "thanks Mickey." Adam face-timed Shawn and had him watch the video too. "See, it was self-defense" he said looking back at Shawn. "Get that to me, I need to do some damage control" Shawn sighed and hung up. Adam laughed, "well congrats baby, you've made it through your first media crisis with Shawn perfectly." He teased and kissed me.

We got a late dinner and relaxed watching movies for a while before the guys started going on about their kids and wives. "You coming James?" Mickey asked as he grabbed his keys to take PJ and Sam home. "Oh right" he said and got up, "you don't have to go James, we can bring you home tomorrow we were just gonna put in a scary movie" I said smiling. "No we weren't, I hate scary movies Gi" Adam said. "Yea I know Ad, I'm first and foremost a fangirl" I reminded him and kissed him softly. He laughed and shook his head kissing me, "yea I know, that's why I fell in love with you" he said. "Come on I think Ali was going to stay, why not" I said and Ali smirked figuring out what I was doing. "Yea come on James it'll be fun" she said smirking. "Yea okay I guess" he said, "see ya guys." Adam and I stretched out on the couch before James could sit back down forcing him onto the other couch with Ali. "Subtle much?" James asked hitting Adam's feet. I giggled, "oh come on, you'll be thanking me later! You both will!" I teased. Ali giggled and James sat down next to her leaving a respectable amount of space between them. Ali put on a scary movie and Adam held my hand the entire time. "You owe me" he said before jumping in fear. "I'm forever in your debt" I whispered and laid my head on his shoulder.

By the time the movie was over Ali and James were almost as close as Adam and me. I looked at the clock, 1:30. When did that happen? I was pretty sure we were just at the mall a few hours ago and it was lunch time. I twisted my face into a confused look. "I don't know about you three but I'm exhausted, I'm going to bed" I said and got up stretching and wincing. "I'll come with you" Adam smirked and picked me up bridle style. I winced a little as he carried me up the stairs and led me to what I assumed was his room when they recorded here. He sat me on the bed and dug through his draws and found a couple pairs of sweatpants, some shorts, and some t-shirts. He tossed me a shirt, "pants or shorts?" He asked holding one of each up. "Pants" I said and caught them as he threw them. He stripped down to his boxer briefs again, no shame, no fear, nothing. I bit my lip and headed to the door to change in the bathroom. "You know you can change here" he said. I nodded, "I'm just uncomfortable," I sighed softly, the embarrassment evident in my voice. "I won't look Gi, if that's what the problem is" he said sitting on the bed studying my face. "It's not that, it's that, well I still have my secrets and I'm afraid that if I tell you you'll run" I said glancing at him. "You told me you had surgery, you told me your boyfriend died and you hear his ghost, if I haven't run yet I don't think I will" he said. I look down and nodded, "I didn't tell you everything about the bullying" I started. He nodded, "okay" he said anticipating more. "I tried to kill myself...twice" I said. He was quiet like when I told him I hear Keith and could talk to him. "She will be loved just happened to play at the right time because it saved me both times," I said sitting next to him. "I don't like to talk about it and it scares me that I was that close to ending my life and a song came on and changed my life."

He was thinking, considering everything. "Gianna, I... I... I don't know what to say except I love you and I'm so glad maroon 5 was there for you" he said and got up hugging me, "I love you Gianna May Williams. I'm not sure what I can do to make you realize it, but I will make a promise here and now, I will not hurt you, I will always take care of you, and I will always love you" he said and cupped my face kissing me. "I love you too Adam, and I don't know what I want you to do to prove it to me. But I know that you make me feel beautiful and sexy but I just can't see it. I can't see beautiful and sexy so it's hard to feel it, all the pain through school makes it impossible" I said hugging him. "Then I have my work cut out for me don't I?" He said caressing my cheek. I tried to tell if he was kidding it not, he seemed serious. I nodded, "and so do I" I said. I have to work through this. I kissed him softly and pulled away turning my back. I pulled off my shirt and bit my lip. Adam didn't make a sound. I took a deep breath and reached behind to unhook my bra, but I was too stiff, "help me?" I asked softly. His lips grazed my neck as his fingers popped the hook and lingered on my back. My breath caught and he handed me a shirt before I dropped my bra. I slipped the shirt over my head and pushed my arms through and let my bra fall.

I turned back and looked at him wondering what was going through his head. I knew what was running through my head, but I don't know what thought was winning, do I trust him completely right off? Do I try to let loose and forget, so I can trust him completely? "What are you thinking?" I asked suddenly. "I'm thinking about how to get you to understand how I feel. I know enough about you that it should be easy but I have no idea what to do. I'm thinking about how much I love you, and how beautiful you are" he said. I looked at him, his eyes looked hazel now, not the bright green from earlier. "What are you thinking?" He asked. "I'm thinking I can't trust that you love me completely or think I'm beautiful so I have to let loose, and throw out everything I've known" I said. He stared and nodded not commenting just understanding. I touched his cheek lightly and kissed him forgetting about everything. He slipped his hands under the shirt and rested them on my hips. I kissed him harder my arms around his neck. "Gi?" He asked pulling away some. "Yea?" I asked. "You don't have to do this" he said. I looked up at him and nodded, why couldn't I figure this all out? He kissed me and pulled me to the bed, "just because we are sleeping in the same bed, doesn't mean we have to sleep together" he said and laid down next to me. I laid on my back looking up at him. He was leaning on his side next to me, his hand on my stomach. "How long are you willing to wait though, from what I gather it's been a while for you" I said laying my hand on top of his. "You're right, it has been a while, and actually this is the longest I've gone in a long time" he said looking at me intently. "But it doesn't matter, I'll wait forever for you Gianna. I know it seems like a lie but I mean it, I want it to be special and I want you to want it. I'm not going to force you, when you're ready I'll be waiting" he said. I nodded and kissed him.

"So uh, on an unrelated note, you're going on tour soon" I said trying to change the subject so I could buy some time to think. "Yea, I can't wait to start the overexposed tour, we have a lot planned." I smiled, he seemed so relaxed and happy. "I'll have to make sure I close early one night so I can go see you" I said staring at him. "What you're not going to come with us?" I shook my head, "I thought you were kidding that day in the hospital" I said as I replayed the night in my head. "I was very serious" he said. "Nah, I'm gonna stay here and work, I'll go to the LA area shows but that's it" I said. "Not even the Boston one?" He asked with puppy dog eyes. "Hmm maybe that one, I miss my family" I said and realized I wasn't just saying that I really did miss them. "How about we spend thanksgiving with them?" He offered. "Won't your mom be mad?" I asked. He shook his head, "not as long as I'm home for Hanukkah my mom won't care" he said shrugging. "Okay, would you mind if I flew my parents out for Christmas, my mom’s been dying to see my house" I asked, "okay" he said and kissed me. I smiled, our holidays were planned out that meant he was serious, in this for the long haul. "Gi?" He asked. "Yea" I said lacing my fingers with his. "We should go on a date, a real date" he said. "One where I can really show you off" he said smirking. "Mmm, okay" I said and yawned. "Goodnight my love" he said and kissed me. I kissed him back and drifted to sleep.