forget.

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get over him. he's not even worth it. he's not worth your time or your tears. yeah you loved him, i know that. and i know you just can't see yourself with anyone other than him, i get that.  i've been there. but why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he's with. do you honestly think he's sitting alone, thinking about you? no. sure it hurts, the fact that he's out there falling in and out of love with other girls. your gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. prepare yourself, cause straight up; it's gonna hurt. he will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you're watching. he knows it's killing you; that's why he'll do it. don't let him get to you because that, well that's exactly what he wants. don't give him what he wants. he doesn't even deserve it. so what if he doesn't talk to you? do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyways? thing is i know you still do. but give it time. because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? no. screw him and his girlfriend. he will be sorry. trust me. when he finally sees you with some other guys who's not him. with that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. and how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. he'll realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. when he decided he just didn't love you the same. trust me, he'll be sorry. and don't you sit there thinking he won't be sorry. but i guarantee you now; he will be sorry. so don't go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you're never going to get. or that IM you know he'll never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. he likes to pretend he doesn't see you in the hallways, he's gonna look past you. but you need to know he'll do that cause he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. i'm not gonna lie to you. it will hurt. it'll hurt a lot. but it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. it's all gonna hurt. knowing your not the girl that's making him smile. knowing you're  not the first person he know of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. knowing you're not the face on his background of his phone anymore. he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his phone. knowing you won't be spending every single moment possible with him. knowing there's not gonna be any more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. and you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now: your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping it's him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. but trust me; he's got too much pride. even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn't tell you. you're soon gonna realize he doesn't care about you anymore and he won't be the first person you call when you're upset. he won't be the one to put that smile back on your face. and yeah it's gonna hurt; it's gonna hurt a lot. but you know what you're gonna do? you're gonna hold your head up. you're gonna show him you're better than him and you don't need him in your life. you're gonna prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting you go and that you never really needed him anyways.