Love In The Woods ✔

Chapter 26

Chapter 2

DULCIS

Good morning, innocent," he greeted. I frowned.

He treated me like the old me-- the innocent side of me. I can't even picture out my old me. Darke loves me. Darke... has been secretly loving me. I feel awful because I can't reciprocate his feelings for me. I may love him but that will not cross the lines. I got a limited edition of feelings such as my attachment to... Jean Tovin. One thing I knew from the very start is that I love him. I love Jean Tovin.

"Good morning," I softly replied.

"How's your night?"

I'm actually okay. I slept on one of the guestrooms here in their house. He confessed. He wanted to kiss me but I'm not letting him to.

"Hey, innocent."

It's twelve noon and I think my sleep is enough. I blushed when I realized he's naked seminude. His chest is so tight, muscly and big.

"Dulcis, what's running in you mind?" He sounded really worried. There is also a hint of anger in his voice.

"Wala," I answered, rolling onto my back.

"You're stressed."

"No."

"You might be sick then?"

I missed Jean Tovin and Darke as well. I want to cry because he didn't show up unlike Darke. "Wala, Darke. I am so much okay."

"Really? Do you want to go out? Do you miss your mother and father?"

"They'll understand me. Yes, I missed them but I've missed you a lot and I want to spend time with you, Darke."

"So where's that guy?"

"He's gone I guess..." But I saw Alkynes last night. She even approached me and asked how's my life going. Of course I told her the truth that I miss her brother to the bones.

"Pinaasa ka niya?!" he yelled.

Niyugyog pa niya ako. "I don't know. He told me many times that he loves me. I believed him... I love him."

I'm crying. Akala ko ako lang ang humahagulgol. He's also crying. He is staring at me, intensely sad. His eyes went dark but still sorrowful. I pitied him even I should be the one pitied here. I felt really sorry for him because I don't love him back the way I love Jean Tovin.

"Darke... I am really sorry..."

"Fuck."

"Darke, please... I want to be happy with you so I ran away with you here. We're cool right?"

Using my thumb, I stroked the tears on his cheeks. It was hurting seeing him like this. He had done his best for me yet I fell for another man I just met in the woods. I want to kiss his pain away but I think I am not in the place to do that.

"I'm happy, look." I cracked a fake smile. It's a miracle I can still smile.

Bigla na lang siyang tumayo at hinilamos ang mukha gamit ang palad niya. Geez I owe him a lot yet I am hurting him like this. After while, he faced me with his red face. "Ayos lang ako. It's my fault anyway. I shouldn't have... left you alone in the woods. I should've placed you to a safer place. Sana kina mom at dad ka na lang..."

I gulped. May naalala ako. About... the ulfric philandering Tita Claire before. I think Darke does not know the history. I want to open that topic but I know he's suffering from a heartache. Ayokong dagdagan pa.

"I shouldn't have gone to U.S.!"

I rose to my feet and reached him. I hugged him tight on his waist. His systems are obviously weak. He didn't respond to my hug. His hands are shaking. I blame myself for this. Kung hindi ko lang in-entertain si Jean Tovin noon, I won't fall hard, deeply and passionately.

"Sino yang JT na yan?! I want to punch him for hurting you, Dulcis!"

I pushed him so I can see his expression. I should tell him the truth. Now. I am hurt anyway. He is, too. "Jean Tovin Harshbarger... I fell for him."

He froze. He didn't blink. He just stared at me until he suddenly punched the wall and it definitely cracked. Boy, he's mad. Using his other clenched fist, he punched the near surface again.

"Siya?!"

I shut my eyes close because of his angry eyes that shot me to a state of shock.

"Siya?! Kailan pa?!"

My eyes widened when I felt the nausea. Tumakbo agad ako papunta sa banyo para magsuka roon sa toilet bowl. I'm pregnant. I'm not sure but I think there is a life inside my womb. He caressed my back as I continued vomitting.

"Hindi naman tayo uminom kagabi... I have this strange feeling pero ayokong... ayokong i-open up. Ayoko. But you really look sick but..."

"I guess your suspicion is right, Darke. And... I am truly sorry."

There's another formal gathering in the next night. Santilices Family isn't around tho. Ako lang talaga. Hindi na rin ako magtataka. I wish to see Jean Tovin though.

"I want to punch him, Dulcis."

I caressed my tummy before smiling. "Don't overreact--"

"Dulcis! He got you pregnant!" he whispered, eyes burning.

"I'm fine. Mas maganda kung ganito lang."

"You shouldn't be here. Baka bigla ka niyang kunin o kaya--"

"No, Darke. Trust him. Trust me."

I cracked a smile before taking a glimpse of Jean Tovin. I think I miss him. I want to approach him but I'm so scared. He left me and I think we're so over. Hindi pa nga niya ako binibisita. I missed my small house. I want to feel our relationship there.

"Dulcis, I'm gonna approach him and confront him--"

"No. Please, Darke. We... I think we just cooled off."

"Fvck."

"Let's just eat Darke."

I want to cry when I saw Jean Tovin with a girl. Familiar. Persephone I guess. She's stunning and Jean Tovin is looking okay. He forgot about us... My boyfriend forgot me... And now, he's escorting another girl definitely not me.

I sighed but there is a strong feeling on my chest. My chest went heavier than anything. Maybe I carried one hell of pain. I drank the water served and grasp for Darke's arm. Napatingin sa akin si Tita Claire.

"What?"

"I'm sleepy. I want to go."

Napatingin siya sa direction nina Tovin at Persephone.

"I really need to approach him and kill him."

He stood up and everyone's making commotions when Darke punched my poor Jean Tovin.