my mother and father fell out of love. it took seventeen years for them to rot. it was slow. it snuck up on them through extra sips of beer at dinner and spaces between them in bed. it was quiet, it whispered in their ears and snuck into their heads and hid between busy thoughts, they barely noticed but it chipped away at them until they crumbled into empty shells that couldn't stand to look at each other. they kissed each other sometimes, but never at the right times, never like they meant it. the water rises slowly and silently and wraps itself around you in the form of routine and you're completely submerged until you look at yourself in the mirror one day and you're dripping wet and you can't breathe at all but you're used to holding your breath by now. it didn't hurt. at the end of it they were fine. they were ghosts. i don't know if they could even feel it. it wasn't this killer, movie-scene, hollywood heartbreak, just a dull ache that could be drowned out if you just pretend it isn't there. so when you were mine in the morning and a fucking hole in my chest three hours later it swallowed me whole. i didn't know it could happen so quickly, a lightning bolt of heartbreak, there was no thunder to warn us. one second i was yours and the next i was on the floor and i could smell my skin burning.
i thought we had more time. i wanted to rot with you.
YOU ARE READING
forget.
PoetryThere is mention of depression, suicide and self harm in certain chapters in this book; if that bothers you in any way, please don't read. if you choose to, however, be warned. ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~
