Never Say Goodbye (Sequel To NSN. Twilight Fanfic)

Chap Twentyone

BPOV

One Month Later

Charley was cradled in my arms, being lulled to sleep by the porch swing. She was only a month old but with her accelerated growth she looked four months old. Ezra was following along just as quickly.

The door opened and Edward stepped out with Ezra in his arms. He sat down and we began to swing  again. We didn't say anything because words weren't needed. The moment was perfect. The silence let my mind slip into past memories.

Randy and Robin left a week prior. Being around so many vampires made them uneasy despite knowing the Cullen's wouldn't hurt them. It was time for them to move on no matter how much I would miss them.

They were planning on starting their own community of Shifters. To see if anyone survived from the previous camp. It wouldn't be easy but their determination was the key. We promised to stay in touch.

Just before Robin got into the car, Randy at the wheel, she pulled out a Polaroid picture.

"I managed to pack it in all the chaos before we ran." She said as she handed it to me.

I turned it over and my heart lurched in my chest. Rashed and I in his living room. It seemed like only yesterday I was there, curled against his side, his arm thrown over my shoulders to pull me closer. My eyes were closed but my smile said everything.

My life was supposed to play out with Rashed by my side and lots of children running around us. Life had different plans and didn't give a damn about what I wanted.

I sleeper the photo into my pocket, wiped my eyes, and hugged Robin until she couldn't breathe.

Back in the house I put the picture on my mirror where I would see it everyday. When Edward saw it he asked who he was.

"Someone I will never talk to you about." My tone was neutral but didn't invite the questions he wanted to ask. Rashed was gone and I accepted that, didn't mean I wanted to talk to anyone about him.

Ezra crying lifted the tension in the room. Exactly a week after the twins were born did they start acting strangely. No matter how hard I tried to breastfeed them they wouldn't latch on. Edward and I tried everything but nothing seemed to interest them. Carlisle and Esme were called.

"Are they sick?" I asked Carlisle, fear clear in my voice. "They don't want to eat."

"Well. . .their half Shifter and half vampire. Do you think-" He trailed off.

"Blood?" Edward said, looking at the children, Carlisle, Esme, and then me in quick succession. "The only way we'll know is if we try. Wet their lips with it so to speak."

He wanted to give our children blood? I was starting to feel overwhelmed so I left the room. My entire being rebelled against leaving them crying out for me but if this worked then I would accept it.

Randy and Robin sat with me in the living room, holding my hands while keeping me anchored. It felt like years had passed but in reality it was only a few minutes before my children stopped crying out. The sudden silence startled me a little. Were they okay?

Cautiously I made my way up to their nursery. Edward was cradling Charley as he gently rocked her, a translucent bottle with dark liquid in it at her mouth. Ezra was sucking on another bottle that Carlisle was holding.

A memory tugged at me from my time with Rashed.

My lunge was powerful, as well as my teeth snapping the doe's neck. Warm blood coated my muzzle and paws as I ripped into the body. This is what I had been craving!

I felt more than saw the others join me. Looking up I saw Rashed standing a few feet from me. He joined me when I nudged the carcass toward him. His warm body settled close to mine and with a sharp crack his jaw broke one of the doe's bones, loosening a hind leg free to naw on.

At that time I relished in the taste of blood but now it repulsed me. Maybe if they were drinking animal blood I would think differently but this was human blood.

If I wasn't careful I would develop a craving for human and then I would be just as bad as the people we ran from. How would this affect my children? This confirmed that they were half vampire. Would their vampire natures interfere with their Shifter side? Will they be able to Shift at all?

Natural Shifters changed when they were older and their hormones triggered a release of emotion. Same with the La Push wolves.

Ezra and Charley didn't have a speck of human in them. They were one of a kind. I knew they would be different, but how different?

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Sorry I haven't updated in a long while. I do plan on finishing this book soon. One more chapter and we'll say goodbye to our characters.

Yours S.A