Is There Hope

Chapter 18 The visit

IN THE DREAM
"Hail, remember....remember....our last words?" Said, my father
"Remember." said my mother.

Flash of light
My mother and father at gunpoint, my father looks up at me and puts his figure to his lip showing me to be quiet,  in a fashion so the bad men don't see. My mother looks at me too they both smile in a away that says everything will be ok.

Click!

BANG!
But father is not dead the bullet goes through his chest, he is still breathing... I remember this...

IN REALITY
I awake. Why... why I don't want to remember that I deserve to have the nightmares. But still, why of all times am I remembering this now? I sit in my bed and ponder this for a while. I slowly get out of the bed, still thinking, I get dressed, brush my hair and teeth. I then open my door and make my way downstairs where everyone was sitting my new mom and my father was there as well.
"Hay sis, you sure slept long," Said Tyree.
"Well, of course, she would she just got hurt yesterday!" Said Fate rudely to Tyree.
He never changes does he, good I wouldn't want him to or any of them for that matter. I can see the sadness in their eyes and I know why.... Jack called me yesterday before I went to bed he told me that he confessed to everyone about how I might not live to see my next birthday. Their all trying so hard to hide it and make my wishes stay true.
"You guys can stop I know Jack told you about my illness..." I said sadly
Everyone quit smiling and stared at me. Next thing I new Tyree was crying.
"I don't want sissy to die!" Tyree Said as he ran to me and wrapped his arms around me tightly. I gently pat his head to try and soothe him.
"Hay, it's fine, everything will be fine," I said the truth is I don't mind dying I see it as a way of being with my mother and father.
"No, it's not fine!!! You act like you don't even care if you die!!!" Yukio yelled at me.
I don't know how to reply to his comment because it's true, so I just look down without saying anything because there is nothing to say about the matter.
"You don't care do you." Said Shane sadly
"I don't know," is all that comes out of my mouth.
Everyone just stared at me with sadness and anger. I just kept my head down.
"Hail, come with us we want to take you somewhere." My Father Said gently. Apollo took my hand, pulled me along to the car, the others got in, and off we went to who knows where.

IN THE CAR
I looked around at everyone but no one would look at me they all still have that same sad, anger look. Maybe I should have just said no and lied but it was how I felt. I put my headphones on and turned my gaze to the window and watch as the scenery pass by.
Everyone looked at Hailee but she didn't know she was to busy listening to music and looking outside the window.
"I can't believe this!" Said Fate "How can she be OK with this!" He yelled but in a way so Hailee couldn't hear him.
"Fate calm down, If you guys would stop being angry and pitiful for and at Hailee then you would understand why she doesn't care either way." Said, mother
Everyone one just said nothing they only stared at one another then back at Hailee. Hailee was sitting with her hand pressed against her cheek, you could hear the soft melody coming from her headphones, as she stared gently out the window.
"Were here!" Yelled father.
"Hailee were here," Tyree said gently to Hailee while he taped her.
However, She didn't move a muscle.
Why.... why here this is where they're bared I know this because this is the Conklin cemetery and because I was the one who bared them...
"No," I say "No."
"Hailee it will do you some good." Said, my father
"Come on Hailee," Dirk said encouraging me.
"You really think this will help me.... because it won't how do u think they got here," I said "the morgue was going to turn the bodies to ashes unless someone bared them and me being the last Conklin... I bared them..."
My father said nothing he just stared at me with big eyes so did everyone else except one person.
"Hailee I know it's been hard, I know you just want all your pain to just vanish but do you really think this is the way, to forget everything and everyone who loved you?" Said, mother
"It's all I know how to do." I simply replied.
"Well, why not try another way, starting here." Mother said while pointing to the graveyard gate.
I said nothing at that point I simply got out of the car and slowly made my way to the gate. I looked up in big letters read Conklin I looked back at the door. There was a lock the hole shaped like an infinity sign, the necklace I always where is the key it is diamond studded with a silver chain keeping it around my neck. I take off the necklace and I slowly move it towards the keyhole but find myself stopping a few inches away from the hole.
Everyone stared at me.
"Its OK Hailee were here for you." Said Apollo.
With that said I placed the key in the hole.

Click
I pushed the door open slowly.
Creek!
The door made a loud sound as it opens. Finally, the door was completely open. I slowly steeped through the gate and made my way past thousands of headstones I looked over as I pasted them
Rip
Here lies Jacob Conklin
Here lies Anny Conklin
Here lies Philip Conklin
Here lies Dan Conklin
Here lies Jenna Conklin
Here li-
I stopped.
Rip
Here lies Ted Conklin
Loving husband to Lily Conklin  and Father To Hailee Conklin
And right next to him.
Rip
Here lies Lily Conklin
Loving wife To Ted Conklin and Mother To Hailee Conklin

They were right where I left them under a beautiful maple tree. I said nothing only stood there looking down on their graves. I slowly crouched down so that I was level with their headstones. I gently placed a hand on my mother's headstone and then my fathers. Next thing I knew tires started to dribble​ down my cheeks.
"Hail..." said Subaru.
Nate crouched down beside me and rubbed my back gently "It's ok to let it all out."
And I did I cried and cried and cried some more I couldn't stop for once in my life the tiers wouldn't stop flowing no matter how much I wiped them away. I felt like a child again, like the day I bared them, except back then there were no tears just a lost child, that's the day the old me died alongside them, the day all the fun was gone. I gently pulled out an old photo from my back pocket, it was the last family photo of the Conklin family. There was my mother, father, my grandma, grandpa, as well as Leo our family dog.
"That night.... replays in my head over and over," I said tears still flowing "but not the same way it happened. It replays in the words they should have said to me, in the way it should have happened. While they were laying on the ground, a bullet in each they only said nice, kind things to me. They should have said I was a coward for hiding under that couch  a disappointment for not even trying to help, and yet they didn't..... why?"
"Because they love you." Said Mitchell bluntly
I said nothing, I pulled my legs closer and raped my arms around myself.
"Do you need a hug?" Ash asked
As much as I despised people feeling pity upon me, I nod in reply to his question. Ash crouches down beside me and Nate and hugged me gently.
"I know we can't just make you forget like nothing ever happened, and that we can't take all the pain away Hailee, but just remember we are all here for you so never forget that," said Subaru in a comforting manner.

After a few hours of sitting in silence, I spoke up.
"Am ready to go now," I said in a shaky voice.
"Ok everyone back in the car," Father said. Everyone hoped in after me and we headed home.

IN THE CAR
It was awkward no one said anything to one another, they act as though someone just died. ha, I laugh weakly in my head. I put my headphones back on and stare out the window​ again. Mom, Dad are you watching me? I don't know what to do anymore should I live or die? If I die I will be with you forever, however; I won't be with them anymore and I love them, especially him. I slowly look over at him but in a way, he doesn't notice am staring then I look back at the window​. I want to tell him how I feel before I die but maybe ill live oh I don't know any more Mom, Dad if you're watching me help me make the right decision or is that my destiny to face it alone or IS THERE HOPE.
"Hay, Hailee?" someone said I turned my head to see who.
"Yes?" I said taking off my headphones. 

"Please fight if not for yourself for us," Nate said

I thought for a moment. I don't care about myself however, they do and I don't want to let them down! I say with a smile.

.......

"ok."