Days go on.
Nights fly by.
What is it that makes me think this way?
I have friends. I have help.
I have no one to help...
It's too hard to think about the bright side. It hurts my head.
Days fly by.
Nights go on.
I can't sleep. Sometimes not at all. If I do sleep, it is either a short time or a long time.
When I can't sleep, I talk to new friends.
They are strange... mysterious...
They are grey sheep. They are undecided if they are trying to help me or just use me.
What am I saying? I can't trust them- I do not know them!
"Sleep."
"?"
"Sleep."
"And if I don't?"
They can mute me. They can kick me and remove me from their lives. I don't care.
I don't care.
I don't care...
I stare in realization, that I never loved what I thought was my crush. I don't know how to help my friends, and I am unsure if I even care.
I... don't care?
That would be wonderful. To be like a wall! I want to be a wall. They don't care! They don't live! They don't die! They exist!
Hahahahaha!
Haha...
...Why am I laughing? Not caring is a bad thing. Not following my own advice is bad. No help is bad and yet... and yet...
I like it. I have grow to like my black sheep. They have always been there for me.
Happiness is a lie. Despair is how one smiles.
Is it?
That can't be right. Can't be right!
This means I a still society's little "freakshow" and I don't mind it.
I can be hurt and laugh at it.
Is this who I am? Or what I will be?!
This sheep leaves my mind? Did it? I still remember. Why do I remember?! I am suppose to forget!
It's because I can't sleep, is it?
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Counting Sheep
Teen FictionOne sheep, two sheep, This is not helping at all. Three sheep, four- Someone kill me, I must snoop this low. Five sheep, six sheep, I feel tired, but the waters still flow. Seven sheep, eight she- It looks like the sheep hit a wall. I guess eight sh...