I just wanted to say goodbye. I hope you can forgive me.
for leaving, that is.
of course, I'm not sure you'll even notice I'm gone. you always seemed kind of-
lost in your own head.
but if you happen to take a look around and notice I'm not here anymore, this is for that time.
I know you'll get along just fine without me, I'm not worried about that. I just didn't want you to wonder.
I don't really have a reason, or an explanation. I'm just tired. I need to see something new, maybe nothing at all. just, not this.
I know you probably can't understand why I'm doing this, maybe you can't even comprehend the fact that I'm going, but I hope you can accept my decision, and not try to come after me.
it might be impossible to find me, and I don't want you to try.
I weighed my decision, thought about it for years, and I've come to terms with what I'm doing. and yes, before you ask, before you question, I've thought about it all.
leaving this place, the only place I've ever known, and leaving you, the only person who really knew me, all for something that could end up being worse. I know it may sound crazy, I mean, my life here probably isn't even that bad, but I need this more than you'll ever know.
I need you to let me have it. I need you to be okay with what I'm doing, so we can be on the same page.
that's all I have to say, really.
just-
goodbye, and please don't hate me, or resent me, or curse my name. I could never hate you, no matter how far away I am.
goodbye, for real this time.
we'll probably never see each other again.
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