Blinded (z.h)

f o u r t e e n

I woke up staring at a white ceiling, confused as to where I was. It was when I saw a picture of Niall and Harry on the nightstand that I realized that I was in Niall's room, also remembering what happened last night. I smiled to myself and turned around to kiss Niall, but when I looked, he wasn't there.

I hastily sat up in unease. "Niall?" I called. "Niall!"

He came into the room with a bunch of his stuff from the living room. I noticed a suitcase on the floor and realized what he was doing.

"Where are you going, Niall?" I asked in a worried tone.

He sighed as he crouched down to the suitcase and put the stuff in his hands into it. "I'm really sorry, Zayn, but I can't. I can't live with you after what we did last night."

My heart dropped in my chest when I heard those words as a look of disbelief appeared on my face. "What are you saying?"

"I'm saying that I'm leaving you and moving in with Harry, Zayn."

"You can't just do that."

"I have to, Zayn. It's better for the both of us that it be this way." He grabbed his suitcase from off the floor and put his hand out for me to shake. "I'll catch you around, mate."

"No!" I yelled as I slapped his hand away. "You can't just leave me like this! Not after I loved you with every inch of my body!"

"What do you mean, Zayn?"

"I'm confessing my love for you! The unconditional love that's been growing since the day I met you! The love that you completely ignored so you could be with Harry! That love!"

His eyes widened in shock. "Zayn, I had no idea—"

"Well, now you do, and now you can't leave me!"

"Look, Zayn, I'm really sorry that I never acknowledged your love for me, but it's too late for all this now. I love someone else, and he loves me, too. I don't know if we can live together after knowing all that."

"Fine!" I cried. "Leave me! I don't care about you anymore and I never will!"

"Zayn, please don't be upset—"

"Don't tell me to not be upset when you're the one who put me in the position of being upset! You have no right to tell me to not be upset!"

"I was just trying to—"

"I don't care what you were trying to do! Just leave my home, you dickbag!"

Tears began to well up in Niall's eyes as his whole face turned pink. "Please don't do this to me. I didn't mean for this to happen. I didn't want to end our friendship, I just didn't think it would be appropriate for us to live together after what happened."

"That doesn't matter!" I shouted at his face. "Just get out of my fucking face! Get out!"

He picked up his suitcase and shuffled out of the room in fear, looking back at me with teary eyes. Once I was sure he was gone, I took the photo of Niall and Harry and threw it to the ground, smashing it onto the floorboards.

"I never want to see you again!" I screamed at the picture of Niall. "You ruined my life! I wish I had never met you! I fucking hate you!"

I threw my head into the sheets and cried through the day and the night, knowing that I'd never love someone the way I loved Niall again.