There Was This Bartender || (jokerxreader)

Chapter 18

A/N: hey kiddos, PSA if anyone knows where I can copy gifs and put them as headers in my stories that would be very much appreciated, because I don't know where to get them :///

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JOKER POV

    I didn't know how to act when she wakes up. I sat on the desk chair next to the bed just staring at her. She hasn't moved at all the last 4 hours it was around 4 am at this point. The only movement I could see from her was her chest moving up and down. Finally she groaned and twisted around in the bed. I grabbed the hot rag quickly and jumped to her side. She slowly opened her eyes and rubbed them a bit. They were glossy and her Y/E/C was crazy bright right now as I started at her. "Oh... hey J..." she rubbed her eyes and stretched, just like she was waking up from a beauty nap. She began to sit up but then winced in pain as she grabbed her head. "Ah fuck what the fuck..." she felt her head and rubbed it trying to make the pain go away. The pain I caused her... The only pain she should be having it the pain she enjoys... which would also be cause by me... but that's not the point that's different!

     I removed the cold pack from her head and handed her the hot rag. "How are you feeling?" I ask her. "Well better I guess, still kinda hurts though." She placed the hot rag on her head and sat up. She basically refused to make eye contact with me. "Y/N" "yea?" She finally looked at me, maybe I was just paranoid. "I-I'm... sorry..." That was much much harder than I thought it was going to be. I never say I'm sorry, not when I can help it. Why say your sorry if you don't actually mean it or care. But with Y/N I did actually care, a little bit... she shot her head up when I said that. "Oh umm, no it's fine I guess last night just got a little too out of control." She giggled but I could tell she just thought this all was awkward. "Can you get changed and take a shower and everything?" She swung her legs of the bed and sat there for a minute. Then she held her arm out and it took me a moment but I shot up and helped her out of the bed. I walked her over to the closet.

     I looked at her for a little bit as we stood there awkwardly. "So you need help with this or...?" I let out a little laugh but she looked actually very upset by that. I let go of her arm and out my hands up in defense. "Sorry sorry I'll just leave you to it." I walk away from her and she closes the closet door. I decided to just go and get some work done, I needed to stop bothering her and just leave her a lone for a bit.

Y/N POV

    I undressed and headed to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror, I see all my tattoos that J gave me. I didn't know how I felt in the moment. I wanted to cry and kill myself. But I didn't I touched all the tattoos and traced them. I began to laugh a bit. It was just to myself and kinda a giggle. It then grew more and more. I couldn't stop myself and honestly all this was funny. The fact I was here, the fact that I am now kinda falling for a clown who kidnapped me. Fuck is crazy contagious??? I thought about it the whole time I took a shower. I thought if I left how my life would be. I thought if I stayed how my life would be. But honestly I realized that if I stayed nothing would be the same. I'd stay with J and probably eventually fall in love. No matter what he does I always end up forgiving him. But I was okay with it, I honestly liked being here even though it was hard. But I was willing to go through it. I got out of the shower and looked at myself again. I liked those tattoos, I liked the way I looked. I got dressed, I wore black white striped adidas leggings and my white tank top. I looked at myself again, I was happy here. Honestly I was, and I wanted to tell J.

    I walked down the hallway to J's office. I let out a big breath as I knocked on his door. "What?" He didn't sound mad he sounded just neutral in his voice. I peaked my head in, he didn't look up. "J?" I said no louder than a whisper. He looked up and grew a small smile. "Well hello dollface, to be honest I didn't expect to see you today." I giggle a bit and walk slowly in the room and over to J. He motioned for me to sit in his lap and I did. I put my arms around his neck and he wrapped his arms around my waist. We looked at each other for a while and then I pulled him closer and kissed him. He seemed surprised at first but then got into it. I pulled away and he grew a giant smile that showed his grillz. "Well someone's in a good mood," I let out a giggle and smiled back at him. "How are you feeling baby?" He hugged me a bit and looked back at me. "Much better."
"I can tell." He lets out a loud laugh and throws his head back, I laugh with him. "Hey can we go out? Maybe? Just like get out of the house maybe?" He leans back a bit then smiles again. "Of course we can doll!" He smiles and kisses my cheek. "Really?" I smile and perk up a bit. "Mhm anything for you baby. How about my club Friday night as a moral booster for Saturday?" He laughs agains and I sit there nervously thinking about last time I was In that club with him. "Do you really think that's a good idea...?" He stopped laughing and looked at me concerned. Almost like I didn't something wrong but still seemed somewhat sincere about it. "That was before... I will do better this time I promise, do you trust me dollface?" I wasn't entirely sure that I did but I nodded in response. He smiled brightly again showing his grillz and from this angle I could see them very well. He had bright white teeth and his grillz were a silver metal with some diamonds in his canines. "There should be some dresses in the closet, make sure you look hot. I want to make sure everyone knows your mine and hates it." He continues to laugh like a maniac and honestly it was cute now. I enjoyed it.