off the map, emilio martinez.

chapter thirty one.

CHAPTER THIRTY ONE,
tegans pov

i stared into emilio's eyes. they sparkled in the light.

"i love you." emilio said.

"emilio." i said.

"tegan, i love you so much."

"emilio, i told you i need fucking time!" i yelled.

"okay, okay. i understand." he lied.

i knew he was lying. he didn't understand me or my whole entire life.

i have been in and out of toxic friend ships and some relationships. my mother is a crackhead that cares about drugs more than her own children. my mothers boyfriend abuses justin and i. my other best friend killed herself. the people at my old school were awful to each other.

i have never just had one happy day in my whole entire life until i met him. i love him so much and want to be with him so badly but just can't.  i will ruin him. he will become an awful person just like everyone else in my life becomes.

"i just really need some time emilio and don't ever ask anymore questions please." i said.

"okay." he said.

i walked to tessa's room to see tessa and summer sitting on her bed.

"tegan!" summer yelled.

"oh my god!" tessa yelled.

"hi guys." i smiled.

"what's wrong?" summer asked.

"emilio and other things." i said.

"tell us please." tessa begged.

"well you can't tell anyone but the one day , i went to angie's house and we had a little party. this guy led me up to a bedroom and-"

"no no no no no." tessa said.

"tegan." summer cried.

"can we just not talk about it right now?" i asked.

"you need to tell someone." summer said.

"i don't know who he was." i said.

"omg." tessa said.

"there's nothing they can do." i said.

emilios pov

did i just hear what tegan just said? someone raped her? oh my fuck.

i barged in the room.

"tegan." i said.

"did you just hear that whole thing?" she asked.

"yes." i sighed.

"don't fucking tell anyone." she yelled.

"why?"

"there's nothing we can do about it." tegan said.

"do you want to sleep with me tonight?" i asked.

her eyes almost flied out of her head.

"sure." she said.

what? she actually said yes.

tegans pov

i can't believe he asked me to sleep with him tonight. he just keeps coming back for more. i need some space but he is just not letting me.

emilio puts his hand out to help me up.

"let's go out and get some ice cream." emilio said.

should i go?

"um...."

"please." emilio begged.

"okay."

"can we come?" tessa pouted.

"pleaseeee." summer pouted.

"sure." emilio rolled his eyes.

we walked downstairs to the team ten van.

"can you drive us nick?" tessa asked.

"whatever." nick replied.

we got into the van and was off.

i sat with summer and tessa in the middle while emilio sat up front with nick.

i just feel so awkward around him now.

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